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The Ascension Series: Fear and Escaping Through the Art of Astral Traveling…

This morning, within a matter of 30 seconds, I read of 8 deaths. 2 by suicide, 5 at the hands of 1 of the suicides, and 1 by the grace of our Creator.  Then I read one of my favorite local pubs had a devastating fire. All this happened yesterday.

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Breathe, Bridget.  Breathe…

The last few nights it seems my soul has been escaping to other dimensions or other places that seem so real, that if I didn’t wake up, I’d probably be OK.  Now, don’t get me wrong, reading those words is not a cry for help for something bigger and deeper brewing inside of me.  No, not at all.  In fact, only 1 time in the whole of my 42 years did I ever question my mortality.  I actually love my life, and looking forward to living much more of it.

But that doesn’t mean I don’t want to escape from time to time. Especially when I read things like what I read this morning, I’d do anything to just close my eyes and go somewhere else.

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Over the last several years, I have been experiencing what you would call, “otherworldly” dreams and astral traveling.  If you’ve never astral traveled, you’re missing out.  There is nothing more liberating and thrilling than allowing your soul, still tethered to your body, to lift up and out, while it travels to places unknown that your physical body cannot go to yet.

In the beginning, I remember going up to my ceiling, and going out as far as my living room.  It’s frightful in the beginning, because I felt these tingling sensations, almost like sleep paralysis, but I knew that if I moved, I would be brought right back into my body.  No, I needed to venture out.  My soul knew deep inside there was more than the 3 dimensional prison we have been placed inside, with so many of us truly believing that THIS is our only home, that this is where we should be and we can never ever leave. That this indeed, was all we had. Sadly, there are still millions of people in our world that believe that. They are sleeping soundly, and seeing the continued war, political prowess, and evil doings within our humanity, it’s a wonder our higher selves and spiritual guides are at times, hesitant to come forth.

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If you are just reading this for the first time and you are saying to yourself, “what makes you think I’m sleeping?  Just because I don’t believe in this crap you talk about doesn’t mean I’m ‘sleeping’…”

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Well, my dear one…you are.
And really, I am SO sorry to tell you that.

Look, I want you to think about something.

Why do you believe we are the only ones out there?  Why do you believe no one more powerful isn’t hiding things from us?  Why do you believe that we have to “obey” and “consume” in order to survive? Here’s a word for you that I am thinking is very important in your vocabulary.

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FEAR.
Fear, my child, is the very essence to why so many humans are still “sleeping”. We have been driven in this world by fear. Fear of the unknown.  Fear of difference. Fear of change. The people who run this world drive this home to each and every one of us by things like food, drink, medicine, media, money, and so much more.

Monsanto is good for you, why?  Because they are the only ones who can feed you at this point.  Medicine is good for you, why?  Because they are the only ones who can make you FEEL better.  War is good, why? Because those people are different, and therefore bad and we are all the same, therefore we are good, and therefore we have to drive the bad out.
We live in a world of FEAR.  Our lives are controlled by FEAR. And allowing yourself to remain fearful of these very things, are what keeps these people in power, STAY in power. I mean, look at my news feed for example.  In 30 seconds, I learned of EIGHT deaths.  Fear of death is the most feared thing in our world.  Why?  Because we learned at a young age that death means separation.  Death means change.  Death means sadness.  And human being thrive on being together, all being the same, all being happy.  So, those in power FEED us with fear.  Hoping that we stay right where we are at.
I no longer follow this way any longer.  I decided to change.  I decided to be different.  I decided to create rather than consume. I decided to look at fear in the face and say, NOT TODAY.
So, I learned how to escape.  Not with alcohol or drugs, not with sex or gluttonous food or frivolous spending. No, I went deeper.  I went right to the heart of my humanity.  I went to my soul.  And I told my soul, “Let’s go somewhere.  Let’s get outta here for a bit.”

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And so I did.  I started dreaming. I started allowing my body to release that fear by allowing my soul to break away from my body and explore what I craved to understand. And the moment I decided to let this happen, magic came into my life.  It’s been so many years since I started this, I can’t really pinpoint the exact date.  But I DO know, that as I grow older, my soul grows wiser, and I find myself exploring different worlds, different dimensions, different universes.  I started learning about my own soul’s ascension, lion’s gate and other portals into the universal consciousness.  WE ARE LOVE.

So why do we fear?  If there was a time to break away from this fear pattern, this would be now.  I did it.  And for those that know me, if I can do it, ANYONE can. I’m about as hard headed as they come. But I did it, and it’s a freedom that sometimes can be SO overwhelming I just start crying.

Last night my soul escaped to another plane of consciousness.  It felt like I was on a spaceship, but was like another Earth.  I was told I was STILL on Earth, but on a different dimension.  It felt like I was thousands of miles away from my home, my bed, my life, my world. I remember the ONLY thing I felt pain was the distance between me and my son.  I wanted him there with me, and made it clear to the people in charge of this ship that I wanted him there.  The assured me my son was fine, and that he WOULD be fine.  They told me they wanted me to stay.  I told them I could not stay forever, but that I would stay for awhile.  I explored the ship, which felt like a cross between a hospital, a home and a school. I walked outside of the “commander” office, and wanted to explore everything.  I walked into what seemed like bedrooms, bathrooms, and long hallways.  I looked outside and saw trees and grass with shades of green that I’ve never seen before. It was as if everything was iridescent, or metallic in nature.  So pristine, so beautiful. I was feeling sick and very worried that my son Tim wasn’t with me, so they told me to drink this water and it would make me better.  The water was clearer than anything water I’d ever seen in my life. It made me feel energized and motivated.

I remember being told to go visit my parents.  I hopped on a spaceship and ever so smoothly, glided through the black vastness of space, towards an area that had these homes that were built up, almost as if they were floating in the sky. I recognized this home as my parents home, and proceeded to dock my ship.  I had with me my husband and 3 children, but they were little girls. As I approached their doors, I saw people laying in lounge chairs outside, as my Dad came towards me, I saw my Mom helping one of the people laying on the chairs. He kissed and hugged me, and told me that they were caring for refugees from another planet, who came here for solace from a war that was going on. I then realized it was MY Earth they were talking about.  They looked so sick.  My Mom was feeding them that water I had on the command ship. My Dad told me to go upstairs and seek refuge from the impending storm coming through.  The 5 of us went upstairs and found a bedroom with 4 twin beds.  The three girls pushed their beds together to create one gigantic bed, while my husband and I tried to figure out how we would sleep with just one twin bed.  I remember walking about my parents home, and seeing that so much of it was not being used.  Blank walls, furniture under white sheets, very stark. But all I kept thinking about was my son.

Before I knew it, I was back on the command ship, and realized I missed my son TOO much, and next thing I knew, I felt myself open my eyes and I realized I was in my bed, laying next to my husband, and my son was standing above me going, “Good morning Mom”.  It was 9:48 AM today. (Sunday)

I laid in bed, feeling a little sad about leaving where I was, but grateful I got to look into my son’s big brown eyes. Fear still lives within me.  The fear of separation. I learned long ago my son is a much more advanced soul, an incredibly old one for that matter, and that he is here to teach me many many lessons. He is a soul family member, as is my Godson, Brandon.  I still try to figure out who is in my soul family, and who are just passers by in this life of mine.  I truly hate having that fear of separation. And I think these trips I am taking is helping me understand that separation isn’t necessarily a bad thing.  But right now, I’m grateful I don’t have it. I need my son in my life like a person needs air to breathe.

So although I can escape my realities to explore others, in the end, and right now, THIS is my home. And in understanding that, I need to learn to NOT fear while being here. But let me tell you, it sure is fun to get away every now and then. 😉

If you are interested in learning more about astral traveling, different dimensions and other planets/universes, please feel free to contact me.

Namaste,

Bridget

The Ascension Series: Revisiting An Important Topic…

Several posts ago, I posted about a video that truly changed my life. Truth is, I still can’t stop talking about it. I want the whole world to know what I felt what I saw and heard through this video that was less than 30 minutes long. (If you want to see the video, please hover over my word “video” in the first sentence and click on it- that will take you to that video)

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Why is it, that things in our life go through such unbelievable change, yet we either shy away from it or worse, completely ignore the signs, and instead walk amongst the sheep who choose to live through life with their eyes closed?

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We were born into this world for reasons we have no idea why. Religions tell us because God created us to live a spiritual life in a physical world. Science tells us there is not spiritual world, and that we were made from star dust. And here we are, in 2016, we are STILL arguing how in the world we got here (no pun intended). I remember back in the 1980’s when Pope John Paul II caused an absolute ruckus within the Catholic Church when he offered the idea that maybe God created the Big Bang. Religious Conservatives and Scientific Scholars lost their proverbial minds over this because in their own minds, putting Science and Religion together is simply a no bueno.

Why do unknown things scare us so freaking much? I mean, take for instance something simple. Right now, as I sit typing this out, I am drinking on of my well-known Kratom teas. I came across this amazing Southeast Asian plant back in 2013 and although at first I was skeptical, I found that this plant has helped me come off so many dangerous drugs created by Big Pharma. And still, 3 years later, people around me are fearful that I am taking some “drug”. In the video that I suggested above, the narrator states that Light means “Information” and Darkness means “Lack of Information”. Which of course makes complete sense when you use the phrase of “Being in the dark” about things.   For example (and I apologize if I sound like I’m going off in another direction – I swear it will make sense in the end)…A common human trait when we become comfortable is stagnancy.  It’s why couples tend to gain weight together once they get out of the “honeymoon” phase. It’s why kids become addicted to video games because we as parents try to find some form of peace and quiet and we know that’s how we get it. Patterns become habits and sometimes those patterns are not necessarily good ones. Yet, changing ourselves can sometimes be a tedious and challenging task that can at times prove to be almost impossible. This is usually due to our environment, relationships, careers, health, and a multitude of other facets.  This, in a sense, is living in the dark.

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We can also be in the dark because we are forced to be. You don’t need to be a rocket scientist to believe the governments of the world keeps things hidden from the people of this planet. Now, before you get all crazy like by calling me a conspiracy theorist, do your research. You don’t need to follow politics to know we are not told everything. And yet, big corporations like Monsanto and big Banks and the politicians they pay for continue to grow stronger and richer, slowly closing the gap on what was once the Middle Class. Modern Day Physicists have already proved Molecular Time Travel, Dark Matter, Black Holes, as well as a feast of what you would think they would be from some Science Fiction story.

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Whether you care to believe it or not, WE are changing. We are evolving. We are no longer in a 4 Dimensional World. We are currently moving into the 5th Dimension. Many people, in fact, some I personally know, have already moved into this realm. The veil between the living world and the other world has been thinner than ever in our lives. Can’t you feel that energy? It is why more and more people are moving away from organized religion and finding solace in a personal relationship with our Creator without the dogmatic laws of control. It’s why the “new age” philosophies have boomed into our world creating its own market. Why? Because we are humans and we HAVE to evolve. We NEED to evolve. Does it matter how we got here? Does it matter what we did before? Not really. What matters is NOW. Echkert Tolle coined the phrase “Living in the Now” and has a best selling book on it. But truthfully, you don’t need to read a book about living in the now. It’s a very simple concept.

You cannot rewrite the past.

You cannot predict the future.

All you have is now.

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How do you feel about now? I know for a lot of people, you’re not feeling that great. Because the Earth Herself is evolving, we who live with her need to keep up or we’re going to be left behind. You need to remember this very important fact:

Mother Earth CAN and WILL live without us.

However, we CANNOT live without Her.

Get out of the darkness and move into the light.

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Yesterday marked the First Day of Spring. Now, although my belief system has me preparing for Spring as early as February 1st, most people in the Northern Hemisphere celebrate March 20th as the first day of Spring. It makes sense because this is around the time that the crocuses, daffodils and tulips are budding out of hibernation, ready to open up and declare life has come back to us! What a joyous occasion it is! It is the day of the Spring Equinox, the day when the daytime and nighttime are of equal length. People of Persian descent celebrate their New Year with the Feast of Nowruz, and for my astrological peeps, March 20th symbolizes the beginning of the Astrological New Year.

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So, all in all, it is a day of rebirth. And as I stated on a Facebook post on my personal page, it is the reason why Christianity celebrates the death and resurrection of Jesus Christ. Jesus was actually crucified in November of 33 AD based on historical research and fact (I don’t need anyone quoting scripture to me, the timing of his birth and death means nothing.  It’s the actual events in hand where the importance lies), but it is honored around the week of the Equinox since its original Pagan origins symbolized the rebirth of Springtime. For many that wonder where Eggs, Chickens, Lambs, and Bunny Rabbits seem to be the symbol of Easter? Well, that was because the original holiday, Ostara, was about rebirth, and all the baby animals, including eggs, were apart of this day. In Greek Mythology, Persephone came out of the Underworld back into her Mother Demeter’s arms on the Spring Equinox.  Persephone is the Goddess of Spring, of baby animals, and of rebirth itself.  When Christianity took over Rome, they kept some of the symbols, while burying the rest of the story.

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(Jesus loves ALL of us, don’t let anyone tell you different)

See? Now, does it matter? No. Of course not. Why? Because no matter how you slice it, we are ALL connected. Every. Single. One. Of. Us.

Okay, well, thanks for the history lesson, Bridget, but what does this have to do with Ascension, you ask?

Everything. Because in order for us to truly, TRULY understand how Mother Earth evolves, we too, must evolve. Ascend to new dimensions to further align our physical bodies with our spiritual ones.

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It is heartbreaking for me to see people so blinded by pride and ego. Anything that is said outside their own understanding is cause for worry, resentment, or downright anger for thinking outside the box. People are irritated because they are dealing with someone who “just can’t be normal like the rest of us”, or “why do you have to act like a hippy or gypsy or whatever you call it, why can’t you just act normal?”  This week I read an article where a Christian woman was fasting for 15 days for her love of Jesus.  On the 15th Day, she because delirious and was sent to the hospital, where her bloodwork came with all low amounts of everything.  She told the hospital she was fasting.  She took her bible out and prayed.  The doctor made the assumption she was unstable, and had her involuntarily committed for 5 days where she was forced Psychotropic medicines!!!  I mean, seriously!  How cruel is that???  She was of sound mind after she was given saline to hydrate her, and yet the hospital staff and doctor even went as far as to try to get the court to allow them to lock her up in a mental institution!  For praying!  (As of right now, this woman is currently suing the hospital, doctor and staff for unlawful imprisonment).  Link to the article is below:

http://www.naturalnews.com/044306_hospital_imprisonment_mental_illness_spiritual_author.html

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People judge you fas being abnormal, crazy and the like, just for being spiritual.  This is life right now for many people.  Sadly, this type of conversation is usually part of my life at least once a week. In the beginning, I would fight back, and put people in their place. It did nothing but put me right where they wanted. It was so difficult to pull away and turn the other cheek, breathe out the bad moments and pray they lessen as the days pass. Because one of two things are going to happen: The person(s) will simply walk away from you never to speak to you again, or they will simply accept you. Don’t ever expect the nagging to go away. It won’t. People with bruised egos will do anything to make their point. And that’s okay for you, remember that.  Allow them to do what they have to do. That does not mean you need to engage in the warfare, though. And that is simply what that is. You can choose to fight, or you can choose to love.

Always choose to love.

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And yes, this is a very reasonable thing to ask. Just because the thought of a Utopian Society is pretty much something that may never happen in our lifetime, doesn’t mean each person shouldn’t strive to make their life utopian. This is the one thing that drives me batty! Just because we live in a crappy world with lots of greedy, angry and hurtful souls who are just simply blinded by the truth, doesn’t mean those who can see should act blindly as well for the sake of feeling justified!

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Ascension is about moving up. Taking the high road. Seeing the big, overall picture. That’s all Ascension is.

And in that video, whether the beings are real or not, the message is abundantly clear: OPEN YOUR EYES. See the truth of the world but more importantly…LIVE YOUR TRUTH.

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Lessons in Forgiveness and Closing Chapters…

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Each one of us are given lessons, sometimes extremely difficult and impossibly humbling.  We can choose to accept these lessons by admitting our faults and discretions, while HOPEFULLY the consequences of our actions, whether they happened yesterday or 30 years ago, will only help us grow stronger in love, grace and overall, humility.  These last few years have proven just that.  And even in the midst of absolute despair, when the pain just becomes TOO much that some would rather roll over and blind themselves from the pain with alcohol, drugs, sex, shopping, food, or whatever vice you need to mask that despair, I have chosen a different path.

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I choose forgiveness.

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See, what other people think of me is really none of my business.  And honestly? That’s a very hard thing for me to accept.  My ego has been bruised so much in the last 4 years I can’t even really begin to describe it.  In the last few years alone, I have been humbled more times than I can ever count, and am constantly reminded of things that I NOW know, were not of the understanding my actions were going to be detrimental in the years ahead.  See, when people go through a traumatic experience, it becomes acutely apparent that people “block” memories to avoid the pain.  I suffer from PTSD because of this.  Looking back at the years when my life was so troubled, I can understand how I had tried, sometimes embarrassingly, to get people to “like” me.  And when you utilize that desperation technique, it’s easy for others to see right through you. 4 years ago, those memories came back, and since that horrifying moment of regression, I have done everything I can to make amends of my past and who I hurt, even though I was a victim as well.  Well, today showed me beyond a shadow of a doubt, that trait no longer caters to my life.  The strands of victimhood no longer apply and I am voluntarily choosing to cut those strands from my life.

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If you know who you are, and know that deep down you are a good person, despite faults you made in the past, whether intentionally or unintentionally, and people who come and go in your life choose to hate you, despise you, belittle you, or whatever it is that they do to make you question your own self-worth, well then, my dears, the moment you put that apology out there is the moment you are finally free to let go.  If people choose to not accept your apology, or even worse, accept it, only to turn around and take it back, you need to remind yourself that it no longer applies to you.  It applies to them.  And then everything going forward becomes THEIR issues, and you can walk away with peace in your mind and in your heart.

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Today was a hard day.

Quite frankly, I’m heartbroken.  But that heartbreak will heal.  I will mend.  And the scars on my heart will provide stronger tissue that will make it harder to hurt me. I forgive those who choose hate over love.  Who choose anger over forgiveness.  Remember: How people treat you is a reflection of THEM, not you.  Something my husband and my Mom continue to drive into my head day after day.

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And with that, I am choosing to close a very, very sad chapter in my life, and moving on.  Because I deserve it.  And the people that know who I am, TRULY know who I am, deserve it.

In the end, I choose love.  I choose forgiveness.

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And I forgive you, for everything you have done to me.  May you be happy in the life you have chosen, and I wish you nothing but happiness in your heart, and peace in your soul.

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The Demon Within…

One of the biggest things I deal with during this particular time of the year is the big D.  Most people know what I speak of, and I’m sure many of you are sitting on the other side of your computer nodding in complete and utter understanding.

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Depression, as many know, is when a chemical imbalance in our brains result in a disruption of some-sort, creating a sort of chaos in our bodies that causes hopelessness. Most times, depression is the result of a tragedy a person experiences, whether it be a death, break-up, or any of loss of “something”….Sometimes, in my case, it could be just a simple explanation of the weather 5 feet from me.  It is one of my biggest struggles I face with in life, and every year I pray and pray that somewhere, somehow, this feeling of sadness would end.

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So, let’s talk about Seasonal Affective Disorder (SAD)….

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It goes without saying that everyone, both of human and animal alike, NEED sunlight.  The vitamins coming from the sun gives off so much energy and a pulse of life itself, there is no wonder why people love to “Sun bathe”.  Sadly, for me, I’m a Celt by blood.  A mixture of Irish, English, Scottish, and German.  So, putting my pasty self outside for more than a few moments will cause my skin to scream.  But that doesn’t mean I don’t love to be out in the sun.  It’s why I am a morning person, so to speak…(I say that because during the Monday-Friday deal, I’m not really worth talking to in the morning, but that’s a whole other story LOL)

In the Northern Hemisphere, at the time of Litha, otherwise known as Midsummer or the Summer Solstice, the Sun is at his prime, beaming down with such veracity, it even finds the shadiest of places.  But sadly, after that prime day of days, the Sun begins its fall.  And within 6 months, the Sun, although still shining, does not have the luster and awe that we had just a few months before.  For many people, this time is the beginning of Winter.  And we start our slow climb back to the manifestation of the gifts the Sun gives us in the Spring and Summer.

So, during the time after the holiday and New Year season ends, there is a period of silence.  Nothing really happens until the next little break, which is Valentine’s Day.  And then, after that, is the Spring Equinox, Ostara, or as many know it to be, Easter.

What do we do during this period?  Well, for me, I kind of go crazy and start cleaning and regrouping my life, creating goals for the warmer weather to come, all while taking care of my mind, body and soul, who is sadly ill-at-ease over the lack of warm sunlight, growth and overall life.

It’s why I love living myself according to the Celtic Seasonal Calendar.  It makes sense for me, because I always was like a month early to prepare for each season/holiday.  In just a few weeks, MY Winter will be over.  On February 1st, I celebrate the feast day of St. Bridget, who holds the keys of the kingdom for my favorite Season: Spring.

February 1st in the Celtic Calendar is the Season of Imbolc (Pronounced IMM-OLCK).  It is the beginning of the Springtime, the time where our Mother Earth is stirring and beginning her slow process of “waking up”.  Just as we, each morning, open our eyes, stretch our arms and legs, and get reacquainted with the morning and the light, so does Mother Earth.  The soil, through its Winter hibernation, begins to warm up, allowing the seeds within the soil to take heed and blossom.  One of the greatest gifts we can get in the Early Springtime are Crocuses.  They are Mother Nature’s quiet little trumpets, usually peeking up within the snow and cold ground, alerting us all that warm weather IS coming back.  That is the beauty of this planet.  Of where I live.  We know Spring follows Winter.  It’s how life is.

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So, what do I do in the meantime?  Even as I type this out, on this lazy Sunday morning, I feel sad.  Sad because going outside would require me to bundle up because the air is SO cold, it would actually hurt my skin.  Make my eyes water.  Even the “smell” of life, is not there.

What makes me gaga over being outside?  Feeling the grass beneath my bare feet.  Smelling the seasonal flowers breezing through the air.  Seeing the magnificent trees, shrubs and bushes blossom with beautiful green leaves…In the Celtic myths, Autumn and Winter meant Jack Frost was out and about, dropping hints of frost and ice among everything alive, telling them it’s time to die or go to sleep….In the Spring and Summer Months, Jack in the Green is our go-to guy.  He is the one who warms the skies and the Earth, and instead of frost, we have beautiful droppings of dew.

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(one of MANY Jack in the Green Parades held every year in Europe)

This is what makes my pulse quicken, my heart smile and my soul beam.  Warmth, light….like Persephone feeling so out of touch down in the Underworld, where she could not use her Gift with the Living World, and patiently waited until it was time for her to go back up, and be among the Living again, to feel the warmth of the Sun on her skin…Yes, I feel the exact same way.

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Since going off all Depression and Anxiety medicine, and opting for my Kratom intake, I can honestly say it hasn’t been TOO smooth sailing.  Of course it would be easy for me to put some chemicals into my body and numb myself…but it would be a disservice to me to do so.  I know not everyone agrees with me on that.  I always welcome other’s opinions and ideas…it’s just…it’s not for me.  I’ve been very careful over the last several years to deal with my addiction to pain killers…and for someone like me who is always in some kind of pain, it’s an easy excuse for me to pop a pill and call it a day.

No, as much as times like these where I wish I had something to numb my physical and emotional pain of the Winter, I know that in the end, it helps me SEE who I really am, because I am completely bare and open to the senses entirely.  I feel things now more than I ever have.  So, yes, the depression sucks.  But I also know, that there are times I feel such immense joy, that knowing I wouldn’t even feel an inch of that when trying to control my depression with medicine, gives me the honest knowing that I’m doing the right thing.

Don’t get me wrong:  I think about taking something every day.  Even right now, I feel incredibly blue (Get it?  Winter “blues”?) and staring at the walls may be what I need right now to numb the sadness of the lack of life outside….

This depression began in 2001.  And slowly progressed as the years went on…Now that I am in the beginning stages of my body slowing down and turning into the Crone, I feel this even more.

How do I deal with it?  It’s a demon inside of me I deal with every day between Thanksgiving and about Mid-March.  For some people it’s less time, and for others, it’s more.  It feels like the Postpartum depression I had for the first 4 weeks after my son’s birth.  It begins as a nagging feeling, that turns into a feeling of dread.  Dread?  Yup, dread.  It overtakes me like a demon overtakes a human…I cry at everything and anything, I sleep more, I stare more, and I tend to lash out more.  My husband, sons, parents, sisters and closest friends know it the depression talking.  The know this silly little hobbit doesn’t usually act like this, and know how to approach me during my times of struggle.  They know and respect the fact I don’t want chemicals in my body.  They are patient and kind, and allow me the time and patience I need for myself to understand how my body reacts to this rough season.

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(seriously, whoever created these are a GENIUS)

Kratom certainly helps, but, it is just a band aid.  It does NOT take away the full feelings.  But it does lessen the load.  And the best part?  It does not numb me.  If there could be anything that I hate, it is the numbness of my body, mind and soul.  To lose the essence of your life just because there’s a period of time each year where I feel sad, it’s just not enough for me to make that kind of decision.  That’s not for me to judge anyone who DOES.

So, for the next few weeks, I will be quietly tinkering away at my new home.  Putting things in their place, and dealing with the sadness I not only feel for the cold months, but for other things I cannot control.  It’s a continued lesson in humility, and I love that I’m always up for the challenge, no matter how tired and sad I’m feeling at the moment.

What makes me happy during the colder months?

  • Music – Usually Celtic/Irish/Scottish music, 80’s Pop, and some Sacred World music, from either Lisa Thiel, Snatnam Kaur, or Spiral Dance
  • Painting – I am still trying to find my easle, but the moment I do, I’m off!
  • Festivals – There is an amazing Scottish and Irish Festival that happens in February, and it truly lifts up my spirits EVERY. SINGLE. TIME.
  • Garden Planning – For the first time since 2007, I will have my own garden again.  Planning it has definitely helped tremendously during this time.
  • Snuggles – My boys know all these need to do is snuggle up to me, it will bring a big smile.  I love my family.
  • Cleaning – I tend to light A LOT of incense that smells of lavender, jasmine, and other springy smells…as well as light lots of candles…and the smell of Pine Sol?  OMG Don’t go there with me…it’s like heaven haha!
  • Ritual – if there is anything I love to do, is to be in ritual with myself.  That time you give to yourself, whether it is meditating, chanting, praying, or even something simple like taking a nice, warm bath…yes, it helps a great deal.

I know there are probably more, but these are the big ones.  Tell me about what you do!  I am always looking for suggestions.

Lots of Hobbit Love,

Bridget

 

The Ascension Series: The Good and Bad Symptoms…

Usually I steer off onto different subjects whenever I am blogging, but right now it seems I am being called to continue my talks on Ascension and Awakening Symptoms that I know many people are going through. This past weekend was no exception. So, I’m going to indulge in some things that if you catch on to what I’m saying, great! If not no biggie, I really don’t want to throw out this big announcement before everything has been finalized. So, I ask you all for a little latitude in how I am writing right now. (yes, I’m going to be throwing in some clues in this post without giving it away, so if you catch it, wonderful – you know my secret news I am hoping to tell the world in the next few weeks).

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(Some photos from our mini-holiday in Ocean City, NJ)

There are days in which I receive a DNA Activation/Ascension Symptom that can be insanely euphoric. Over the last several months my life alone has had its share of ups and downs, and although so many were amazing “ups”, there were plenty of “downs” that literally sent me into a downward spiral. It’s funny, the more I think about it, it’s been almost manic and maybe I HAVE been displaying symptoms of Bi-Polar disorder, as my former doctor tried to tell me. I refused to believe him, to the point I left his practice, after being there from the time I was 13. He wanted me to take a drug called Seraquil, which quite frankly I took for all of 2 days and hopped off of it immediately because I felt I was literally going crazy. Realizing now that this is not a matter-of-fact issue regarding my human-ness, but rather this pertains to my soul-ness. And sadly, no doctor will listen to you if you come to them and say “I’m going through the Ascension process!” HA! That sounds crazy-legit, and even I know not to go to the doctor with that kind of mentality. No, I have found that my basic issues I have as a human are good for going to the doctor, and the bigger stuff, well, I feel a higher calling is a little more qualified for the job.

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So, many people know when going through the Ascension process your emotions are truly off the charts. I tip my hat to my sweet husband, who sometimes hasn’t a clue what to do with me when I am having an intensified activation or just an overall difficult time with a particular symptom I am dealing with at the moment. It’s not fair to him, and I feel terrible about it. When you see what I see, and feel what I feel (which I know many can agree with me here), it can be incredibly difficult to get your partner to understand what you are going through, especially if they themselves are not fully awakened. The process can be heavenly and equally hellish.

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(The Eye of the Bohemian Hobbit – awake)

Okay, so the good symptoms? I’m going to give you some brief ideas of some of the good symptoms. Mind you-I might be alone in some of these, and others will find many who might be able to resonate. Each human is on their own separate journey, but some of us are working together currently in each other’s lives, and so on and so on…There are times, and this has happened while I was driving, eating lunch, surfing the internet, or even just sitting alone in my bedroom, and something inside me starts to stir. The only way I can describe it is the butterfly effect. That feeling of euphoria, happy jitters, the kind you feel when you are falling in love, or winning the lottery, or finding out a seller agreed to your offer on a house, or getting ready to walk down the aisle. So, what is happening if you aren’t experiencing the things I stated above, yet your body is reacting that way? Well, for me it was little things. The way the sky looked, or glancing at the clock with numbers like 1111, or hearing a song or sound that somehow made you feel like you were having some brilliant out of body experience. This weekend I had an activation. I was priviledged to go on a mini-holiday with my parents, husband and sons to the coast. My parents rented a house right on the beach, and I hadn’t been at a beach front house since I was a teenager. I had the chance to sit by myself on the porch at sunset, facing the ocean.  I can’t even explain how extraordinary it was. To be able to sit there, listen to the tides, watch the moon rise, and see the stars come out in their glistening glory. I felt myself starting to get emotional, as if realizing how truly small we are in this universe. That we have to be such an arrogant species to think we are alone here. And I felt a longing all of a sudden, that like my vacation home, Earth was a place I was just “visiting”. That in reality, my home wasn’t here, it was somewhere out “there”. And I felt…magical. I closed my eyes and this energy came around me I hadn’t felt in my body before, yet it wasn’t UNFAMILIAR. Like someone I hadn’t seen in a long while had come up from behind me to give me a great big bear hug. It was comforting. I felt my chest open up, as if all the organs in the front part of my torso were being exposed. I felt free and light, like I could be easily swept up from that porch and into the night sky to dance with the heavens around me. It was an amazing experience.

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(Photo courtesy of Land of Euphoria on Tumblr)

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Now, the not-so-good symptoms. These can be horrific. They come as demons in the night, shouting at you, making you believe your ego is making you think of these things, that you are not loved, that you are not special. And the rage inside of me becomes so suppressive I feel like I’m going to burst. When we got home from our holiday yesterday, I experienced this one particular symptom, and the victim of this was my husband, who watches over me when I go through this process. All of a sudden, I felt alone, afraid, lonely, shut down, like everything that is happening to me is just an illusion. Maybe I have been just making it up? Maybe the world is really evil? Maybe I am truly mental? Going through these moments can be terrifying. My husband knows exactly when I am going through these motions, because things like clutter and a messy room, especially with our beginning to pack our boxes again, although on a normal basis I really don’t like, but sometimes, something as simple as a sock on the floor will put me in a place of utter despair. And I feel there is no hope. I know; sounds manic, right? Truth is I’m not upset with the sock, or the clutter. I’m upset because I know deep inside of me there’s more going on and my physical 3D body can’t experience it. Take for instance a great scene from the Kevin Smith movie Dogma. Alan Rickman’s character as the Seraphim Metatron, when he stated, “Human beings have neither the aural nor the psychological capacity to withstand the AWESOME power of God’s true voice. Were you to hear it, your mind would cave in and your heart would explode within your chest. We went through five Adams before we figured that one out…”

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Hahahaha,so true. It’s why we’re here and why we feel separated from God. That’s part of our journey. To find out in the end that we never really separated from God in the first place! Sadly, our 3D bodies cannot understand what our souls already know. So, it’s literally like the battle between heaven and hell, with heaven being our souls and hell being the physical body it lives in. Religion likes to play a stake in this game we call life with crowd control and blind faith. But, we are capable of so much more in this world! It is sadly our minds that keep us thinking of how limited we are, and it is the very thing that keeps us from ascending in the first place. So yes, the hard part of ascension is the release of the ego. God is the IAM of the soul, the Ego is the IAM of the body. Since God is our creator, the Ego has really no power. Yet, we allow our Ego to have it. So, why wouldn’t our process of Ascension be difficult? Almost like blind faith, but it isn’t. Because our souls know all the answers to the universe. This is why I don’t believe in a “devil” or “Hell” after death from this life. I believe the devil and our ego/pride are equals, and the life we make from our ego and pride is the very essence of hell. We can overcome this, however, through the process of Ascension.

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(Photos courtesy of Matheusw and My Sweetest Darkness on Tumblr)

Right now through the end of this year, the Ascension process is being kicked up a notch for many people, myself included. Expect a LOT more of these things to happen in the coming months, especially September and October. We are going through many shifts in the universal planes, and because of this, our souls are being alerted, like a sleep alarm clock going off, letting us know it’s time to wake up.

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Will you get up or will you continue to hit that snooze button?

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The Ascension Series: Awakening/Ascension Symptoms…

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Wow! So my last couple of blogs have seemed to have hit home with a lot of my readers! I have received TONS of responses from here, emails and private messages. Trust me! I get it! There is a reason you felt the need to write to me, and it’s called the Spiritual Law of Attraction! When our souls are ready to progress to the next state of consciousness, you will find certain “coincidences” happening around you, like falling on to a video you never thought you would watch, or reading a blog you know you would never have read, or a conversation you overheard that specifies something you have all of a sudden become interested in. This was all supposed to happen! So, #1….don’t be afraid! Trust me, I didn’t have anyone to walk me through the Ascension/Awakening process 11 years ago, so I can assure you, you want to have people on your side. Going through this process can be a debilitating and very lonely time period. Mainly, because people around you, who are NOT going through this important step, are or have been questioning your sanity. Am I right? Or better yet, you get blown off like it’s no big deal, or people make the assumption you are going through a “phase”. So, today I’m going to talk about the Ascension symptoms people go through (or at least, I know I went through), during the last 11 years. My goal is to help those who are curious over certain things, ideas, or anything that has become “different” in your life, and help you understand it’s okay, to not be afraid, and open yourself to receive this amazing gift that is inside of you. So let’s begin…

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***Before I dive into this, I need to tell you something:  The things I am about to talk about are about 1/100th of what’s really going on.  Even as I am typing this, my mind is racing like a gerbil inside the wheel, trying to figure out how I’m going to explain this.  Truth is, I can’t get everything into one blog.  But what I will give you today is an OVERVIEW of what’s going on, in hopes you will start to ask questions, and I can answer them better, than just throwing everything I know into this one writing piece.  So, I am only tapping into a very small area of awakening, as there is so much depth to this process.  Based on what you know about me, this has been going on with me for 11 years now, and it’s still happening!***

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Sometimes, all it takes is a thought. Something out of the blue during the normal part of your day, that would make you say to yourself, “okay, why did I just think that?” Or looking at the clock at the exact same time each day, usually seeing something like “11:11” or “5:55” and so forth.  Sometimes, you could be on the outside of a conversation and listening to someone cry, and all of a sudden, your chest tightens, you can’t breathe, and find you yourself want to cry! Or better yet, you find yourself outside at night, just looking up at the sky and a feeling of excitement and longing comes into your body, not having any idea what caused that euphoric feeling to come rushing through.

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How many times have you woken up out of a deep sleep, and wondered why the heck you just dreamed something that was definitely not of this world? Or that your dream, no matter how crazy it seemed, made you feel so special, so happy, that you actually became depressed knowing you are back in “reality”? You start trying to go back in time, figuring out what you ate, what was the last TV show you watched, that would cause these insane dreams to just play in your head. Why?

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Soul awakening is a SCARY thing! I know! So many of us are presently going through it right now. And what happens, is that our belief systems, our foundations of the very core of our livelihood, literally crashes upon itself, almost imploding. Here’s the thing: You cannot stop this from happening. Like a dormant portal opening up after a millennia of being closed; you cannot turn back time and close it again. It’s open and the only thing you can do at this point is walk through.

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Soul awakening is a lonely thing to go through. You almost feel ostracized by everyone around you. It’s frustrating, like trying to feed raw vegetables to a 3 year old. Don’t fight the people around you, instead, find the empathy that’s inside of you, and think about how your un-awakened self would react if someone you loved or cared about started talking about things that didn’t make sense. Even after 11 years, my own family still has a very hard time, and rather than fight and try to make them understand where I’m coming from, I breathe and love them, regardless of the situation. Respect those around you who don’t understand. As in the old adage, “they’re only human”….well, yes! That’s the truth!

Okay, so what are the symptoms? There are so many of them, but I am going to list the most usual ones:

  • Anxiety
  • Depression
  • Feeling you don’t belong and you want to go “home”
  • More vivid dreams
  • Insomnia
  • Fatigue
  • Seeing numbers like 11:11 or 111 or 555, 444, 777, etc…
  • Electronics going off/blowing out
  • Seeing sparkles of light outside your peripheral vision
  • Ringing in the ear (especially the right ear)
  • Lack of trust in people
  • A feeling of more empathy for everyone and everything
  • Feeling like you have a mission on this planet
  • Noise and Food sensitivity
  • Feeling a sense of urgency to help the planet
  • Feelings a deep connection to the colors purple, turquoise, indigo or deep blue
  • Feeling a connection whenever you see a movie or TV show that incorporates space travel in other worlds (Hollywood Science Fiction like Star Wars, Star Trek, Dr. Who, Lord of the Rings, to name a few)
  • Having a deep sense of Spirituality without needing to have a “religion” to be a part of.
  • No longer fearing God or whatever you consider the Creator is out to judge and harm you for your faults; that you know deep within you were created and molded out of love, and from that you will return to that love, even with all your faults.
  • Finding your tastes have changed in many things that have before, made up of who you were as a person: music, art, education, career, food, fashion, religion, etc…
  • Longing to want to share your experiences with others in hopes you are not alone in this.

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So, those are just a few of the symptoms many people go through. But there can be hundreds more. I would love to know if any of you experience these symptoms. My goal is to eventually do a Video Blog on this very important topic, in hopes people who are going through the beginning stages have a place to come to listen and BE listened to.  Remember, our DNA is being reprogrammed from what it originally was supposed to be.  So, it’s like our souls are being activated after a time of sleep.  We’re waking up!

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So, tell me…what experiences have you been going through that you know deep within are not “usual” to your life?

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