Archives

Taking that Other Path in the Fork Of the Road…

forkinroad

One of my favorite sayings I like to say when I feel I need to have a heart to heart with someone – I like to call it a “Come to Jesus” talk.  Sometimes the most amazing and profound events in our lives tend to be also hilariously ironic.  This is precisely the case over the last couple months.

I’m going to tell you something that I didn’t think I would EVER utter to anyone.  This includes my husband, my sons, my parents, my sisters, my family and devoted friends.  I don’t necessarily know why I need to bear witness to this, but I do believe it’s time for me to speak out.  Since November 18, 2016, I’ve been quietly obsessing over it, because of how much it changed me.  And mark my word: I am changed.  Incidentally, my son Tim told me last night, “Mom, I don’t know about you, but there is something really DIFFERENT about you that I’ve noticed the last several weeks.”

At this point, only a collective few, including my husband and son, know what happened.

I’ve been on an incredible journey, and I guess now, it’s okay to talk about it.

woman-hiking-in-meadow-toward-mountains

First things first: I was born with the addiction gene in my DNA.  And this gene has taken front and center throughout my life. Food, prescription drugs, relationships, spirituality, you name it, if my heart felt a flutter, I took it for all it was.  Kind of like Obsessive Compulsive Disorder.  Right now, my latest addiction seems to be on something I have taken for granted for many many years.

I am finding it very challenging to really put into words what I want to say. But trust me on this:  This will probably be a long post, because I believe once I get talking, it’s hard to stop.

Most of the time my head tends to be in the clouds, thinking and dreaming of things that I want, not just for myself, but everyone I love.  However, something needs to be said, when your life has been on this particular journey and living this particular belief, when all of a sudden it comes to an abrupt stop for no reason.  And like the flip of a switch, everything that I believed in, held and cherished for so many years, started to dissipate.

o-woman-looking-out-window-facebook

Going back:  The moment I first felt a twinge in my spirituality was when I was a semi-practicing Catholic.  This spiritual “awakening”, so-to-speak, occurred in the early months of 2004.  4 years later, in 2008, I was beginning my life without my soon-to-be ex-husband and found myself delving into another type of spirituality, which many called Paganism. It was something darker than what I had been used to, and yet it fascinated me to my core nonetheless.  Honestly?  I fell in love with Paganism.  Not just because of the rituals or clothing or music, but because I felt I could hold MYSELF accountable for things, rather than feel like some heavenly parental figure is up in the skies waiting for me.  For 4 years, I laid low, while continuing to practice as a Catholic, while secretly delving deep into practicing Paganism.  But I still loved Jesus.  That never swayed.  I truly believed in the heart of my hearts that my love for Jesus actually grew from my studies, and found I started calling myself a Christo-Pagan. (There is such a religion that exists).

In 2012, I finally made the decision to leave the Catholic Church, and be open about loving my Earth Spirituality.  In essence, I called it that because Paganism has a societal stigma that causes people to believe that all who practice it are devil-worshiping, animal sacrificing, followers of Satan.  I need to tell you all this – Paganism is NOT devil worshiping.  Pagans actually don’t believe in the devil.  It angered me so much, that I wanted to prove to the world my spirituality was if anything, stronger than when I was a practicing Catholic.  I joined a Unitarian Universalist Fellowship, then became a leader in the community guiding and teaching like-minded individuals who saw and felt the same as I. I finally thought I was home in my faith.  Being able to love God, Jesus and Mary and the Saints and Angels, all while dedicating myself to Mother Earth by committing myself to the fundamentals of holding rituals honoring not just them, but all the deities that all the cultures in the world were made up of.  I felt I was co-existing with Mother Earth herself and I was a handmaiden to her services.  As the years passed, I realized Jesus, Mary, the Saints and the Angels started to take a back burner to other deities whom I wanted to learn and study.  I’ll be honest.  I tried.  I really did.  But it never felt the same.  Literally, I would thank a deity for something they gave me, but if I found myself in trouble, I called on Jesus.  I knew it, and yet continued to block my mind of the hypocrisy I was finding myself in.  Deep in.  How dangerous it was for me to think just because another religion doesn’t believe in something like the devil, didn’t mean he doesn’t exist.

hypocrite

How funny it was, then, when Jesus decided to take a stand for His cause, and call me back to the land of His living, and in the WEIRDEST place possible.

Jesus has an incredible sense of humor, I’ll tell ya.

In the Autumn of 2016 (funny, 4 years from the last opened door), I started studying Hinduism.  I was listening to a lot of Hindi music, while trying to practice some of the festival rituals that are held usually on the other side of the world.  I even wrote a blog about it here!!!!!

But if you are a subscriber or devoted follower to my website, you know that this was my last blog.  November 6, 2016.  Exactly TWO weeks later, I fell off the proverbial ledge and went underground, like Persephone in the old Greek tales.  For those two weeks, I lingered down there, because something was troubling me.  I felt a weight on my shoulders and my chest was so heavy I couldn’t explain, let alone breathe.  And then it happened.

November 18, 2016.  I took a shower.

I know, that was anti-climatic.  I just wanted you all to take a deep breath, cause we’re about to go down that rabbit hole.

tumblr_static_tumblr_static__640

Okay, so…Here’s where it gets weird:

It started out as nothing special.  It was a Friday night, and my husband was out getting our food after dropping off my step-son at his mothers, my son was at a friend’s for the evening.  It was just me and my doggie, Linus.  I turned on some Native American music in our bedroom and strolled naked into the bathroom where I felt I could take a nice long, hot shower all by myself.  There’s a freedom you feel when you have that alone time, and this was no exception.  I was singing and dancing in the shower, taking my time to clean myself, when all of a sudden, I felt a presence with me.  I turned around, and SO HELP ME GOD,  Jesus was standing in the shower with me.

akianajesus_300h

I wish I was making this up, but this is the stone cold truth.

There was nothing perverted, obviously, but more or less the shock value from my end created a moment of ice-breakage.  He stood there with his arms crossed, not getting a bit wet, and said, “Sister, WHAT are you doing?”  He had on a white robe, with what looked like a violet colored sash.  He looked exactly like I had always pictured Him.

Frightened wasn’t the word.  Stunned?  Even more so.  I told Jesus that I was taking a shower as He could see, thinking even for a second that maybe this was all being made up in my head, questioning in my head if I fell in the shower and blacked out, did I have wine I forgot I was drinking? But this….this was real. He said, “Don’t patronize me, Bridget! You KNOW what I’m talking about.  ANOTHER RELIGION?  Am I really THIS bad that you want to look for more salvation in something else because you can SEE it?” He sounded exasperated, if not annoyed to the core.

AND STILL, I kept thinking this was all being made up in my head.

And then in a loud, booming voice, He said:

“Do you REALLY want to ruin ALL that you have created up there?”

And the most frightening to me, He said,

“Am I really not enough for you?”

I immediately felt a twinge of pain, or maybe it was guilt, because I couldn’t understand what the HELL was going on, but apparently Jesus was legitimately upset with me.  Upon realizing this, He then sighed and said something I’ll never forget:

“I want you to sing a song for me”, He said, “Remember that song you used to sing in choir, called ‘Hosea?’  Sing that for me. I like to think this is ‘OUR’ song.”  (now, in any other circumstance, anytime given the chance to sing in the shower, I’m going to make that sh** happen.)  But at this point I was having a heated conversation with Jesus in the SHOWER and the fear in me rose up, so I started singing quite softly:

 

“Come back to me, with all your heart, don’t let fear keep us apart.

Trees do bend, though straight and tall, so must we to others call.

Long have I waited for your coming home to me,

And living deeply our new life.

The wilderness will lead you, to your heart where I will speak.

Integrity, and justice, with tenderness, you shall know.

Long have I waited for your coming home to me,

And living deeply our new life.”

 

And just like that, 12 years of my life slowly washed away, like a silent tsunami coming in the middle of the night without any warning.

drown

Everything I was, everything I THOUGHT I was, everything I thought I was going to be, disappeared in the blink of an eye.

I stood in the shower, looking down on my hands as the water was running off of me, and realized I was alone again.  But this was different: I felt a loneliness I never felt before, and not only was it suffocating, it was profoundly heartbreaking.  I started sobbing to the point I was shaking like someone hit me with a cattle prod. I started banging my fists on the wall of the shower so hard, bottles started falling off the shower shelf.  I started screaming “I’m sorry!  I’m SORRY! What have I done?  I’m so sorry!  Please forgive me!!!!”  But Jesus was no longer there.  I was utterly alone.  I fell to my knees in absolute despair and realized what a fool I was. For over a decade I acted like I loved him and knew him, all the while allowing other things to get in the way; it was the most horrible act of defiance and dishonesty I ever did in my entire life.

sad

And now I was alone.  It was the darkest moment of my life to date.

But then I heard Him.  And I felt this almost heated warmth flow through my body, as if I was encapsulated within something like an incubator.  As I continued to sob on my knees, water still running, I heard Him:

“Shhhhhhh….Bridget Ohhhhhhh sweetheart, I know…..Welcome back!  Welcome back.  It’s alright.  It’s alright.  Just cry it out.  I never left you, no matter how much you wanted me to let you go, I just couldn’t.  And you know what?  You didn’t want to let go either.  It’s why you kept me silently close to you all these years, even when you told others I wasn’t there….shhhhhhh, no more tears.  It’s over.  The pain has been washed away….I made sure of this.  No more tears, Bridget.  Breathe in your new life.”

hugging

How does one recover from something like that?

I decided to delve into that part of me that has been in-fact, reborn.

I started reading the Bible.  I stopped doing earthly rituals that benefited my wants.  I began to walk on the side I promised myself 12 years ago I would never come back to.  I went back to the Unitarian Universalist Fellowship, where they welcome all creeds.  I opted NOT to go to a Christian church at first, well, mainly because my brain still has a belief that so many of these big-built theater-like churches are all ego-based ministry trying to pull people in for money and numbers.  Don’t get me wrong, let me explain before I get scolded:  I’m not saying they are ALL this way, it’s just how my brain has been perceiving this for so many years, I can’t remember when the thought first entered my mind. Nevertheless, I started watching documentaries on the Bible, on Christianity as a whole, on Jesus’ humanity and divinity.  And continued to go to the UU Fellowship until I realized I needed something more.

Most importantly, I got back to praying.  At least, the kind of praying I used to do years ago, now with a better understanding rather than I was “told” to say it.

I began listening to people like Kat Kerr, who has been given the gift of visions of Heaven.  And I then realized in an instant, that’s where my focus is going to be.

Heaven.

And what I need to do to get there.

I realized over the last several weeks that everything that I want, my garden, my homestead, future animals like chickens and goats, my front porch farm stand….all of it – has been cooking up in my brain and my heart with the absolute faith that one day I’ll get there.  So, why now is this happening?  Why has Jesus decided to make his presence known in the way it was presented?

I took some time to think about everything.  The shower.  Water.  Emotion.  Water is all about emotion.  And whenever I take a shower, I like to think when the water is falling on me, all the crap and muck from the day is being washed away.

So yeah, in a very different but just as intimate way, I was reborn again.

bornagain

What does this mean for the earthly spiritual Bridget who loves to talk about angels, mother earth and the seasons?  Well, just hold on a sec.  I’m still here.  I’m still Bridget. I think that if anything, all my beliefs I have, are just that.  I can’t change what I truly believe to be true, as feelings are neither right nor wrong.  I think it has to do with what and more importantly, HOW we use our beliefs that makes up our character.

So, in the last several weeks, I’ve undergone much change.  And it has been an amazing journey.

But you know what? I’m still burning sage, collecting crystals and such.  But now I have a more intimate understanding of my uses for them. But no worries, I’m still the querky eclectic Bridget that will do anything to get people to smile.

i-love-people-can-be-weird-with-life-daily-quotes-sayings-pictures

I’m also going to continue celebrating the seasons through the Celtic Wheel of the Year method.  Ancient farmers used this method, it wasn’t just religious symbolism. Many organic farmers today still work with the moon and the seasons of the year based on these ancient traditions, and not modern commercialism.  So, as far as I’m concerned, Winter is over and Spring is here!  It is early Spring, so things are still dead and it’s pretty damn cold outside.  But some of my potted bulbs outside that don’t get hit with the frost are peeking out already.  As far as I’m concerned, the days of Light and Life are coming back.

I know I may lose friends over this revelation, and that’s okay.  Just as people evolve, I am sure relationships go through the same course.

Today my BFF Jenny and her amazing boyfriend Steven, took me to my first Christian service in what has been many years.  Over the last week, I got to speak to my cousin, Jerry, who told me he was overjoyed and filled with so much love and happiness for me for my conversion and is looking forward to talking with me more.

The last couple weeks have been a whirlwind.  I have met with so much amazing positive manifestations with my personal life in health and career.  I have found myself immersed into personal Bible study and watching videos that seem to be calling me to watch.  Each day I wake up, I ask for Grace, even though I am not worthy of it.  I pray to have a good day and make good decisions.  And each day has been wonderful.  I feel like a child.  I’m learning all over again.

I don’t know if I’ll ever be saved. But I do know, that feeling the presence of Jesus in my life has turned my life around.  Everything that I am is changed.  But, I am still Bridget.  I promise you that.  I am still open minded.  Still an empathic bad-ass.  Still a devout lover of Mother Earth.  I’m just understanding my life a bit differently now. I’m understanding my spirit now.  And most importantly, I’m understanding my heart.

99f919ef0c16f9bddfd5bda0e4c26607

This website will eventually change on some levels.  My store will come down and hopefully I will be able to change my tax id to my alias name, The Bohemian Hobbit.  The Spiral Willow will be closing.  My tinctures and teas will still be around, and hopefully one day, I will be selling other things more deserving of my journey. If you are interested in buying certain things on my site, I will be posting them on my Facebook page, The Bohemian Hobbit until all is sold out. I will still be writing about Ascension, Homesteading, Permaculture, my love for Hobbits (well, DUH!), and of course, Spirituality.  But in order for me to write from my heart, you will undoubtedly see the change in my writing.  If you no longer feel comfortable with my writings, know I completely understand and you have every right to go.  I will let you go freely with so much love and admiration, you’ll definitely feel it!!!!

As we begin the week for Valentine’s Day, I find it no coincidence that outside my husband and children, I have fallen madly in love with Jesus and becoming a born-again Christian.  Take that as you will, all I know is that I stand here in witness, to tell you, that I have been changed.  I am changed.  What happened to me, was supernatural.  Was intensely beautiful, and like I said, life – CHANGING.

jesus-coming-pic

And I will pray for the rest of my life this change will not only eventually save me, but will help me walk on a path to save and serve others.

I love you,

Bridget

The Bohemian Hobbit

 

 

Happy New Year and Where I’ve Been…

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!

Okay. So check this out:

Over the course of the last month and the last time I posted something here (yes, you read it, MONTH), I have typed out about 6 blogs. SIX. Not one of them have been posted to my site.

Um, hello? Knock knock? Bridget? Whatcha doing over there?

Yeah. I know. I have been stagnant like 30 day old untreated pool water. Yuck.

sleep

(me pretty much everyday)

What gives? It’s a good question. I appreciate the emails from some of my readers asking me where I was, if I was okay….etc. etc…I could easily tell you I’m fine…life is swell.

Truth is…it’s not. And that’s OKAY!

turtleneck

(yes, I have been incredibly anti-social lately)

I wish I could be Miss Happy Girl 24/7, and don’t get me wrong, I really DO everything I can to achieve that on a daily basis.

worry

But, something’s up. And I know what it is. Right now, I’m going to keep it to myself until I feel it is the right time to throw it out for discussion.

There is nothing…and I really mean this…NOTHING, more heartbreaking than having a certain dream of something and knowing full well it is NEVER going to come true. In regards to my life, this goes in two different directions, but with similar things related to the main idea. It sucks. Truly. But having this knowledge does give me a sense of power, because at least I know, I can work around it. Or better yet, FIX IT.

passion

Over the course of this last month, though, I have been going through the natural stages of grief.  This came with some humbling knowledge that things I thought in my head were a certain way, were in fact, very much the opposite.

forgive

Truth is, the goals I had 10 years ago are nowhere NEAR the goals I have today.  Heck, the goals I had 1 year ago no longer serve me as goal-worthy.  Not because I can’t achieve it; truth be told, you can achieve anything if you set your heart out to it…no, it’s because I no longer care, support,  nor want to be a part of that anymore.

 journey

Kinda of like when you were a kid, and had a certain way of handling your things, or even just living your life, and then one day, you realize you’re no longer a kid, and that your desires are more “grown-up” and the kid-stuff no longer applies to you.

wayne_dyer_peace_quote-251358

Here’s the thing:  You don’t have to be going through puberty to understand this philosophy.

As humans, we naturally evolve based on our habitat, culture, and generation we are applied to.  Just as fads and trends change with each passing decade, so do your thoughts, feelings, and ideaology as well.  It’s what makes us such amazing beings.

worry

Last year, in fact, sometime around this part of the day on December 31st, I sat down in my little apartment and wrote out a piece of paper that had the following things:

GOALS FOR 2015

Continue down the path of authenticity

Write more

Get married

Buy a new house

The good news is, I achieved each one of these very goals.  YAY ME!

The bad news is, I’ve got a LONG way to go….

So, in order to really really achieve my authentic self, my blogging, my marriage, and my new home, I have to make a change.

df307798616fcc420f7bc9b1b3b8b219

 images path

I know what this change is.  I feel it so strongly that I opened up to my parents, my husband, one of my Uncles and my best friend. Yeah, I don’t screw around…when making big changes, you don’t want those you are close to to be completely thrown off course.  Believe it or not, even if no one else has a right to dictate how you live, it is always a courtesey to make sure they at least KNOW what you are planning.  The shock value has all but disappeared, therefore creating less drama in your life.

wishes4

So, in light of my last blog and the things I’ve experienced the last few months, I’ve decided I’m making only ONE goal this year.  But oh boy, it’s a big one.  Look, I don’t like being a tease, and my readers know that one of the best forms of authenticity is it be as transparent as you can be.  Right now, I have a lot of things I need to think about.  My decisions I make at my age are never made in haste and are NEVER taken lightly.  But the thing is, the result of this goal is going to help continue to achieve the happiness and well-being of all the other goals I’ve ever set on.

wishes2

Truly, just writing this all out makes my decisions more real, and I’ll be damned if I’m going to chicken out on making my dreams come true.

No matter how crazy or unbelievable they are.

The last few decisions I made for myself that had the same desire surge from within me was knowing I wanted to marry my husband, buy a house, and walk away from certain people that no longer serve me.  Each one of those things has brought me nothing but blissful peace.

I can do this.  Hell yeah.  I’m so gonna do this!

Much Bohemian Love,

Bridget

Year In Review…Goals for 2016

10307193_1559900494267589_6711902782439770635_nAnyone else thinking this year went super fast?  I mean, I feel like it was just a couple weeks ago I was getting into our SUV after our wedding reception.  That was April.  So much has happened in this last year I cannot even begin to start.  So, instead, I’m just going to plunge right into goals for next year.

As many of you know, I do not believe in New Year’s resolutions.  I think they are truly lofty aspirations that end of not even making it out of the month of January.  People need to stop doing that to themselves!  Instead, make goals.  Instead of making a resolution to START something, make a goal, which is an END result!  That way, you don’t feel pressured into starting at a particular time, and can figure it out as you go along.  So what are my goals for 2016?

Well, I have a few.  And boy, a couple of them are big ones.  I think we should all at least have one big goal for the year, so you don’t feel as if your life is becoming stagnant.  For me, it’s a change.  A major change.  I really can’t go far more into it than that because the change I am considering is going to upset people I know.  And really, I’d rather deal with it when the time actually comes, then deal with the backlash of debate and ridicule from people who claim I would be making a huge mistake, being flighty, and so on.  So, instead, I’m going to talk about the little stuff…

#1.  The Spiral Willow is going to become more active.  I will admit, I’m a little bummed I’ve got a big inventory of really amazing stuff for a decent and competetive price, but yet no one seems to want to buy.  It bums me out when people seek me out for Oracle Readings and Tarot Readings, but since I’ve started requesting donations for my readings, all of a sudden it’s radio silent out there. Makes for a sad hobbit.  So, I will be doing more sale and more incentives, and even considering doing a boxed subscription each month.

#2. I’m going to learn how to play the guitar. (Again).  A few weeks ago my husband came home with all his guitars that have been in storage.  I myself own a guitar but it is too large for me.  I found my husband had a red guitar, a little smaller than the one I own.  I put it in my arms, and it felt RIGHT.  It was as if my fingers were tingling.  So yeah.  Time to re-learn.

red

#3. I want to take my kids to New York and Baltimore.  My husband and I talked about this at great length, and we’d really like to find time to get our family to go to these places for the day.  They are not far from our homes and our boys deserve to see a little culture.

CentralParkStoneBridge12-S

#4.  I want to take a PROPER vacation camping/going to the shore.  Like a whole week off from work.  Not a mini vacation here and there.  I want to wake up every morning and smell the forest air. Walk on the trails.  Read in a hammock.  Swim in the lake or pool.  Like Everyday.

Camping-Val-D_or_3324928b

#5.  I would like to start my Red Tent community.  Please see my page right here for more information.

1bb1ae7ed461955e8245f8878ced3c1a.jpg

#6.  I need my house to be fully unpacked and readied to be lived in.  We’ve been living here since the beginning of October and we haven’t even neared the half way point.  A lot of this has to be with no vacation time left.  So, I am hoping to make a move in getting that done in early 2016.

#7. I plan to create more.  Paint, draw, work with my herbs, forage, create my oils and tinctures, yes, this is the year my creations are going to take more of a hold on this world.

green

#8. I plan to meditate more.  Finding alone/quiet time can be difficult, no matter how hard you try.  Even if it’s from your own mind, you can never seem to get out of a certain place without having your mind racing with thoughts.  I want to create a daily ritual where I quiet my mind and just listen to my breath.

gnome

#9. I plan to let go.  I have been holding on to things for so long, it is only habit now I keep holding on.  Not anymore.  So much of my weight is in emotional baggage that people expect me to carry, either because they cannot forgive me for things, or have expectations of me doing penance for the rest of my life for things I did in the past.  I cannot control other people’s emotions, and so, since I’ve been trying to hold on for a modicum of relief in certain relationships, I just know it’s not going to be the case, and I’m going to let go of them.

#10. I’m going to smile every day.  There is no question amongst my friends and family alike that I haven’t been happy with certain things in my life.  Some of these changes that I stated above will result in this #10.  I deserve nothing less than to be the happiest I can be every day.  And damned if I’m not going to try my hardest to achieve that.

10380966_10207188942507093_2514083384057495376_n

 

And so, those are my goals.  Have you thought about yours?

The Ascension Series: A Download of a Moment In Between Lives…

wpid-fdjfjfjdfdf.jpg

 

Sometimes it hits me like a mac truck, other times, it comes flowing gently like a sea breeze…

The dreams and feelings are coming back. It’s been a couple months since I wrote about Ascension. But, today these feelings, that can go so deep into my body, are coming back and back in full force. Sometimes, all it takes is a song, a picture, or something my body seems to react to, before I get a download of information from those outside our physical realm. Yes, I do a lot of channeling but do not talk about it because it took many years for me to realize it wasn’t my own ego. Today I saw this picture:

wpid-14899.jpg

And immediately my body started to tingle and tears welled up in my eyes. I immediately became what many would view as homesickness.

I didn’t ask for this. I never wanted to be like this. To have these abilities. I can’t even begin to start the bullying I get for who I am. I’m no one special, and yet I am very special. I wish I could make this go away sometimes and just be “normal”, whatever that definition truly represents. It’s bad enough there are people in my life that think I am a complete whackadoodle, but I also know that if I continue to keep these thoughts, these ideas, these feelings, deep within me, I will eventually implode.

df307798616fcc420f7bc9b1b3b8b219 wayne_dyer_peace_quote-251358

But then, I look at pictures, listen to certain music, and my heart opens up SO wide that fear strikes almost immediately that people will take that vulnerability and attack it with full force.

Someone once said that it would be pretty arrogant of us to think that out of all in the universe, WE are the only beings that live within it.  Even with NASA and other scientists around the world who are finally coming out to admit there IS life outside this planet, people STILL don’t believe it.

Here’s a bit of a fun thought:  Most of us in this world do not originate from Earth. I know that’s hard for people to comprehend. Because right now, at this very moment, this is all we know. Earth is all we know. But so many of us have experienced so many lifetimes on this planet, as well as other planets and universes, that it would be too much for our minds to take in all at once. It’s why we reincarnate. It’s why we have Akashic Records. Between lives, we have the ability to sit down and go over all of our lives, check patterns and see what areas in our soul’s evolution do we still need to work on.

11855386_10207663950862005_1899578696_n

For me, it’s forgiveness on both sides of the coin. It is truly one of my greatest challenges. So, this life I am leading now I have been challenged literally in all areas of forgiveness from the time I was very little. To learn about forgiving someone and to be forgiven. I have surrendered myself to let things happen as they come. And learn from every one of my mistakes, whether they were self-inflicted or done unto me.

wpid-549493_409952779064444_1976217959_n.jpg wpid-word_eye.jpg

Right now, I have a home sickness for a place my Earth life cannot remember. I see a vast city, full of white buildings. Crystalline palaces and roads that were so iridescent that one would think you could see right through them. Colors our earthly eyes cannot understand. Plants and trees no one has ever imagined. The air is so pure it is intoxicating to our lungs. Now, some people would call this “Heaven.” And you know, maybe it is! I don’t know. All I know is that it is my home. And right now my heart and soul is longing to be there.

heaven heaven1 home sweet home flat,1000x1000,075,f heaven-gateway wpid-7e43afc2e89747ca8b4e3d6c2b203958942de7ae.jpg

Now, before people get freaked out…No, I am NOT insinuating I am depressed, suicidal, or anything of that matter. All I am stating is that my soul is continuing its ascension process and every once in a while I get a jolt of something that brings me to a new level. Right now, I just hit a new one. Lately, these jolts have been somewhat painful. But this one…Oh this one, is lovely. It helps me remember why I love Earth so much. Why I love gardening so much. I realized earlier that in this other world, I worked in the agriculture area, as a gardener and animal care taker. I live on the outskirts of this city, near water and forests of such lush, green beauty that I can almost taste it!

You want to take a walk with me in this? Read on as the download commences…

wpid-big_thumb_a41238327e5414066ab015d13ead936c.jpg

There is some sort of platform on the edge of this world, where ships of all kinds land. It helps keep the atmosphere of the world at peak levels. There are waterfalls all around this landing area to help ionize the chemicals that may come into the atmosphere. There are very little stairs in this world, as most of the places higher up have ramps. Getting off the ship and onto the base itself is quite simple. However the trek to the city is where the world is going to be at. Mainly because there are very little vehicles allowed in this world for travel, so most people travel by foot, or if you have the flight ability, float or fly. I have a small ability towards flight, but I don’t use it much, so I find myself walking mostly. The road to the city is amazing. Tall trees that look Willows but have the bark of Birch line the forests. Animals are everywhere, and are kind to the beings of this planet. All the animals on this planet are Herbivores. The clothes I am wearing are a bluish/grayish/purplish in nature, and I am wearing pants, a shirt and a long coat/robe over it. I have grayish boots on with material that resembles sheep wool. The air smells of jasmine, so I must assume it is Springtime. I do know that this world experiences mostly Spring, Summer and Autumn. The Winter is dry and cold, but unlike the freezing temperatures the Northeast of the US gets. Most of the time the weather is quite pleasant, with very little rain. Yet the plants continue to thrive, mainly because of a hydro/aquaponics technique that flows underground with the rivers and oceans on the planet. So, the plants get their water from underground.

sunrise

wpid-005-future-cities-artworks.jpg wpid-gardens-at-marqueyssac-france.jpg

After walking a couple hours I come to a clearing, where there is a massive marble wall that lines the city limits. I know I am close to home. I veer off to the left, which is where my home is. I can see it from here, down into the valley, the grass is like a Kelley green. I can see the goats from where I am standing, and some are coming towards me, as they recognize who I am. Yes, I am a goat farmer. (which makes me understand my love of goat cheese on Earth). I live with about 14 people, mainly family members, spread out on a ranch that is not like the ranches we see in the US. No, the buildings of my ranch are 1 floor, very long and wide. There are no windows, mainly because there is very little wind ever. The ranch itself is very open. It’s made of white stone, which almost resembles a white adobe, only much larger. I live on the Southeast end of the city, right inside the entrance.

wpid-fine-amazing-architectural-concept-physalia-the-amphibious-garden-on-garden-with-kings-forest-a-complex-of-rest-houses-in-morocco-ideas.jpg

The last time I was home, there were only about 5-6 people living there, as the others were incarnated in other lives. I can sense the excitement inside of me, because I know I am home and never want to leave.

The last time I was home, my grandparents were there, along with a couple cousins, my brother and an Aunt. No, I need to be frank here, when I say family, and I mention them here, they are not the same as the Earth family I have. Yes, I do know that some of my Earth family here are also my soul family, but most of them are not. They are familiars from the city, while others are not from my planet.

wpid-act_farming-collage-897x425.jpg wpid-766d1_111014080129-supermarket-park-3-horizontal-gallery.jpg wpid-6142800-3x2-700x467.jpg

My brother is the first to see me, and rushes outside to greet me. He was preparing to go deep into the city to do some bartering, and I decided to go with him. No one else was home at the time, as my family was out and about, so we set out to go into the city. I can see how tall and elongated the buildings are. There is music in the air, yet I do not know where it is coming. It’s sounds angelic and yet electronic in nature. There are parks, houses and neighborhoods all around. It’s like everything is glistening, yet there was no rain. The air is different when you get deeper into the city, as one can feel the excitement as you near the center. It smells like incense almost, like you are near a church, even though there are NO churches on my planet. This I do remember. I look off to the right and see my school. Yes, part of my coming back also means I need to go back to school. I know that the next day I am to meet with my guides and leaders to discuss my previous life, find out where I went right, where I went wrong, what do I see for the next incarnation, and the lessons I need help in. I am an older soul, so I do know that my schooling is coming to an end soon. I do know I am helping out the guides with the newer/younger souls. The younger souls tend to come back quickly because so many of them choose suicide in their life because they do not understand how to handle the stressful situations that a physical life comes with.

wpid-14_parkroyal-hotel.jpg wpid-have-started-the-constructions-at-the-first-city-of-the-future-9.jpg

I am beginning to see familiar faces. Some that I feel I haven’t seen in a millennia. There is so much love that surrounds the air itself you could almost see it. It almost reminds me of a busy spring afternoon in New York’s Central Park. People are laying around in the grass on blankets, some playing music, some in the depths of conversation, some reading a book. The activity in the city is electric, yet soothing. This definitely resonates with me, due to the fact I have an equal love for living in the city and living in the country, and here on Earth never understood why I loved the city when I never lived in one.

wpid-have-started-the-constructions-at-the-first-city-of-the-future-4.jpg

We come to a building, which is the bartering center. There are stalls lined up of people with all their works, whether it is food, art, building supplies, you name it, it’s there. It’s a massive center, yet it feels so welcoming walking into it. The clothes most people are wearing are mutes tones of blue, gray, white, green, and purple. Most people are in pants, with those in long dress-like clothes are the teachers and spiritual guides/mentors. Everyone is so happy and friendly. There is very little animosity or issues that go on here. There is never any tension between people, and for those that are, are newer/younger souls that may be in the throes of new education.

There is so much light but you cannot see a particular “sun”. It never truly turns dark, as even in the depth of night, it only gets dark enough to look like dusk on a summer’s eve. The sky turns purple and there are so many stars in the sky it would be impossible to count.

8122756145_f38049887a_b

There is so much to do in the city. There are restaurants, grocery stores, libraries, schools, music clubs, and so on. There seem to be celebrations always going on for one reason or another. While my brother is speaking to one of the merchants, I walk around the city in amazement, listening to the music coming from somewhere, watching some people dance in the park, etc…

 11868674_10207663914621099_1880601704_n tf3cioqpyp7a

There is no time here. Sure, there is day and night, but not like the clock time we deal with here on earth. There are never set schedules, even though you know to be somewhere when you need to be there. I know this because tomorrow I am going back to school and meeting with my mentors to talk about my life. I get to go to my Akashic Records Room and go over patterns of this past life and the ones before. My goal is to spend a little more time here than last time, as I reincarnated fairly quickly between lives the last time. It may explain the troubles I continually faced in my last life. But for now, my first day back, I rest easy. I look up into the clear blue sky and watch the ships pass over.

And that’s it. That’s all that came to me.

wake-up-alarm-clock

wpid-journal-glenn-louis-parker-spiritual-awakening.jpg

wpid-awakening1.png

wpid-ascension.jpg

The Ascension Series: Awakening/Ascension Symptoms…

wpid-2be42-202481_226648940791950_2103331225_o.jpeg

Wow! So my last couple of blogs have seemed to have hit home with a lot of my readers! I have received TONS of responses from here, emails and private messages. Trust me! I get it! There is a reason you felt the need to write to me, and it’s called the Spiritual Law of Attraction! When our souls are ready to progress to the next state of consciousness, you will find certain “coincidences” happening around you, like falling on to a video you never thought you would watch, or reading a blog you know you would never have read, or a conversation you overheard that specifies something you have all of a sudden become interested in. This was all supposed to happen! So, #1….don’t be afraid! Trust me, I didn’t have anyone to walk me through the Ascension/Awakening process 11 years ago, so I can assure you, you want to have people on your side. Going through this process can be a debilitating and very lonely time period. Mainly, because people around you, who are NOT going through this important step, are or have been questioning your sanity. Am I right? Or better yet, you get blown off like it’s no big deal, or people make the assumption you are going through a “phase”. So, today I’m going to talk about the Ascension symptoms people go through (or at least, I know I went through), during the last 11 years. My goal is to help those who are curious over certain things, ideas, or anything that has become “different” in your life, and help you understand it’s okay, to not be afraid, and open yourself to receive this amazing gift that is inside of you. So let’s begin…

wpid-dreamstime_l_44345367-e1429706642240.jpg

***Before I dive into this, I need to tell you something:  The things I am about to talk about are about 1/100th of what’s really going on.  Even as I am typing this, my mind is racing like a gerbil inside the wheel, trying to figure out how I’m going to explain this.  Truth is, I can’t get everything into one blog.  But what I will give you today is an OVERVIEW of what’s going on, in hopes you will start to ask questions, and I can answer them better, than just throwing everything I know into this one writing piece.  So, I am only tapping into a very small area of awakening, as there is so much depth to this process.  Based on what you know about me, this has been going on with me for 11 years now, and it’s still happening!***

wpid-word_eye.jpg

Sometimes, all it takes is a thought. Something out of the blue during the normal part of your day, that would make you say to yourself, “okay, why did I just think that?” Or looking at the clock at the exact same time each day, usually seeing something like “11:11” or “5:55” and so forth.  Sometimes, you could be on the outside of a conversation and listening to someone cry, and all of a sudden, your chest tightens, you can’t breathe, and find you yourself want to cry! Or better yet, you find yourself outside at night, just looking up at the sky and a feeling of excitement and longing comes into your body, not having any idea what caused that euphoric feeling to come rushing through.

wpid-fdjfjfjdfdf.jpg

How many times have you woken up out of a deep sleep, and wondered why the heck you just dreamed something that was definitely not of this world? Or that your dream, no matter how crazy it seemed, made you feel so special, so happy, that you actually became depressed knowing you are back in “reality”? You start trying to go back in time, figuring out what you ate, what was the last TV show you watched, that would cause these insane dreams to just play in your head. Why?

wpid-celestial-human-divine.jpg

Soul awakening is a SCARY thing! I know! So many of us are presently going through it right now. And what happens, is that our belief systems, our foundations of the very core of our livelihood, literally crashes upon itself, almost imploding. Here’s the thing: You cannot stop this from happening. Like a dormant portal opening up after a millennia of being closed; you cannot turn back time and close it again. It’s open and the only thing you can do at this point is walk through.

wpid-ascension74_02.jpg

Soul awakening is a lonely thing to go through. You almost feel ostracized by everyone around you. It’s frustrating, like trying to feed raw vegetables to a 3 year old. Don’t fight the people around you, instead, find the empathy that’s inside of you, and think about how your un-awakened self would react if someone you loved or cared about started talking about things that didn’t make sense. Even after 11 years, my own family still has a very hard time, and rather than fight and try to make them understand where I’m coming from, I breathe and love them, regardless of the situation. Respect those around you who don’t understand. As in the old adage, “they’re only human”….well, yes! That’s the truth!

Okay, so what are the symptoms? There are so many of them, but I am going to list the most usual ones:

  • Anxiety
  • Depression
  • Feeling you don’t belong and you want to go “home”
  • More vivid dreams
  • Insomnia
  • Fatigue
  • Seeing numbers like 11:11 or 111 or 555, 444, 777, etc…
  • Electronics going off/blowing out
  • Seeing sparkles of light outside your peripheral vision
  • Ringing in the ear (especially the right ear)
  • Lack of trust in people
  • A feeling of more empathy for everyone and everything
  • Feeling like you have a mission on this planet
  • Noise and Food sensitivity
  • Feeling a sense of urgency to help the planet
  • Feelings a deep connection to the colors purple, turquoise, indigo or deep blue
  • Feeling a connection whenever you see a movie or TV show that incorporates space travel in other worlds (Hollywood Science Fiction like Star Wars, Star Trek, Dr. Who, Lord of the Rings, to name a few)
  • Having a deep sense of Spirituality without needing to have a “religion” to be a part of.
  • No longer fearing God or whatever you consider the Creator is out to judge and harm you for your faults; that you know deep within you were created and molded out of love, and from that you will return to that love, even with all your faults.
  • Finding your tastes have changed in many things that have before, made up of who you were as a person: music, art, education, career, food, fashion, religion, etc…
  • Longing to want to share your experiences with others in hopes you are not alone in this.

wpid-1305153543_f558276ec0_o-227x130.jpg

So, those are just a few of the symptoms many people go through. But there can be hundreds more. I would love to know if any of you experience these symptoms. My goal is to eventually do a Video Blog on this very important topic, in hopes people who are going through the beginning stages have a place to come to listen and BE listened to.  Remember, our DNA is being reprogrammed from what it originally was supposed to be.  So, it’s like our souls are being activated after a time of sleep.  We’re waking up!

wpid-ascension74_03.jpg

wpid-ascension-1.jpg.jpeg

So, tell me…what experiences have you been going through that you know deep within are not “usual” to your life?

wpid-lightworkers51.jpg

The Ascension Series: When The Soul Awakens…

As someone who was raised Catholic, I was taught at a very young age that #1, we were alone in the universe outside of Heaven and the Angels and Saints, #2, Catholicism is the only way back to Heaven, and #3, we need to be afraid of God because He judges us if we led a good life or not, and if we did not and go to one of his priests for forgiveness, then we were going to eternally burn in the fires of Hell.

wpid-fb_img_1439915632729.jpg wpid-fb_img_1439915579702.jpg

(me – lost innocence)

Now, obviously that’s not all I learned.  And I will forever be grateful for the education that helped me learn about God.  Even though I no longer am a Catholic, I have nothing but the utmost respect for this religion and all that it has to offer.  I am grateful to say that as the years passed, more Catholics have become more progressive in the idea of modern day Catholicism. Also, most people know now that as I no longer resonate with Catholicism; it started in my early 20’s, I experienced something many years ago that that no matter what, I could never go back to this religion. Never.  Now, before I go into where I am about to go, I’m going to say that if your tolerance towards my life purpose bothers you, then I ask you to kindly move along and not finish reading. Consider yourselves gluttons for punishment if you feel you need to continue reading my writings then criticize me, then there’s nothing I can do to help you! Haha! So, let’s go down this rabbit hole…

the-light

Many years ago I had what many people would call a spiritual “awakening”. It was in the Summer of 2004. I’ve heard many people ask “what does it mean to be ‘awakened’?” Think of it like this: A person with bad vision tends to see things in a blurried state. After a trip to the eye doctor, the optometrist prescribes eyeglasses. When you put on a new pair of glasses after walking around in that blurried state, seeing everything as clear as it could be, colors bright and mesmerizing…it is a profound moment! Everything looks different. Almost a sensory overload. Things that were always there but your eyes never saw them until now. That’s how a spiritual awakening is. Thoughts, beliefs, ideas, patterns…so much what you thought were to be true, turn out to be not what your soul considers to be true. When your soul “awakens”, it becomes this thought provoking atmosphere of an underlying phenomena that was always there from the beginning. For me, it was truly a scary moment. Yet, I really did not truly awaken to all of my senses until Winter of 2009, when I encountered a tremendous traumatic event that resulted in the full awakening process to happen almost in a split second. WHOA! When a person awakens, all those ideas and philosophies that I truly and utterly lived by, dissipated. They no longer serviced me. And this can be a truly painful experience for people; I know it was painful for me. To have to go against everything you thought was right, showing everyone who “knows” you to see you in that different light; is an extremely challenging time for any human.

wpid-journal-glenn-louis-parker-spiritual-awakening.jpg

In summary, my time of awakening began 11 years ago, in 2004. But I really did not fully awaken until 5 years afterwards. And for the last 6 years, I have dealt with the repercussions on those around me who still have their eyes closed. Now, before anyone starts jumping to conclusions, I am NOT saying I am better, I know better, I know more, than anyone else. I am just saying that my soul has awakened to the possibilities that the impossibilities I thought in life might actually be POSSIBLE. That’s all. Sadly, those words I just stated above will come across as arrogant or even manipulative, and please know, that is not my intention. We all awaken at our own time. Whether this life, or the lives we live after. We all come back to Spirit.

wpid-047-jesus-holding-the-world.jpg.jpeg

So, here’s what happened to me:

I went from being a social butterfly to a homebody. Sometimes, I was almost in seclusion. I felt safer being indoors and away from other people. I became introverted. Who knew something like that would happen to me??? I was in clubs in school, leads in musicals and plays, a principal lead vocalist for a band. I LOVED LOVED LOVED being the center of attention. I loved the fame I felt with people liking me, and I would do anything and everything possible to GET people to like me.

wpid-sad-silhouette-1080946-m.jpg

I went from being a semi-religious person to being an all-out-right-on-new age spiritual enthusiast. I know it pains my family to hear the term “new age”, because as catholics, it goes against its conservative foundations! I get that! Can you only imagine how scary it is for me to have my mind think and believe these things, only to one day turn around and say, “I really can’t believe in this anymore”??? Can you only imagine how difficult it has been for them to feel absolute frustration in knowing I will never go back to being in that frame of mind again?

wpid-ascension.jpg

But here’s the thing: I went from being a person who assumed people will bail me out to someone who took sole ownership and responsibility for my life. I can’t even begin to tell you, how much money my parents alone wasted on bills I didn’t pay, items I expected them to buy for me, geesh, I was truly the most selfish and spoiled brat of them all! I was not a pleasure to grow up with. Trust me.

I was a pathological liar. Yup. I hated how I was living and did what I could to get out of playing by the rules. This is classic Starseed DNA right here, as a Starseed’s DNA is always kind of a “rogue” or “rule breaker”. (Wait, what’s a Starseed? I’ll get into that later)…But I hated the rules of my home, and I lied, cheated and stole to get what I wanted. A little sociopath, mind you. Maybe that might help many people understand the dynamic I have today with current people in my life. It takes time for Karma to release you from your faults.

wpid-40280_497324254656_272366049656_6696552_3842506_n.jpg

So, why did I awaken then? Well, as I see it, I was living on such a lower vibration for the first half of my life, and now the second half it was like I woke up out of a horrific nightmare! Relieved that time is but an illusion, and that although I messed up in the first half, I still have a life and still have reason to be here! So, I promised myself to allow this journey to unfold, and see where it takes me. Where it took me though…

wpid-awakening1.png

I started learning about the term “Starseeds” a few years back, when I was trying to research the different ailments, physical, mental and emotional issues I was having from being awakened. When a soul awakens, there are effects the physical body goes through, as the physical body is 3 dimensional, and your soul is so much more! My anxiety increased along with my depression, I constantly didn’t feel like Earth was really my home. And most of all, I could feel and sense the energy of everyone around me, which seemed to be in turn, causing me to react to it in every sense of the word. So, if I was near someone who was crying, I would find myself feeling hurt in my heart, and I would end up crying too. If I was around someone who was mean, I could sense a darker energy around me to the point it would scare me and I needed to back away, or worse, I would react to it. This whole process has been called so many things, but the biggest term for what I have been going through is called, “Ascension”.

wpid-549493_409952779064444_1976217959_n.jpg

(credit to http://www.starseeds.net)

My energy vibration from my soul had woken up out of a sleep state in this 3 dimensional world, and was longing to return back to its origins. At least that’s what I’ve gotten out of it. I started looking towards the stars and realizing around 5 years old, I was obsessed with the sky. Amazingly enough, I was obsessed with Unicorns as well. I had an imaginary playmate who would play “Heaven” with me in my bedroom. And I remember pretending I was living in the sky, on a floor made of clouds, and everything was in this beautiful and majestic state of awareness that I couldn’t comprehend, but it was “home” to me. How does a 5 year old dream up stuff like that?

wpid-unicorn_wallpaper_background_27219-640x480.jpg

Going through the Ascension process, where your soul is awakening to moving from the 3 dimensional living to the 4th, 5th, and dimensions further up the line. As of right now, my soul is currently moving into the 5th dimension. Things I cannot explain happen around me. From being able to see auras and colors around a person’s body, to being able to feel a human’s energy vibration and helping that person to heal. My psychic awareness opened like a flower in full bloom, allowing me to hear my spiritual guides and angels. I can talk to them, understand them. And with that gift, I can now properly channel them. Beings I have channeled are Archangels. Mainly I have been able to channel Michael, Gabriel, Ariel, Uriel, and Cassiel. In terms of Ascended Masters, I have been able to channel Jesus, Mary, Hekate, Lakshmi and St. Germain. In terms of Spiritual Guides, I have been able to channel someone by the name of Galea. It was Galea who was able to tell me something most extraordinary recently during a channeling: My Soul Name, as well as my Soul Origin. I actually had to do it several times to make sure I was getting the right information.  She was able to also confirm the symbol I have been writing, or “doodling” since before I could actually write. This symbol is my Soul Name. One day, I hope that I have the courage to tell you all that, but for now, as I am still learning, I would like to keep my name to myself.

wpid-clear-c3e6f749a45c8b89e1a317813492db08-1.gif.gifwpid-moonstars.jpg

In the end, I’m still me. Just on a deeper level now. I have an absolute respect for everyone’s journey. It’s amazing to be able to see that, and understand that judging someone negatively for their journey is just as dumb as judging someone for the color of their skin. In the end, we’re all one. We’re all in this together.

magicalhands

 

 

The Ascension Series: My Thoughts on Heaven…

JOYWhat I’m about to speak of is a very delicate subject for many people.  In fact, on my personal Facebook page this morning I posted a video narrated by the great Alan Watts who gives a great explanation on the subject.  I can only hope that after I’m through, some of you will feel better and more at ease about something we all have to experience one day.

Death.

Someone last week asked me a very cool question. “What do you think Heaven is like?”

Now, this may come as a shock to my readers, as most of my posts on Facebook are beautiful inspirational memes and such, as I love to look at the positive side of things. And trust me, I do. But when it comes to Heaven, it is a never ending subject on my mind. I think about death ALL. THE. TIME. Not because I’m scared of it. I learned long ago not to be scared of death. I think if I have the fear of anything, it’s the “transition” from this life into the next.   I’ve been in the presence of people who have passed on, and believe me, it is a beautiful moment. To go from living in a life of pain, worry, fear and such, to moving into a state of relentless bliss, love, and contentment, is something I crave to know on a daily basis, and yet I am somewhat scared but excited at the same time when that time comes.

So, this blog today is going to be what I think Heaven is like. I hope you are able to picture what I picture in my dreams every night. So let’s start from the transition:

Most people who experience NDR (Near Death Experiences) have the same thing happen, so for the sake of argument we’re going to use this as a beginning stage: They are floating over their body, feeling a magnetic pull of some sort to go up. When you feel that magnetic pull, you know it’s time to move. Allow your spirit to be taken on up on its own. Feel the pull and allow yourself to move with it. I believe that going towards that “light” that most people see is the tunneling effect. You are riding on waves of pure love energy, if you could physically see it, waves of beautiful rainbow-like waves in the ocean.

When I was 1 year old, I was very ill.  In fact, I’m going to be pretty straightforward when I tell you I almost died.  Do I remember being sick?  Nope.  But I do remember things many other people might not be able to justify.  Warmth, light, unicorns, angels, and a great meadow where I remember laying in the grass.  Could this been a NDR?  Possibly.  In fact, I truly believe each and every one of us has been there in one way or another.  Now as a grown adult woman, I have learned the art of Astral traveling, which is a form of the soul leaving the body , but still tethered to the physical body so I don’t pass on.  It is an amazing tool to understand how amazing human beings are, and how we are gifted with SO many things, yet most of us only tap into 1% of these gifts.

soul

120

the-light

Anyway, back to the tunnel.  I then find myself in a room of all white, far as my old human eyes can see (mind you, I am no longer a body, but pure light, however my old consciousness still depicts me as having a body). In this room is where I meet my guardian angels and guides, who greet me with enthusiastic abundance. Some of these guides are going to be people I know. I know if I were to die right now, two people would come to greet me immediately: My first boyfriend, Tracy, and my Mom-Mom. I am hoping that number will increase as I get older. Jesus and Mary will be there, and as a sister and daughter, I will run into their arms in pure joy.

eternal-reunion

 

jesus-sitting-with-a-woman

While I am talking with everyone and getting reacquainted with spirit life again, I see the room as turned into a grand meadow, surrounded by lush grass, trees and flowers of all sorts. The weather is bright, mild, with a beautiful breeze that allows the fragrances of the flowers to whirl throughout the air. This is where I am going to see all my old family and friends who have passed on before me. I can only imagine the type of reunion that is going to be. I am going to meet my child who died inside of me 9 weeks into my second pregnancy. Life, as I know it, is in a perfect state of bliss. There is a light that surrounds all of us and the area around, but I cannot find the sun. It is because Heaven is nothing but pure light.

heavenly_sunshine-1479747

heaven-gateway

11844095_10207663998743202_9049915_n

Before long, my guides tell me I need to go do my Life Review. For many people, this is usually suggested as being judged at the Pearly Gates. I no longer believe in that. I do know we have to do our Life review, and understand and come to terms with all the good AND bad things we did in our last life. This is where I am taken to my Akashic Records Room. Each one of us has our own place where our Akashic Records (a collection of every life we’ve ever lived, otherwise known as the Big Book of Life). Many years ago I did a meditation where I visited my Akashic Records, and it was amazing where I was taken to. Come walk with me into my Akashic Records….

images

sand of beach caribbean sea

My guides and I are standing on a beach on the coast of where that meadow that we’ve been standing on has been. It is beginning to fall into nighttime, but the night sky is still very bright, almost purplish pink, with millions of stars. On either side my guides help me rise up into the air, where we begin to glid through the air and over the vast ocean of knowledge. We are traveling to my personal Akashic Records. Before long I can see the coast, and it is a lush and vibrant green, unlike any green we has seen on earth. Fields of magnificent willow trees and flowers adorn the countryside. In the center of this area lies a gigantic castle-like building, and all of a sudden I begin to remember that this is where my Book of Life resides. This is where I go when I leave for a new life, and this is where I come back to review it. Home base. My soul’s place of establishment. We come to the ground, and I begin to walk up the stone stairs. I still can’t believe there are just so many flowers! We come to the door, two gigantic purple wooden doors with a great lock that only I can unlock. My energy touches the door, and it unlocks and opens up. We all begin to walk inside the building when we see everything in there begin to lighten up as our spirits enter. I look up and see beautiful paintings of all my previous lives I’ve lives, going back thousands and thousands of years. Helping me understand why I had so many deja vou occurances during this last life. We forget that many of us have souls that have been here for eons. I know I am no exception. Although not as old as others (like my son, Timmy or godson, Brandon), I am still and old soul.


heavenly-landscape-wide

flat,1000x1000,075,f

the_heavenly_castle_by_pcgvrtx-d2z5w56

11880138_10207657957632178_261905204_n

In the center of the floor lies a spiral stone staircase that spirals down to a lower level, and I begin my descent. I come to another door, and again I use my soul’s energy to allow entrance into it. As I walk inside, I can smell the wood and paper from all the shelves and books that line what looks to be a grand library. Looking around on the shelves I see ornaments and souveniers that my memories brought with me after death, to transform into matter here. To help me remember what I loved most. Pictures, toys, books, jewelry, music, so much all over the shelves and walls, it brings a smile to my face how many lives I’ve lived. But my focus is cut short when I feel the energy of God coming through. I turn to the door and my guides split like the Red Sea, allow a massive violet-like energy to enter. I know it is the essence of God in it’s beautiful form coming to me to do my Life Review. I take my seat in front of a desk, that even though this was my own, I was not in charge of this moment. Within moments, a gigantic book appears on the desk, almost metallic in its finishing. It sparkles like diamonds in the sunlight. God opens this book and there it is. The life of Bridget Ann Mulhall. I all of a sudden am given memories of every lie I told, everything I ever stole, cheated on, berated, judged, hurt. This is such an important step in the Life Review, because you need to know if you have done enough good Karma that would outweigh the bad. We look at the original contract of my life, and talk about any amendments that happen within it afterwards. We look upon then all the good I’ve done. The people I’ve helped, the sacrifices I made. And like the scales of justice, we weigh in what my life really was about.

8122756145_f38049887a_b

11857771_10207664158387193_1049814575_n

At this point, I would say I’ve paid off most of my Karma in this life. But definitely not all of it. God looks at me and (hopefully) says, “Bridget, you led a decent life, despite your setbacks. You must cleanse yourself of the rest of the Karma you have, then feel free to go on as you wish.” This would give me the opportunity to start a new life, and stay in the Heavens. I do believe I am close to finishing my Earth contract, so I am thinking I would not be reborn again. Or if I would, I will have very few lives left. Knowing that God knows I am truly sorry for all the wrong I’ve ever caused, directly or indirectly, God sends me to a place to cleanse my soul. To me, some people go immediately there after dying, because there might be just too much darkness covering their soul, and need to get it cleansed before even getting to their Life Review. But, for me, I can only HOPE I’ve done enough good in this life to warrant a gentle cleanse! (don’t we all). I honestly do not know the amount of work needed to cleanse the rest of your soul, but I would like to think we would have to work, and work hard, to realign our soul back to its original brightness.

03d3d98a3f4e5a1438a85c0a23b24de6

Once that is completed, I am able to walk into the gates of the great city. Newly covered in a beautiful white robe/tunic, I begin my journey into a great gate that is enclosed with a massive white wall engulfing the city itself. But the doors open, and I can smell the citrus in the air, and the scent of flowers that tingle my toes. And it is a great city. Beautiful architecture that our Earth cannot comprehend, waters iridescent and glowing, colors no human can truly understand. Everything is just so bright and happy. People are reuniting. Families are together again. I find my family. My SOUL family. They are waiting for me and I run to them, as I can recognize them from afar. I feel them all sweep me up in a sense of such love no human could consume it without imploding. Feeling home again, I reacquaint myself with my surroundings again, as they take me back to my home. Yes, I have a home in the city. To me, the great city is a cross between Rivendell, Lothlorien and The Shire. Everything is in its natural state, and positively perfect.   I can hear music but I don’t know where it’s coming from. It is as if the air itself has its own melody. And just like every city there are restaurants, stores, and other places of trade. Yet there is no monetary commerce. Everything is on a volunteer/helping/trade basis. And it works perfectly. Some people call this great city the astral city, or one of the first of the many heavens. It’s where most people go after they die. And right now, it’s where I want to be, before I decide on my next journey.

11868674_10207663914621099_1880601704_n

kingdom

tf3cioqpyp7a

11847405_10207663949621974_363178422_o 11871706_10207663950181988_564441141_o 11847405_10207663949621974_363178422_o 11855441_10207663926621399_1177949106_n

What do I see my soul doing now that it is no longer a physical being living on Earth? I’d like to think I would go back to school and understand where I screwed up and how I can better myself in the next life, should I choose to go back. I’d like to visit other Heavenly Realms and seek the wisdom and guidance of the Ascended Masters, like St. Germain. I’d like to have the opportunity to fly down at night to Earth and quickly visit my loved ones I have left, and let them know I’m still there and still loving them. Speaking of flying, that’s what I cannot WAIT to do. To fly again. I have many dreams that involve water and flying. It’s incredible, really. I’ve always dreamt of flying high in the skies from sunset to sunrise. If I ever had a soundtrack or theme song for that outing it would be “Walking In The Air” by Chloe Agnew from Celtic Woman. But something about having the freedom a bird has and flying around, feeling the breeze hit you, knowing you are fully safe, is something I long for.

as-the-great-eye-of-heaven-shined-bright-made-a-sunshine-in-the-shady-place-did-never-mortal-eye-behold-such-heavenly-grace-1354294247_b

11847271_10207663973942582_1404711005_o

11857756_10207663967182413_1301270171_n

I’d like to think right now I am somewhere in the midst of my ascension process, and that when my life is over here on Earth I would be able to ascend to a new dimension and help those who need it. Walking away from “religion” and instead finding that Oneness with God on my terms has been without a doubt, blissful. To be in Communion with God on a daily basis instead of feeling I have to perform a weekend obligatory ritual with Mass, is more peaceful. But don’t get me wrong: I would never mock someone who has found their life and relationship with God in the Church. Never take advantage of when you find your caller to our Creator. This is my calling. So, I no longer fear death. I no longer fear the unknown, because the Creator is in my life at all times, and that’s all I need. It’s why I dream so vividly about Heaven! The Summerlands, the Undying Lands, whatever you want to call Heaven, is majestic in just a thought…can you only imagine actually BEING there? And we were! At one point, we were there. And sooner or later, we will be going back home again.

flat,1000x1000,075,f sunrise heavenly_sunshine-1479747 castle_mountain_small

What does YOUR Heaven look like?

542285_440800025930837_1704604584_n

 

1524664_10203089292058394_984069670_n  under_the_nebula_sky_by_atknebula-d5ivzjq  tumblr_mg2kreLeAB1rc60xdo1_500