Ahhh, today is Memorial Day. An important time to remember the citizens of my country who paid a price for our freedom. I know for me, Memorial Day should not just be a United States Holiday. It should be a Universal holiday. Religious zealots, political prowess, bigotry, and all-around hatred has caused our little world to continually be turned upside down. Thankfully, we are at the threshold of a new era – an era of peace. Those who believe in prophecy (not religious, but universal), know that usually after generations of war always follows with generations of peace. And we are coming down from the climax of war. Yes, even though there is still hate and war out there, we have to admit to ourselves we are moving towards a turning point. Think about this – 100 years ago…what was NOT allowed to be? Being public with homosexuality, transgenderism, women’s rights, freedom from slavery, child labor laws…just to name a few. To me, as I see it, it’s an insult on the people who died so that we may live, by living with hate, anger and resentment. Sure, we have the freedom to do that, but think about it…is it REALLY freedom?
I look at the world today, and see so much growth happening. And although I still get disgusted at the hate and bigotry that is STILL out there, it IS decreasing. People are beginning to wake up! They are witnessing the innate and absolute awe of loving unconditionally one another. Leaving behind the uneducated, misled and arrogant stances of how other people live. When we STOP worrying about how other people are living, we begin to love ourselves a little bit more. And when we love ourselves more, that love begins to radiate out to the masses. This has always been part of my journey, as I learned long ago that the continuous judgement where I am on the receiving end of that judgement, will only create more anger in those throwing that anger toward me. I choose love. That doesn’t mean I’m going to be a walking mat, no, it just means I choose love. Jesus once talked about walking away from the Old Testament “Eye for an Eye” way of life, and instead, choose to turn the other cheek.
Matthew 5:38-40 — “You have heard that it was said, ‘Eye for an eye, and tooth for a tooth’. But I tell you, do not resist an evil person. If anyone slaps you on the right cheek, turn to them the other cheek also. And if anyone wants to sue you and take your shirt, hand over your coat as well.”
Such a brilliant way to look at life. When people choose to live their lives in hatred, judgement, bigotry, and an overall victim-hood mentality, walk away. But walk away with love. You can forgive those who hate you, spit at you and judge you, but doing it back to them only shows that you are just as bad as they. Choose to walk away. Now, 5-10 years ago, I would have lost my nerve and screamed and cried and made sure they knew how much they hurt me. No more. I listen, and tell them I’m so sorry they feel this way. I’ve learned to know that I am an amazing woman who has flaws just like everyone else. But I choose now to not use my flaws as ways to get out of things, or make excuses as to why I need to be “different”. Not my style.
Today my husband and I took a walk through our gardens. We have been experiencing some really hot and humid weather, to the point that even my deep garden bedding experienced some tough challenges. We talked about idea to make things better, and how to support the even living creatures and plants that now dwell back there. Last week I put together a little bird bath made out of a ceramic potting base and an iron plant stand. The robins and blue jays that have come to play back there now brings such a smile on my face. I want the creatures to know that I not only build these sacred gardens for myself and those I love, but for them as well. They need to eat too, you know!
Also, in my continuing lessons of humility, I started back up on my Celtic Devotional written by my dear friend, Cailtin Matthews. Split into the four major Earth Holidays, each Sabbat/Season has a daily prayer for morning AND at night. Solar and Lunar meditations, as well as additional blessings and prayers for everything under the sun. I lost it during the move, so you could only imagine how happy to have it back on my person.
I also realized some other things. I’m not cut out for certain things in my life. It’s a quite profound moment when you realize this. When you are in an environment that is not healthy, everything around you will go down with you. I realized this when I came to the conclusion of my failing health. It’s funny how it began when it did, and how it is continuing to this day. I continue to find ways to get better, and always try to look at the positive side of things. It’s not good when you know of people who seem to think the worst of things, the worst of you, or just make assumptions that are clearly not true.
I get it. I don’t run with the “normal” crowd. I don’t understand why it bothers people so much in what I believe in. Apparently if you go to church but you are an unmitigated asshole, you’re still in better shape than me, a non-church goer who believes in doing good and being good. Apparently because I believe in things like angels and fairies, astrology and magical intentions, I’m doomed to eternal hell. Does it make me sad? Yes, I’m heartbroken that even at 42 I still get phone calls telling me that people I love are spreading assumptions about me because of their own fear or lack of understanding. Should I resist? No. I’m not going to fight anymore. I am simply turning the other cheek, because I know at the end of the day, I do it with love, and no one can take that away from me.
We need to work together. All of us. We need to STOP assuming the worst in everyone. We need to STOP being so angry and resentful because your life may not be as happy as someone else. Make the most of your life. The tiny things in this world can sometimes make the biggest impact. To never give up hope even on the darkest of days.
Today my husband and my boys went for a walk through Blackrock Sanctuary. Needed to be outside even on this hot day. Being out in nature gives me a time, even for a moment, to realize what we have right in front of us. And that to be grateful for these things will only give us more ability to move forward positively. Be light. Be love. Be magic. Because all three is all around us. But you’re only going to see it if you walk away from your chains of darkness.