Well, now that the cat’s out of the bag, so-to-speak, I got inundated with a ton of questions from people, friends, family and you lovely readers, about this “sudden” but not sudden change, how it has affected my life and the lives around me, and what’s going to happen going forward. So without further ado, here goes the questions:
- Bridget, congratulations on finding faith. Your story is really awesome but how does one go from a certain faith/philosophy to a complete 180 with another faith?
Bridget: This is the most asked question I have been asked since coming out a few weeks ago. I wish I could explain it better, but it’s like this: I was the Bridget most people have known for over a decade, and then I took a shower. When I got out of the shower, every thought, idea, belief and understanding shifted. Like a mountain range fault that decided to move a few inches, creating an impact for hundreds of miles. This is precisely what happened to me. How I went from believing in a specific idea, then after taking that shower, I no longer believed in it, I can’t explain. It was a supernatural event, plain and simple.
- What is going to happen to the community you founded 3 years ago based on your former beliefs?
Bridget: Last year, I went on a sabbatical due to my health issues. I find it strangely coincidental that things started shifting months before the event ever occurred. At this point, the community will no longer be what it was, since as its leader, I can no longer teach the philosophies I had been teaching. It would be awesome to create a Bible/worship/ministry study group out of it, but I’m thinking most will not be up for that. One never knows, though.
- How has your family handled your change? They must be so excited!
Bridget: Well, not exactly in truth, and really I cannot blame them. Sure, they are thrilled that I have decided to come back full time to Jesus, but growing up in a Roman Catholic household, even though it is of Christian origin, there are certain dogmatic doctrines within the Catholic Canon Law that stipulates certain things that I happen to disagree on, which caused me to join a Protestant Christian church rather than go back to my Catholic upbringing. Adult baptism, female pastors/ministers, etc are just a couple of issues I challenge the Catholic Church with, and I know for a fact the Church does not appreciate that. So one needs to respect those differences…Despite our differences, though, my family is the most amazing people, and I know they love me unconditionally, no ifs, ands or buts. I do have a cousin who is born again, and he has become even a more protective brother in Christ for me. Jerry and I had always been close growing up, and coming to this faith only brought us closer.
- I know you love to watch videos to learn about stuff. Who has been your go-to channels or websites to keep up with your journey?
Bridget: Oh dear! Where should I start? There are quite a few!!!! Well, Jessica from Truth at Home, Starry Hilder, James and Lea from Philia Ministries, The Fundamental Home, Fouch-a-Matic and Esther Emery, Patara from Appalachia Homestead, Melanie from Road to the Farm, just to name a few!!!!!! All of them are homesteaders, living their lives according to God, and well, I am just in awe of these amazing godly women!!!!!!! Go subscribe to their channels on YouTube!!!! You’ll thank me for it!!!!
- How has this affected your personal relationship with God?
Bridget: It has magnified it! Praise God! I honestly feel that I needed to go through the trials and tribulations in my life, because the Father has been preparing me for something big. I feel my ministry in life is going to finally come to fruition in the next few years.
- What going to happen to your blog?
Bridget: Nothing. My blog is my blog. Just because I no longer believe in some of the things I talked about on my blog, doesn’t make them irrelevant to other people. I think down the road, I will eventually archive those blog posts, but for right now, the mystical stuff will come down once I am able to sell the remainder of my inventory. Plus, I will be putting up a disclaimer to show any new readers about my change. And I think some of those readings are going to be a great reminder of how dangerously close I came from losing myself to evil.
- What are you going to do with the friends and family who won’t support you on this? Don’t those closest to you have a say in making sure you are making the right decisions in your life?
Bridget: (yes, this question WAS asked)….Um, well, of course they have a say, this is a free will zone, is it not? But whether or not they have the right to tell me what to do, well, as a 43 year old woman living in a free-ish country, I can easily say that I have my own mind, and without trying to sound snarky in any way, no one REALLY has the right to tell me how to live. Besides God, the only person I answer to is my husband Scott, because he is the head of our family. I’ve always been a free spirit, so if anything, being closer to God than I have ever been before, will only magnify the love and wonder I have of this world we live in. I can ONLY hope people see how cool it is to love Jesus!
- Have you found a church you feel comfortable going to?
Bridget: YES! About a mile away from my home, there is an amazing community called Trinity Lighthouse Evangelical Church. My friends Jenny and Steven invited me there, and I feel so welcomed and comfortable there. It’s an amazing church, with even a more amazing Pastor. Even his wife, I feel so kindred with her. Like she completely GETS me! And although I have been asked to give lots of churches a try to find the one best suited for me, right now I’m in a good place. And I look forward to continuing going there.
- What happened to you going to the Unitarian Universalist Church?
Bridget: Ah, yes. This sadly has hurt my heart to stop going there. I had been going there on and off for almost 5 years. I spoke to many of the parishoners there, who asked me to reconsider coming back, because in all my years of going to ANY church, this was the one that was like family to me. To put it quite simply, I’m heartbroken to not see them each Sunday. From Kay, Desiree, Erica, Nick, MaryAnn and Carla, and so many more, not being able to see them actually causes a physical pain, but I know that right now, this is where I need to be right now. Honestly, I wish there was a way to see both communities each week.
- Is this the reason why you stopped blogging for the last few months?
Bridget: Yes and no. “Yes” in the way that my brain was going in about a zillion directions, and I could not keep one subject in my head long enough to jot something down. And then “No” in the way that Wintertime is a very difficult time for me. Living in Pennsylvania has its many ups during the Spring, Summer and Fall time. But the moment old man Winter comes to visit, my health deteriorates as well as my state of mind. Even as I type this on Tuesday, my mind has been filled with worry and anxiety of the raging Nor’easter happening outside. Seeing gray skies with snow on the ground, crushes my heart. My heart lies in warmer climates, where life is teeming and abundant. For 3-4 months, I look upon dormant trees and bushes without their leaves, dead, brown leaves scattered like the memories of the warmer days the year before. And it truly makes me ridiculously sad.
In light of that, though, I tend to pray more in the Wintertime, mainly because even with all my family and friends, I feel incredibly lonely and know that God is listening to me when I am in my darkest moments. So, I turn inward, write more in my journal rather than my blog, pray and have lots of contemplation time. It is when I tend to hear God the most!
So….that’s it, folks. Those are the top ten questions I have been asked in the last few months over what’s happened to me. Once this weather starts to stabilize and get warmer in the weeks to come, you will see more gardening/homesteading blogs and hopefully a video blog soon. I would love to get everyone’s feedback on my thoughts for the upcoming gardening season and what people would like to see this old Hobbit girl try out! This is Winters last Hurrah this week, so I am trying to keep that in mind with lots of love and hope for Spring and new life to come.
If you have any additional questions you want answered, send me a message or comment below.