|This morning, within a matter of 30 seconds, I read of 8 deaths. 2 by suicide, 5 at the hands of 1 of the suicides, and 1 by the grace of our Creator. Then I read one of my favorite local pubs had a devastating fire. All this happened yesterday.
|Breathe, Bridget. Breathe…|
|The last few nights it seems my soul has been escaping to other dimensions or other places that seem so real, that if I didn’t wake up, I’d probably be OK. Now, don’t get me wrong, reading those words is not a cry for help for something bigger and deeper brewing inside of me. No, not at all. In fact, only 1 time in the whole of my 42 years did I ever question my mortality. I actually love my life, and looking forward to living much more of it.|
|But that doesn’t mean I don’t want to escape from time to time. Especially when I read things like what I read this morning, I’d do anything to just close my eyes and go somewhere else.
|Over the last several years, I have been experiencing what you would call, “otherworldly” dreams and astral traveling. If you’ve never astral traveled, you’re missing out. There is nothing more liberating and thrilling than allowing your soul, still tethered to your body, to lift up and out, while it travels to places unknown that your physical body cannot go to yet.|
|In the beginning, I remember going up to my ceiling, and going out as far as my living room. It’s frightful in the beginning, because I felt these tingling sensations, almost like sleep paralysis, but I knew that if I moved, I would be brought right back into my body. No, I needed to venture out. My soul knew deep inside there was more than the 3 dimensional prison we have been placed inside, with so many of us truly believing that THIS is our only home, that this is where we should be and we can never ever leave. That this indeed, was all we had. Sadly, there are still millions of people in our world that believe that. They are sleeping soundly, and seeing the continued war, political prowess, and evil doings within our humanity, it’s a wonder our higher selves and spiritual guides are at times, hesitant to come forth.
|If you are just reading this for the first time and you are saying to yourself, “what makes you think I’m sleeping? Just because I don’t believe in this crap you talk about doesn’t mean I’m ‘sleeping’…”
|Well, my dear one…you are.|
|And really, I am SO sorry to tell you that.
Look, I want you to think about something.
|Why do you believe we are the only ones out there? Why do you believe no one more powerful isn’t hiding things from us? Why do you believe that we have to “obey” and “consume” in order to survive? Here’s a word for you that I am thinking is very important in your vocabulary.
|Fear, my child, is the very essence to why so many humans are still “sleeping”. We have been driven in this world by fear. Fear of the unknown. Fear of difference. Fear of change. The people who run this world drive this home to each and every one of us by things like food, drink, medicine, media, money, and so much more.|
|Monsanto is good for you, why? Because they are the only ones who can feed you at this point. Medicine is good for you, why? Because they are the only ones who can make you FEEL better. War is good, why? Because those people are different, and therefore bad and we are all the same, therefore we are good, and therefore we have to drive the bad out.|
|We live in a world of FEAR. Our lives are controlled by FEAR. And allowing yourself to remain fearful of these very things, are what keeps these people in power, STAY in power. I mean, look at my news feed for example. In 30 seconds, I learned of EIGHT deaths. Fear of death is the most feared thing in our world. Why? Because we learned at a young age that death means separation. Death means change. Death means sadness. And human being thrive on being together, all being the same, all being happy. So, those in power FEED us with fear. Hoping that we stay right where we are at.|
|I no longer follow this way any longer. I decided to change. I decided to be different. I decided to create rather than consume. I decided to look at fear in the face and say, NOT TODAY.|
|So, I learned how to escape. Not with alcohol or drugs, not with sex or gluttonous food or frivolous spending. No, I went deeper. I went right to the heart of my humanity. I went to my soul. And I told my soul, “Let’s go somewhere. Let’s get outta here for a bit.”
|And so I did. I started dreaming. I started allowing my body to release that fear by allowing my soul to break away from my body and explore what I craved to understand. And the moment I decided to let this happen, magic came into my life. It’s been so many years since I started this, I can’t really pinpoint the exact date. But I DO know, that as I grow older, my soul grows wiser, and I find myself exploring different worlds, different dimensions, different universes. I started learning about my own soul’s ascension, lion’s gate and other portals into the universal consciousness. WE ARE LOVE.
So why do we fear? If there was a time to break away from this fear pattern, this would be now. I did it. And for those that know me, if I can do it, ANYONE can. I’m about as hard headed as they come. But I did it, and it’s a freedom that sometimes can be SO overwhelming I just start crying.
Last night my soul escaped to another plane of consciousness. It felt like I was on a spaceship, but was like another Earth. I was told I was STILL on Earth, but on a different dimension. It felt like I was thousands of miles away from my home, my bed, my life, my world. I remember the ONLY thing I felt pain was the distance between me and my son. I wanted him there with me, and made it clear to the people in charge of this ship that I wanted him there. The assured me my son was fine, and that he WOULD be fine. They told me they wanted me to stay. I told them I could not stay forever, but that I would stay for awhile. I explored the ship, which felt like a cross between a hospital, a home and a school. I walked outside of the “commander” office, and wanted to explore everything. I walked into what seemed like bedrooms, bathrooms, and long hallways. I looked outside and saw trees and grass with shades of green that I’ve never seen before. It was as if everything was iridescent, or metallic in nature. So pristine, so beautiful. I was feeling sick and very worried that my son Tim wasn’t with me, so they told me to drink this water and it would make me better. The water was clearer than anything water I’d ever seen in my life. It made me feel energized and motivated.
I remember being told to go visit my parents. I hopped on a spaceship and ever so smoothly, glided through the black vastness of space, towards an area that had these homes that were built up, almost as if they were floating in the sky. I recognized this home as my parents home, and proceeded to dock my ship. I had with me my husband and 3 children, but they were little girls. As I approached their doors, I saw people laying in lounge chairs outside, as my Dad came towards me, I saw my Mom helping one of the people laying on the chairs. He kissed and hugged me, and told me that they were caring for refugees from another planet, who came here for solace from a war that was going on. I then realized it was MY Earth they were talking about. They looked so sick. My Mom was feeding them that water I had on the command ship. My Dad told me to go upstairs and seek refuge from the impending storm coming through. The 5 of us went upstairs and found a bedroom with 4 twin beds. The three girls pushed their beds together to create one gigantic bed, while my husband and I tried to figure out how we would sleep with just one twin bed. I remember walking about my parents home, and seeing that so much of it was not being used. Blank walls, furniture under white sheets, very stark. But all I kept thinking about was my son.
Before I knew it, I was back on the command ship, and realized I missed my son TOO much, and next thing I knew, I felt myself open my eyes and I realized I was in my bed, laying next to my husband, and my son was standing above me going, “Good morning Mom”. It was 9:48 AM today. (Sunday)
I laid in bed, feeling a little sad about leaving where I was, but grateful I got to look into my son’s big brown eyes. Fear still lives within me. The fear of separation. I learned long ago my son is a much more advanced soul, an incredibly old one for that matter, and that he is here to teach me many many lessons. He is a soul family member, as is my Godson, Brandon. I still try to figure out who is in my soul family, and who are just passers by in this life of mine. I truly hate having that fear of separation. And I think these trips I am taking is helping me understand that separation isn’t necessarily a bad thing. But right now, I’m grateful I don’t have it. I need my son in my life like a person needs air to breathe.
So although I can escape my realities to explore others, in the end, and right now, THIS is my home. And in understanding that, I need to learn to NOT fear while being here. But let me tell you, it sure is fun to get away every now and then. 😉
If you are interested in learning more about astral traveling, different dimensions and other planets/universes, please feel free to contact me.
Several posts ago, I posted about a video that truly changed my life. Truth is, I still can’t stop talking about it. I want the whole world to know what I felt what I saw and heard through this video that was less than 30 minutes long. (If you want to see the video, please hover over my word “video” in the first sentence and click on it- that will take you to that video)
Why is it, that things in our life go through such unbelievable change, yet we either shy away from it or worse, completely ignore the signs, and instead walk amongst the sheep who choose to live through life with their eyes closed?
We were born into this world for reasons we have no idea why. Religions tell us because God created us to live a spiritual life in a physical world. Science tells us there is not spiritual world, and that we were made from star dust. And here we are, in 2016, we are STILL arguing how in the world we got here (no pun intended). I remember back in the 1980’s when Pope John Paul II caused an absolute ruckus within the Catholic Church when he offered the idea that maybe God created the Big Bang. Religious Conservatives and Scientific Scholars lost their proverbial minds over this because in their own minds, putting Science and Religion together is simply a no bueno.
Why do unknown things scare us so freaking much? I mean, take for instance something simple. Right now, as I sit typing this out, I am drinking on of my well-known Kratom teas. I came across this amazing Southeast Asian plant back in 2013 and although at first I was skeptical, I found that this plant has helped me come off so many dangerous drugs created by Big Pharma. And still, 3 years later, people around me are fearful that I am taking some “drug”. In the video that I suggested above, the narrator states that Light means “Information” and Darkness means “Lack of Information”. Which of course makes complete sense when you use the phrase of “Being in the dark” about things. For example (and I apologize if I sound like I’m going off in another direction – I swear it will make sense in the end)…A common human trait when we become comfortable is stagnancy. It’s why couples tend to gain weight together once they get out of the “honeymoon” phase. It’s why kids become addicted to video games because we as parents try to find some form of peace and quiet and we know that’s how we get it. Patterns become habits and sometimes those patterns are not necessarily good ones. Yet, changing ourselves can sometimes be a tedious and challenging task that can at times prove to be almost impossible. This is usually due to our environment, relationships, careers, health, and a multitude of other facets. This, in a sense, is living in the dark.
We can also be in the dark because we are forced to be. You don’t need to be a rocket scientist to believe the governments of the world keeps things hidden from the people of this planet. Now, before you get all crazy like by calling me a conspiracy theorist, do your research. You don’t need to follow politics to know we are not told everything. And yet, big corporations like Monsanto and big Banks and the politicians they pay for continue to grow stronger and richer, slowly closing the gap on what was once the Middle Class. Modern Day Physicists have already proved Molecular Time Travel, Dark Matter, Black Holes, as well as a feast of what you would think they would be from some Science Fiction story.
Whether you care to believe it or not, WE are changing. We are evolving. We are no longer in a 4 Dimensional World. We are currently moving into the 5th Dimension. Many people, in fact, some I personally know, have already moved into this realm. The veil between the living world and the other world has been thinner than ever in our lives. Can’t you feel that energy? It is why more and more people are moving away from organized religion and finding solace in a personal relationship with our Creator without the dogmatic laws of control. It’s why the “new age” philosophies have boomed into our world creating its own market. Why? Because we are humans and we HAVE to evolve. We NEED to evolve. Does it matter how we got here? Does it matter what we did before? Not really. What matters is NOW. Echkert Tolle coined the phrase “Living in the Now” and has a best selling book on it. But truthfully, you don’t need to read a book about living in the now. It’s a very simple concept.
You cannot rewrite the past.
You cannot predict the future.
All you have is now.
How do you feel about now? I know for a lot of people, you’re not feeling that great. Because the Earth Herself is evolving, we who live with her need to keep up or we’re going to be left behind. You need to remember this very important fact:
Mother Earth CAN and WILL live without us.
However, we CANNOT live without Her.
Get out of the darkness and move into the light.
Yesterday marked the First Day of Spring. Now, although my belief system has me preparing for Spring as early as February 1st, most people in the Northern Hemisphere celebrate March 20th as the first day of Spring. It makes sense because this is around the time that the crocuses, daffodils and tulips are budding out of hibernation, ready to open up and declare life has come back to us! What a joyous occasion it is! It is the day of the Spring Equinox, the day when the daytime and nighttime are of equal length. People of Persian descent celebrate their New Year with the Feast of Nowruz, and for my astrological peeps, March 20th symbolizes the beginning of the Astrological New Year.
So, all in all, it is a day of rebirth. And as I stated on a Facebook post on my personal page, it is the reason why Christianity celebrates the death and resurrection of Jesus Christ. Jesus was actually crucified in November of 33 AD based on historical research and fact (I don’t need anyone quoting scripture to me, the timing of his birth and death means nothing. It’s the actual events in hand where the importance lies), but it is honored around the week of the Equinox since its original Pagan origins symbolized the rebirth of Springtime. For many that wonder where Eggs, Chickens, Lambs, and Bunny Rabbits seem to be the symbol of Easter? Well, that was because the original holiday, Ostara, was about rebirth, and all the baby animals, including eggs, were apart of this day. In Greek Mythology, Persephone came out of the Underworld back into her Mother Demeter’s arms on the Spring Equinox. Persephone is the Goddess of Spring, of baby animals, and of rebirth itself. When Christianity took over Rome, they kept some of the symbols, while burying the rest of the story.
(Jesus loves ALL of us, don’t let anyone tell you different)
See? Now, does it matter? No. Of course not. Why? Because no matter how you slice it, we are ALL connected. Every. Single. One. Of. Us.
Okay, well, thanks for the history lesson, Bridget, but what does this have to do with Ascension, you ask?
Everything. Because in order for us to truly, TRULY understand how Mother Earth evolves, we too, must evolve. Ascend to new dimensions to further align our physical bodies with our spiritual ones.
It is heartbreaking for me to see people so blinded by pride and ego. Anything that is said outside their own understanding is cause for worry, resentment, or downright anger for thinking outside the box. People are irritated because they are dealing with someone who “just can’t be normal like the rest of us”, or “why do you have to act like a hippy or gypsy or whatever you call it, why can’t you just act normal?” This week I read an article where a Christian woman was fasting for 15 days for her love of Jesus. On the 15th Day, she because delirious and was sent to the hospital, where her bloodwork came with all low amounts of everything. She told the hospital she was fasting. She took her bible out and prayed. The doctor made the assumption she was unstable, and had her involuntarily committed for 5 days where she was forced Psychotropic medicines!!! I mean, seriously! How cruel is that??? She was of sound mind after she was given saline to hydrate her, and yet the hospital staff and doctor even went as far as to try to get the court to allow them to lock her up in a mental institution! For praying! (As of right now, this woman is currently suing the hospital, doctor and staff for unlawful imprisonment). Link to the article is below:
People judge you fas being abnormal, crazy and the like, just for being spiritual. This is life right now for many people. Sadly, this type of conversation is usually part of my life at least once a week. In the beginning, I would fight back, and put people in their place. It did nothing but put me right where they wanted. It was so difficult to pull away and turn the other cheek, breathe out the bad moments and pray they lessen as the days pass. Because one of two things are going to happen: The person(s) will simply walk away from you never to speak to you again, or they will simply accept you. Don’t ever expect the nagging to go away. It won’t. People with bruised egos will do anything to make their point. And that’s okay for you, remember that. Allow them to do what they have to do. That does not mean you need to engage in the warfare, though. And that is simply what that is. You can choose to fight, or you can choose to love.
Always choose to love.
And yes, this is a very reasonable thing to ask. Just because the thought of a Utopian Society is pretty much something that may never happen in our lifetime, doesn’t mean each person shouldn’t strive to make their life utopian. This is the one thing that drives me batty! Just because we live in a crappy world with lots of greedy, angry and hurtful souls who are just simply blinded by the truth, doesn’t mean those who can see should act blindly as well for the sake of feeling justified!
Ascension is about moving up. Taking the high road. Seeing the big, overall picture. That’s all Ascension is.
And in that video, whether the beings are real or not, the message is abundantly clear: OPEN YOUR EYES. See the truth of the world but more importantly…LIVE YOUR TRUTH.
I have a story. There’s no reason for it, only a collaboration of many dreams, visions and ideas that have come into my life over the course of the last ten years. As I sit here listening to Book of Days by Enya, my belly begins to stir, as if I need to DO something.
Well, right now, all I can think of is that I need to WRITE.
A few years ago, I began a novel. It’s nowhere finished. I’m only about 42,000 words into it, so I’m just a little over 1/3 done. The story alone is beautiful, but it’s missing something. It’s one of the reasons why I haven’t moved forward on it. Last year I may have worked on it 3-5 times. Towards the end of the year I did work on it before and after work for a total of 6 hours, but quite honestly, I’m not making the dent I was hoping for.
But right now I have these visions and dreams that NEED and will be a part of my story. Yet, right now, I feel like I want to give you a glimpse of my story. Like a section off a section of the story itself.
Have you ever had the feeling of euphoric bliss? You know that feeling that comes with such ecstacy you are almost certain it isn’t real. It is almost as if you are having an out of body experience. The feeling begins in the solar plexus of your body, that shoots downward, upward and outward in fissions of pure delight and joy. Sometimes we even see “speckles of stars” from our peripheral vision, let alone an absolute feeling of such deep emotion it can bring you to tears.
And how deeply sad that we, as humans, rarely have that opportunity to feel what our souls only know?
When we transferred into the physical body during the contract negotiations of the life we were going into, one of the very things we give up is the constant state of euphoria. When you are behind the veil, that very veil that the human race has sadly been kept on the other side of, you only know of your ego’s needs and desires. At times of desperation, we turn to things that will give us temporary states of bliss. Be that in foods, relationship, drugs, alcohol, medicines, etc…they are all ego sanctioned properties that the soul does not experience, because it is the HUMAN aspect of this life that gives us this opportunity to be a part of.
The soul, as we know, is pure. Our soul is the essence of the being. So in order for that being to understand the physical matters of the world, the soul creates a contract that lists the lessons the soul is willing to endure in order to ascend into higher levels of consciousness, leading us closer to our Prime Creator.
There is no ONE Heaven. In fact, there are many. So many, in fact, it is not even worth to count, because there are just too many for our Heavens are as vast as the Universe itself. And just think: Our galaxy is one of 100 billion stars. And outside of our galaxy, scientists counted 100 billion galaxies. A person would have to be supremely arrogant to think we are the only beings living. Can you ONLY imagine all the other beings out there, let alone galaxies and Heavens? We look at our one little planet…Earth. How glorious she is. How beautiful. When we think of Heaven, many people who believe in certain religious dream of a big city where people who are good go to. And that people who are bad, go to Hell.
My dears, I wish it was only that simple.
I do not believe in Hell. Well, at least the Hell that is described in modern day. We are beautiful beings of light that our Creator made in the image of themselves. No one can ever get me to agree that there is a place that this loving and compassionate Creator throws these sinful humans for eternity.
In saying that, I DO believe that there is a dark and desolate place for people who need additional lessons learned before they are able to enter the Eternal Heavens. Some people call it Purgatory. I really don’t call it anything, because I try very hard today not to label. But in my heart, I do believe this place exists. And then and only then, when the ego has been pulled apart and broken down to the essence of humility, do these beautiful but scarred souls release themselves into the eternal bliss of Oneness with God.
(Credit: Ryan Wykoff)
I also believe in other races outside the Human race on Earth. I believe in the Sirians, the Arturians, the Pleiadians, the Andromedans, the Orions and countless other species that inhabit the grand Universe. With these other races, we are only then given the chance to reach out to so many other Heavens. But all these Heavens are provided for and Created none other than the Prime Creator, we all know as God.
This, is what I see when I close my eyes at night.
I hear soft whispers of singing and humming, along with ripples of energy waves that look like rainbows floating in the skies. The skies, depending on where I am, are colors of Purple, Blue, Green, Aqua, Yellow, Pink and Orange. They are almost hyper in color. I smell scents of Jasmine and Honeysuckle, Sandalwood and Sage, Sweet Grass and Lavender. I am in the best of health, and have found myself on many occasions being able to fly, jump hundreds of feet into the air, and land as if I was a dried leaf landing on its final resting place. I have strength beyond my wildest imagination. But there is one thing I cannot leave out. The joy. The euphoria. The absolute state of ecstatic bliss I feel in this state is beyond comprehension.
I look out to the iridescent seas of aqua and almost a metallic white (as I said, the colors are almost hyper, or neon)…I have an energy pulsating within me, sending sweet sparks of happiness through what I would think to be my veins. I am ready to go to my Eternal Home.
What does my home look like, you ask?
From what I can remember, the air itself has a pink aura to it. It might be because almost every tree where I live has beautiful sweet pink flowers blossoming from them. The day light hours are always hazy but no humidity. Nighttime turns the beautiful blue skies a light purple, with stars so many it is impossible to count. In a way, it is always Springtime. There are paths around this area that are made of crystals and cobblestones. The houses where souls live, are different shapes and sizes, but all made from the same material: Crystal, a luminous metal of some sort and birch wood. Parts of the homes are decorated with the most beautiful gemstones of emeralds, diamonds, rubies and so forth. My “village” or “town” that I live in is always buzzing with some form of celebration. Music is always playing, everyone is so happy and so peaceful. If I had to put a physical look to it, my home is a combination of the town of Duillond and The Shire from Middle Earth. It might be why both these places always stirred some emotional connection within me. If you don’t know what I’m talking about, below are some pictures of the perceived look of these places…
I look up into the sky, and see beautiful ships passing by, as well as comet-looking streaks that gives me the acknowledgement that they are indeed, fellow souls on their travels.
So, imagine if you will, a never-ending Spring time. Everywhere you go, there are flowers and trees continually blossoming and yet, always fruitful. The colors are extremely vivid, almost overwhelming your sense of sight. Even the air itself, has a buzzing energy you can actually see as metallic flecks of rainbow energy dazzling around you, as if pixie dust was actually part of the atmosphere. The sky during the day was a bright sky blue, while the Sunrise and Sunset gave off dazzling hues of reds, purples, pinks and orange. The nighttime sky was a shade of lavender purple that makes the starry skies light up in magical wonderment.
These are my thoughts, my visions, my dreams. It is what helps me sink into sleep at night. To dream of this heavenly home like the Undying Lands in Tolkien stories or Valhalla in the Norse tales. As if Ireland, Scotland, the Maldives and New Zealand decided to become one big land. That is my heaven. I hope to share my story to you all one day. Now, if only a publisher would be remotely interested in a story like this?
Sometimes it hits me like a mac truck, other times, it comes flowing gently like a sea breeze…
The dreams and feelings are coming back. It’s been a couple months since I wrote about Ascension. But, today these feelings, that can go so deep into my body, are coming back and back in full force. Sometimes, all it takes is a song, a picture, or something my body seems to react to, before I get a download of information from those outside our physical realm. Yes, I do a lot of channeling but do not talk about it because it took many years for me to realize it wasn’t my own ego. Today I saw this picture:
And immediately my body started to tingle and tears welled up in my eyes. I immediately became what many would view as homesickness.
I didn’t ask for this. I never wanted to be like this. To have these abilities. I can’t even begin to start the bullying I get for who I am. I’m no one special, and yet I am very special. I wish I could make this go away sometimes and just be “normal”, whatever that definition truly represents. It’s bad enough there are people in my life that think I am a complete whackadoodle, but I also know that if I continue to keep these thoughts, these ideas, these feelings, deep within me, I will eventually implode.
But then, I look at pictures, listen to certain music, and my heart opens up SO wide that fear strikes almost immediately that people will take that vulnerability and attack it with full force.
Someone once said that it would be pretty arrogant of us to think that out of all in the universe, WE are the only beings that live within it. Even with NASA and other scientists around the world who are finally coming out to admit there IS life outside this planet, people STILL don’t believe it.
Here’s a bit of a fun thought: Most of us in this world do not originate from Earth. I know that’s hard for people to comprehend. Because right now, at this very moment, this is all we know. Earth is all we know. But so many of us have experienced so many lifetimes on this planet, as well as other planets and universes, that it would be too much for our minds to take in all at once. It’s why we reincarnate. It’s why we have Akashic Records. Between lives, we have the ability to sit down and go over all of our lives, check patterns and see what areas in our soul’s evolution do we still need to work on.
For me, it’s forgiveness on both sides of the coin. It is truly one of my greatest challenges. So, this life I am leading now I have been challenged literally in all areas of forgiveness from the time I was very little. To learn about forgiving someone and to be forgiven. I have surrendered myself to let things happen as they come. And learn from every one of my mistakes, whether they were self-inflicted or done unto me.
Right now, I have a home sickness for a place my Earth life cannot remember. I see a vast city, full of white buildings. Crystalline palaces and roads that were so iridescent that one would think you could see right through them. Colors our earthly eyes cannot understand. Plants and trees no one has ever imagined. The air is so pure it is intoxicating to our lungs. Now, some people would call this “Heaven.” And you know, maybe it is! I don’t know. All I know is that it is my home. And right now my heart and soul is longing to be there.
Now, before people get freaked out…No, I am NOT insinuating I am depressed, suicidal, or anything of that matter. All I am stating is that my soul is continuing its ascension process and every once in a while I get a jolt of something that brings me to a new level. Right now, I just hit a new one. Lately, these jolts have been somewhat painful. But this one…Oh this one, is lovely. It helps me remember why I love Earth so much. Why I love gardening so much. I realized earlier that in this other world, I worked in the agriculture area, as a gardener and animal care taker. I live on the outskirts of this city, near water and forests of such lush, green beauty that I can almost taste it!
You want to take a walk with me in this? Read on as the download commences…
There is some sort of platform on the edge of this world, where ships of all kinds land. It helps keep the atmosphere of the world at peak levels. There are waterfalls all around this landing area to help ionize the chemicals that may come into the atmosphere. There are very little stairs in this world, as most of the places higher up have ramps. Getting off the ship and onto the base itself is quite simple. However the trek to the city is where the world is going to be at. Mainly because there are very little vehicles allowed in this world for travel, so most people travel by foot, or if you have the flight ability, float or fly. I have a small ability towards flight, but I don’t use it much, so I find myself walking mostly. The road to the city is amazing. Tall trees that look Willows but have the bark of Birch line the forests. Animals are everywhere, and are kind to the beings of this planet. All the animals on this planet are Herbivores. The clothes I am wearing are a bluish/grayish/purplish in nature, and I am wearing pants, a shirt and a long coat/robe over it. I have grayish boots on with material that resembles sheep wool. The air smells of jasmine, so I must assume it is Springtime. I do know that this world experiences mostly Spring, Summer and Autumn. The Winter is dry and cold, but unlike the freezing temperatures the Northeast of the US gets. Most of the time the weather is quite pleasant, with very little rain. Yet the plants continue to thrive, mainly because of a hydro/aquaponics technique that flows underground with the rivers and oceans on the planet. So, the plants get their water from underground.
After walking a couple hours I come to a clearing, where there is a massive marble wall that lines the city limits. I know I am close to home. I veer off to the left, which is where my home is. I can see it from here, down into the valley, the grass is like a Kelley green. I can see the goats from where I am standing, and some are coming towards me, as they recognize who I am. Yes, I am a goat farmer. (which makes me understand my love of goat cheese on Earth). I live with about 14 people, mainly family members, spread out on a ranch that is not like the ranches we see in the US. No, the buildings of my ranch are 1 floor, very long and wide. There are no windows, mainly because there is very little wind ever. The ranch itself is very open. It’s made of white stone, which almost resembles a white adobe, only much larger. I live on the Southeast end of the city, right inside the entrance.
The last time I was home, there were only about 5-6 people living there, as the others were incarnated in other lives. I can sense the excitement inside of me, because I know I am home and never want to leave.
The last time I was home, my grandparents were there, along with a couple cousins, my brother and an Aunt. No, I need to be frank here, when I say family, and I mention them here, they are not the same as the Earth family I have. Yes, I do know that some of my Earth family here are also my soul family, but most of them are not. They are familiars from the city, while others are not from my planet.
My brother is the first to see me, and rushes outside to greet me. He was preparing to go deep into the city to do some bartering, and I decided to go with him. No one else was home at the time, as my family was out and about, so we set out to go into the city. I can see how tall and elongated the buildings are. There is music in the air, yet I do not know where it is coming. It’s sounds angelic and yet electronic in nature. There are parks, houses and neighborhoods all around. It’s like everything is glistening, yet there was no rain. The air is different when you get deeper into the city, as one can feel the excitement as you near the center. It smells like incense almost, like you are near a church, even though there are NO churches on my planet. This I do remember. I look off to the right and see my school. Yes, part of my coming back also means I need to go back to school. I know that the next day I am to meet with my guides and leaders to discuss my previous life, find out where I went right, where I went wrong, what do I see for the next incarnation, and the lessons I need help in. I am an older soul, so I do know that my schooling is coming to an end soon. I do know I am helping out the guides with the newer/younger souls. The younger souls tend to come back quickly because so many of them choose suicide in their life because they do not understand how to handle the stressful situations that a physical life comes with.
I am beginning to see familiar faces. Some that I feel I haven’t seen in a millennia. There is so much love that surrounds the air itself you could almost see it. It almost reminds me of a busy spring afternoon in New York’s Central Park. People are laying around in the grass on blankets, some playing music, some in the depths of conversation, some reading a book. The activity in the city is electric, yet soothing. This definitely resonates with me, due to the fact I have an equal love for living in the city and living in the country, and here on Earth never understood why I loved the city when I never lived in one.
We come to a building, which is the bartering center. There are stalls lined up of people with all their works, whether it is food, art, building supplies, you name it, it’s there. It’s a massive center, yet it feels so welcoming walking into it. The clothes most people are wearing are mutes tones of blue, gray, white, green, and purple. Most people are in pants, with those in long dress-like clothes are the teachers and spiritual guides/mentors. Everyone is so happy and friendly. There is very little animosity or issues that go on here. There is never any tension between people, and for those that are, are newer/younger souls that may be in the throes of new education.
There is so much light but you cannot see a particular “sun”. It never truly turns dark, as even in the depth of night, it only gets dark enough to look like dusk on a summer’s eve. The sky turns purple and there are so many stars in the sky it would be impossible to count.
There is so much to do in the city. There are restaurants, grocery stores, libraries, schools, music clubs, and so on. There seem to be celebrations always going on for one reason or another. While my brother is speaking to one of the merchants, I walk around the city in amazement, listening to the music coming from somewhere, watching some people dance in the park, etc…
There is no time here. Sure, there is day and night, but not like the clock time we deal with here on earth. There are never set schedules, even though you know to be somewhere when you need to be there. I know this because tomorrow I am going back to school and meeting with my mentors to talk about my life. I get to go to my Akashic Records Room and go over patterns of this past life and the ones before. My goal is to spend a little more time here than last time, as I reincarnated fairly quickly between lives the last time. It may explain the troubles I continually faced in my last life. But for now, my first day back, I rest easy. I look up into the clear blue sky and watch the ships pass over.
And that’s it. That’s all that came to me.
So, it’s no surprise I have been a bit absent in my writing lately. There is good reason, I promise. Beside the one thing that I am about to announce here, I will admit the muse has temporarily left the building. And it has nothing to do with anything else other than just some good all-around exhaustion. For my readers who know me on a personal level, I have been withholding some information about what’s going on in my life. My only reason for not talking about it is that the last time something really amazing happened, I announced it and it backfired in such an extreme I fell into a deep depression for a long time. My sweet husband, Scott, then made me promise him to not make any other big announcements until things are FOR CERTAIN…
And so, on Friday, my husband and I made a major decision and settled on our first house! We are now official homeowners! My permaculture dream is now in the next phase of coming true!
The Happy Homeowners!
Over the last couple weeks, my head has been deep into my day planner, working on landscaping designs and lists of all the plant life that I want to plant. I did show my husband the list, and although he was a bit nervous over the amount that I am looking to plant (around 30-40 species), and equally worried I’m going to take up the majority of the yard, leaving no lawn area unturned, I assured him that will eventually happen well after our boys are moved out of the house when they get older. Until then, I am going to take up the perimeter of the entire yard, with one small section branching out a bit, for the sole purpose of developing the permaculture sustainable life I am looking to have created here. Also, the front and side yard will also be immersed in deep, hardy planting. Right now I have short term and long term goals. My short term goals (for the next 6-8 months) are simply creating, laying, and getting the beds ready for planting by deteriorating parts of the grass with cuttings, cardboard, leaves, etc. My goal is to not till unless absolutely necessary.
Didn’t realize we had been living in a cardboard fort for months!
I am also looking to create a compost station, so I can finally educate my boys on the art and science of composting with the nutrients that come from our foods, plant life and waste. To be able to create the “gold” that is home-bred compost is something that (yes) I dream of at night. While some people dream of exotic vacations or a romantic mate to love, no, this girl here dreams of a passionate love affair with compost heaps. Another thing (and yes, this is on my Christmas list), is the ability to create or build a small polytunnel next to our shed, so that any of my late winter, early spring seedlings will be able to sprout and grow, preparing themselves to get into the ground and do their magic. That’s it. My goal over the next 6 months is get that done. To be able to grow 12 months out of the year…oh how extraordinary that will be!
Couldn’t have done that move on Friday without my best girl, Jenny. She was there the moment I came home for the first time. I was drying off here after being out in the cold rain for a few hours.
Long term? Building and putting together a chicken/hen house for laying fresh eggs, and lots of garden beds around the front, side and back of the house. My big goal is to retire from my company in 10 years, so that I can create an official homestead while making all the oils, teas and tinctures that I will eventually put up for sale. Let alone creating crops that I will be able to help local co-ops and nurseries who will buy my plants to sell. One of my upcoming blogs I will show you my formal list of everything I am looking to plant. I am putting this out now: If you happen to have ANY seeds that you would be willing to donate, I would be eternally grateful. This is a ten year goal I am putting out there. Ten years to create the heaven I have been dreaming for as long as I can remember. I am also looking out for pots, peat pots, ceramic, terra cotta, plastic, wood, tires, old boots, cast iron pots, you name it, if I can plant in it, please send it to me. Starting from scratch is going to be tedious, but it is a journey I have been looking forward to for so long. Please also, if anyone has any cuttings, plant waste, or compost they would be willing to donate to my beginning pile, please feel free to message me!
Our boys enjoying their first meal in our new home!
Seriously, I cannot even begin to tell you the absolute joy I am feeling in my heart right now. I’ve endured a lot of trials and tribulations in my life, and so much of it was of my own doing. To finally see the hope, the results, the realization of so many prayers, dreams and wishes on a star…coming to fruition…well, all I can say is that I have been crying happy tears for many days.
Beginnings of the new kitchen
There are two women who I have been following these last few years, two women who have been working and living the very dream that I have been dreaming. These two women have laid it out on the line, no holds barred, in living this dream-inspired life. And although I cannot give myself 100% to what I dream of yet, I see through these muses the very life I know I will have one day. I am grateful to my husband and sons for humoring me with their equal anticipation on making compost teas and digging in the dirt!
So, Colette and Jacqui, I can only pray I am 1/10th as amazing as you both are in your lives.
To see where I am coming from, please take a gander to these two amazing websites:
Come visit them and you will understand why my belly is so full of butterflies right now! I wonder if our Creator felt like this when it was decided we were going to be created? Because I am going out of my mind with excitement!
We decided to call our home, Mabon House, since our journey of moving occurred around the time of the ancient Celtic Harvest Fire Festival of Mabon, which means Gratitude and Thanksgiving. It only seemed appropriate to call our new home based on how we feel right now.
Much love and blessings,
Wow! So my last couple of blogs have seemed to have hit home with a lot of my readers! I have received TONS of responses from here, emails and private messages. Trust me! I get it! There is a reason you felt the need to write to me, and it’s called the Spiritual Law of Attraction! When our souls are ready to progress to the next state of consciousness, you will find certain “coincidences” happening around you, like falling on to a video you never thought you would watch, or reading a blog you know you would never have read, or a conversation you overheard that specifies something you have all of a sudden become interested in. This was all supposed to happen! So, #1….don’t be afraid! Trust me, I didn’t have anyone to walk me through the Ascension/Awakening process 11 years ago, so I can assure you, you want to have people on your side. Going through this process can be a debilitating and very lonely time period. Mainly, because people around you, who are NOT going through this important step, are or have been questioning your sanity. Am I right? Or better yet, you get blown off like it’s no big deal, or people make the assumption you are going through a “phase”. So, today I’m going to talk about the Ascension symptoms people go through (or at least, I know I went through), during the last 11 years. My goal is to help those who are curious over certain things, ideas, or anything that has become “different” in your life, and help you understand it’s okay, to not be afraid, and open yourself to receive this amazing gift that is inside of you. So let’s begin…
***Before I dive into this, I need to tell you something: The things I am about to talk about are about 1/100th of what’s really going on. Even as I am typing this, my mind is racing like a gerbil inside the wheel, trying to figure out how I’m going to explain this. Truth is, I can’t get everything into one blog. But what I will give you today is an OVERVIEW of what’s going on, in hopes you will start to ask questions, and I can answer them better, than just throwing everything I know into this one writing piece. So, I am only tapping into a very small area of awakening, as there is so much depth to this process. Based on what you know about me, this has been going on with me for 11 years now, and it’s still happening!***
Sometimes, all it takes is a thought. Something out of the blue during the normal part of your day, that would make you say to yourself, “okay, why did I just think that?” Or looking at the clock at the exact same time each day, usually seeing something like “11:11” or “5:55” and so forth. Sometimes, you could be on the outside of a conversation and listening to someone cry, and all of a sudden, your chest tightens, you can’t breathe, and find you yourself want to cry! Or better yet, you find yourself outside at night, just looking up at the sky and a feeling of excitement and longing comes into your body, not having any idea what caused that euphoric feeling to come rushing through.
How many times have you woken up out of a deep sleep, and wondered why the heck you just dreamed something that was definitely not of this world? Or that your dream, no matter how crazy it seemed, made you feel so special, so happy, that you actually became depressed knowing you are back in “reality”? You start trying to go back in time, figuring out what you ate, what was the last TV show you watched, that would cause these insane dreams to just play in your head. Why?
Soul awakening is a SCARY thing! I know! So many of us are presently going through it right now. And what happens, is that our belief systems, our foundations of the very core of our livelihood, literally crashes upon itself, almost imploding. Here’s the thing: You cannot stop this from happening. Like a dormant portal opening up after a millennia of being closed; you cannot turn back time and close it again. It’s open and the only thing you can do at this point is walk through.
Soul awakening is a lonely thing to go through. You almost feel ostracized by everyone around you. It’s frustrating, like trying to feed raw vegetables to a 3 year old. Don’t fight the people around you, instead, find the empathy that’s inside of you, and think about how your un-awakened self would react if someone you loved or cared about started talking about things that didn’t make sense. Even after 11 years, my own family still has a very hard time, and rather than fight and try to make them understand where I’m coming from, I breathe and love them, regardless of the situation. Respect those around you who don’t understand. As in the old adage, “they’re only human”….well, yes! That’s the truth!
Okay, so what are the symptoms? There are so many of them, but I am going to list the most usual ones:
- Feeling you don’t belong and you want to go “home”
- More vivid dreams
- Seeing numbers like 11:11 or 111 or 555, 444, 777, etc…
- Electronics going off/blowing out
- Seeing sparkles of light outside your peripheral vision
- Ringing in the ear (especially the right ear)
- Lack of trust in people
- A feeling of more empathy for everyone and everything
- Feeling like you have a mission on this planet
- Noise and Food sensitivity
- Feeling a sense of urgency to help the planet
- Feelings a deep connection to the colors purple, turquoise, indigo or deep blue
- Feeling a connection whenever you see a movie or TV show that incorporates space travel in other worlds (Hollywood Science Fiction like Star Wars, Star Trek, Dr. Who, Lord of the Rings, to name a few)
- Having a deep sense of Spirituality without needing to have a “religion” to be a part of.
- No longer fearing God or whatever you consider the Creator is out to judge and harm you for your faults; that you know deep within you were created and molded out of love, and from that you will return to that love, even with all your faults.
- Finding your tastes have changed in many things that have before, made up of who you were as a person: music, art, education, career, food, fashion, religion, etc…
- Longing to want to share your experiences with others in hopes you are not alone in this.
So, those are just a few of the symptoms many people go through. But there can be hundreds more. I would love to know if any of you experience these symptoms. My goal is to eventually do a Video Blog on this very important topic, in hopes people who are going through the beginning stages have a place to come to listen and BE listened to. Remember, our DNA is being reprogrammed from what it originally was supposed to be. So, it’s like our souls are being activated after a time of sleep. We’re waking up!
So, tell me…what experiences have you been going through that you know deep within are not “usual” to your life?