About 20 minutes ago I wrote up a 1000 word blog on what’s going on with me. Yeah, I won’t be posting that. As many of you know, I take an herbal supplement along with my Juice Plus called Kratom. A native relative of the coffee plant, Kratom comes from the jungles of Southeast Asia and has medicinal properties like no other. For anyone with an addictive personality (like myself), I have found Kratom to be a lifesaver. This winter has me battling a depression far worse than previous years. What is does to my body on a physical level is so bad, I wonder how I get out of bed each day. My entire body is cracked and dry, no matter how much oil, lotion, you name it, that I put on it. It doesn’t work. I have been dealing with a headache for 3 months straight now. Signs point to my thyroid and gluten allergy, but hey, it’s not that I didn’t know this. Kratom helps me with depression, and Juice Plus helps out everywhere else. However, since this cold weather really kicked us in the face this season, it seems NOTHING is working, no matter how much I take. I was in the middle of taking my Kratom when I wrote the post that no one will ever see, dear God it was so depressing! That’s how bad it has been recently. Sigh….
But, the Kratom HAS kicked in and I am feeling slightly better. It makes me so happy to see more people trying this miracle plant. It has helped people off so many prescription and street drugs. And it almost has become a vocation for me to reach out to those who need it. Quite a few people now order it at work, and my fiance’s best friend will be trying it this week. It makes getting through this winter so much more worthwhile. And I need to keep it in my head, that in 30 days, this weather will most likely be gone. Crocuses will be blossoming, and tiny buds from hyacinths, daffodils and tulips will be making their way to the surface. Mother Earth is waking up, and I know it is so important to remember that right now, instead of complaining of what’s happening right now. My sweet friends up North, Lisa, Stephanie, Pixie, Bren, and Heather are all dealing with the continuous bad weather those states have been getting the last couple weeks. My heart goes out to you all, and know I am holding you close to my heart that Spring will be coming sooner than later.
Today also marks our official 60 day mark until our wedding! For those who haven’t seen our website, please check it out!
My sweet friends have decided to throw me a bridal shower on Saturday, March 14, and I look forward to being able to spend it with my family and friends. (sad to know my one sister cannot attend, but life is crazy these days, so I hope she knows I will miss her there.)
Needless to say, as I continue typing, the general happiness is coming back into my body. Thank you Kratom for helping me with this. Please let me know if anyone wants to know more about this plant.
I have decided to give up the good fight on the rumors that were circulating around a couple weeks ago that I don’t believe in Jesus. It’s been a rough couple weeks but I am truly hanging in there. I will continue to pray for those people and just continue to live on. Yesterday I was at Earthspeak in Kimberton, and bought these beautiful pictures of Jesus and St. Germain, my two teachers. Jesus is out in the living room and St. Germain is in my bedroom. Maybe this week I will post pictures of my sacred spaces throughout my home. I hope they bring you the kind of peace they bring me.
Also, I have been lax on the 44 days of Spirit. Forgive me. I know many of you have emailed me asking if I forgot about it, and my answer is this: No, I promise I will continue, just got thrown off the ramp a bit from that rumor. It’s hard to keep a smile on your face when your name is being spoken in a negative manner. But I promise, I will continue that series. So much I want to share with you all.
In the end, I just wanted to thank you guys for sticking by me these last couple weeks while I sort my emotions out. I see a bright light at the end of the tunnel, so I am looking forward to continuing my journey.
And as my amazing and wonderful Super-Aunt Kathy told me, “Be 100% there.” Well, that’s a promise I know I will keep.
Love, Light and Ooey-Gooey Happiness,