And just like that, it was over.
Over the weekend, my husband and I had to make the difficult decision to back out of our contract for the home we were ready to purchase. Settlement was just in a couple weeks, but unfortunately, the repairs that were needed to be completed were well over our budget, and we knew we would have gone under financially within the year. It was a punch to our stomach we were not prepared for. Needless to say, we are devastated.
This was our dream. Our vision. Disappointed is an understatement. The homestead, the chicks, the bonfires…gone…at least for this house. Right now, most of the houses on the market are town houses, or houses with a considerable repair list or just way too small living space. We are frustrated, to say the least.
Scott and I laid in bed Saturday night, feeling rather defeated. Maybe this is not the path we are supposed to take. Maybe we are on the right path but it won’t be as in-depth as we were looking forward to. Really don’t know because we are still trying to absorb the last 48 hours. My leasing company is thankfully being lenient with our lease with leaving next month, and are willing to work with us until we find a new home. But honestly, I just want out now. My boys need their own space. They have been confined to this small bedroom for 2 years. It’s time they should be able to have their privacy they so need right now. Yes, yes, I know, many of you grew up with sharing rooms with other siblings. Please don’t think of me as being selfish. I want so much for my children, and I will do anything I can to get that for them.
Right now, we are just going to continue to pack. We were planning on having a quiet evening tonight, but came home tonight to a flooded kitchen, the 3rd time in a year. It could be a number of things, but thankfully it doesn’t seem to be our issue – as it seems the issues may be coming from the main pipe outside that connects all the other apartments. They gave us the ability to wash all the towels and rugs that got soaked from trying to mop up the water for free in another building, so we are truly grateful for that! And grateful my wonderful husband ordered me out of the kitchen while he tended to not only cleaning it up, but also doing all the laundry for all the towels that got soaked.
In the end, I trust in God, I trust that the Universe has a big plan for our little family. I know we are being listened to. And we will always be provided for. We can only pray this is our time. I just FEEL it in my gut.
Pray for us right now – we really need this break.
On a lighter note, look out for my merchandise for my store The Spiral Willow to be moving its way over here! There will be new merchandise as well as some of your favorites! Once you see the PAYPAL logo on here, you know the store is open!
Here are some of the things that The Spiral Willow provides (see below for some pictures!)
- Earrings by local Artisan Maria Tesone
- Leather Wraps by local Artisan Maria Tesone
- Tapestry Totes
- Celtic/Spiritual Tapestries
- Homemade Powder Incense (by yours truly!)
- Gently Used Books
- Gently Used Tarot Decks
- Gently Used Oracle Decks
- Essential Oils
- Healing Crystal Wands for Reiki and Pranic Healing
In the meantime, thanks for listening to me, good things are afoot, can you feel it? *and hey, if anyone here read my previous post, did I NOT say that Mercury Retrograde was going to be messing around????* 😉
Love, Peace and Gluten Free Macaroni and Cheese,