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Flying in the Face of the Lammas Season…

***Excerpts from my Blog Post “Lammas and the Autumn Season“***

The Feast of Lammas is upon us!

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Wait, what?  What is this silly Hobbit talking about? Last year, I wanted to go into a new series installment called The Wheel of the Year.  I’d like to think I hit every holiday, but I don’t know right now, I have to go back and check on my past blogs!

Lammas (in Christian/Catholic context meaning “Loaf Mass”), is also called Lughnasadh. (pronounced Loo Nah Sah).  It is a Celtic Sabbat/Holiday that begins the first of the 3 major Harvest Festivals.  Oh, by the way, I wanted to educate those who say Celtic wrong.  Celtic is pronounced *KELL-TICK*.  NOT *Sell-Tick*. Okay, I admit, that rubs me the wrong way in so many ways.  It’s like someone called the Amish with the pronunciation *AY-MISH* or Italian like *EYE-TAL-YUN*.  To me, it’s a bit insulting, and it can truly drive many enthusiasts like myself, mental.  For some reason, many sports teams that have the word Celtic pronounce it Sell-tick, but I can assure you, the proper right way to say it is how I mentioned it above.  Okay, moving on….

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Lammas! Ohhhh I how love me some Harvest holidays! It’s probably one of the reasons why Thanksgiving is one of my favorite Holidays!  There is something about the word “comfort” that drives all of us to find our own sense of the word.  For me, comfort means my home.  And it’s going to be extra special since this will be our first FULL autumn in our new home!  It means all the stuff I love around me.  It means listening to music I love, smelling aromatic candles, drinking an amazing tea, reading a good book, a nice casserole in the oven, my husband and children around me.  That’s comfort.  Comfort is a rainy day in the autumn, when you wake up and realize you don’t want to get out of your pajamas.  And you don’t.  Whoever said  you have to get up every morning and get dressed like in your Sunday best everyday is for the birds!  People are going to accept you, whether you have makeup on, or going au natural.

Comfort is taking a nap in the middle of the afternoon on that said rainy day, smelling the rain and feeling the cool air coming in.  I love days like that.  But comfort is different for each person.  What is your form of comfort?  Think about it and write a list out.  When you realize what things make you feel comforting, then do what you can to make it happen!

Lammas is the beginning of the Harvest.  The first seeds planted in Spring are now ready to be picked of their ripened fruit.  Many will start to see the hay barrels in the fields from farmers picking their crops.  This is a good time to start thinking about what you are going to plant in the Autumn for next year!  Spring bulbs may be on sale in grocery stores or produce markets, so this is a great time to make a list of what you want to see pop up in Spring of next year!  Sadly, my garden has taken an INCREDIBLE beating this year with the heat and humidity of the Summer.  So much has died and withered, and I just wasn’t home enough to tend to them, OR I was home and the heat was too hard to bare, I couldn’t even get outside or my lungs would have flared up tremendously from how weak they get during this time of year.  So, I stay indoors and work on my dried herbs I already was able to harvest, as well as work with my tinctures and teas, and even today, I baked Soda Bread!!!!  YUM!

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August 1st is the Feast Day of the Celtic deity, Lugh (hence the name Lughnasadh).  Lugh was revered by many as the man who sacrificed himself to give people the comfort of a good harvest.  He was in ancient times known as the Corn God.  Understandably why corn is usually harvested this time of year.  Nevertheless, this is a time of turning inward.  Just the beginning of it, though.  We are still in the throes of hot and humid weather, with lots of sunny days and warm nights ahead of us.  But the air is changing, and many can feel it right now.  Some associate it with the beginning of school, and whatever you need to do to understand why we are in the process of a season change, go with what feels good.

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Right now, in my home, we are continuing our path to organization by preparing ourselves for what we hope to be an annual yard sale!  I promised myself come hell or high water we were going to get this house situated for living, and although we’ve been here for 9 months, we still have boxes to go through (yeah, I know).  Living with people who have a hard time purging old things, rooms can get pretty crowded in here quickly.  So, my daily talks about how good we feel when we are uncluttered I am hoping are getting into their heads!  I hope to be starting the autumn season with lighting some fall candles, and I don’t know about you, but it just feels right to do this now.  I love going to places like AC Moore and looking at all the Autumn/Halloween goodies that are already out on display.  I love planning on how I’m going to decorate this year.  I think its good to change it up every year.  It always gives off a fresh energy when you change things around, even with decor that only stays up a few weeks.

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If you are interested in learning more about this upcoming season and how you can incorporate rituals in your life to make yourself more spiritually grounded with our Earth, keep coming back here, as I will have different ideas you can do to make this next season inspiring and fun!  Autumn is always easy, because there is SO much to do!  But remember: do what makes YOU feel good, instead of what everyone else is telling you how things should be.  You will be surprised how good it feels when you walk into this next Season doing things YOU love to do!

Next Saturday, my beloved Circle is getting together to celebrate this wonderful Season with great food and great drink, campfire and swimming, and crafts galore, and we continue as we always do, in perfect love and perfect trust.

As above so below, as within so without.

As the Universe, so the soul.  Blessings to you all!

Love, Peace and Macaroni and Cheese,

Bridget

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The Ascension Series: Tough Time Ascending Today with Tough Symptoms…

13008_370339603096015_1639333944_nSo, let me tell you what happened to me today.

It is incredibly frustrating to try to put this all into words, so bear with me here.  I’ve been wanting to type this out all evening, but my laptop is not working correctly, so I am out on the main computer, where I am inundated with boxes and clutter galore, getting ready for some big changes ahead.

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(Me 9/2/2015…long day….Need much needed sleep now…)

Now, I know many of you have been reading up on the Ascension Process, and I hope that you have done more research as well as joined support groups that specialize in helping people through the big changes humanity is currently going through.

Now, for the naysayers, there’s no need to comment or criticize the things I say.  I already know there are some people who think I’m a big old whackadoodle, and that’s okay.  I am.  But, I’m a whackadoodle who gives a shit about this world and the people who live in it, so thank you for your opinions, but right now there are not necessarily needed.  I know many people do not believe in the Ascension process and the Awakening shifts.  It’s okay!  It’s hard to believe, I get it.  When people surround themselves with doctrines that does not allow room for growth, it’s almost impossible to believe in things out of the ordinary.  And maybe this is not the time for you to be going through what many others are dealing with.  It doesn’t make anyone better or worse, because all of our journeys are just that sacred, that no one, not even me, has a right to say what you believe in.

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The last several days I have been going through some inner turmoil when the Earth’s energy shifted around August 28th.  It’s been a pattern that many people have been seeing since the major shifts occurred around December of 2012.  And with the Blood/Supermoons surrounded the sacred Jewish holidays, prophecies have been foretold and let’s face it:  some of it is actually happening.  Our financial institutions are taking hits, the Karmic year I originally stated in one of my blogs at the beginning of the year is in full force.  What does this mean?  Look at China, Greece, Hillary Clinton, Donald Trump, The Ferguson shootings, Police brutality, Ashley Madison, Earthquakes and Mudslides….It is indeed, a karmic year.  It means that things that people, governments, companies, banks, and other primary forces did wrong back in the day are kind of coming back to bite them in the tookus.  In Wicca, it’s the Wiccan Rede, in Christianity, it’s the Golden Rule.  Treat others the way you were meant to be treated.  Do unto others the way you do unto me.  The Three-Fold Law:  What you reap, you sow.  I’ve been saying this for years: “Board up your glass houses before throwing stones”…Jesus even stated in the Bible, “He who is without sin, let him cast the first stone…”

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Karma.

So, take this karmic year, add the energy shifts/gamma rays that the Earth is physically experiencing, as well as people’s spiritual philosophies are evolving, and you have a recipe for Ascension symptoms!  Today alone was brutal for me, as I’m about to explain what happen to myself in my own little world.

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The last several days have been tough.  I’ve been experiencing additional emotions that I already deal with on a daily basis.  What that means is that my patience, although already low, was felt more acutely.  I have been feeling nothing but tension in the air, even though there have been no reasons for my tension.  I have a happy home life, am madly in love, and am about to embark on an amazing journey that I haven’t had in my life since 2007.  So, life in all has been nice.  But why haven’t I been feeling it?  I’ve been feeling edgy, cranky, tired…oh my goodness…so tired!  You would think I was pregnant!  Falling asleep at 8pm and not being able to wake up the next day.  Or some nights I’m wide awake till near midnight and feel fully refreshed and ready to go at 5am!

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My chest has been tightening.  Not because of any physical pulmonary ailments.  No, stress, anxiety and overall chaos in my head have been giving me straight up panic attacks.  And even still, I wear a smile on my face and try to save face to those around me, because I don’t want what’s going on inside of me to become fodder for those who don’t care to or won’t understand.  People don’t think I don’t hear what is being said about me.  People who I thought loved and cared about me, really have hidden agendas.  As much as my own family hates to admit it to me, I’m glad my own family is honest enough to remind me I am still very much naïve and vulnerable to the attacks that go on behind my back.

And still I smile.

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Today, though…where to begin?  I woke up after finally getting a semi-decent night sleep.  I woke up only once for about 45 minutes, so to me that was a successful sleep.  Usually I can be up hours in the middle of the night.  If I had the ability to sleep in until 9-10 AM every day, I might consider that a decent sleep habit.  On my way to work I felt just sad.  I don’t know why.  I just felt sad.  I was thinking of the things I needed to do today at work, and although I was grateful I had no meetings today, and no crazy expectations that needed to be made, I still felt panicked about…something.  So, for the last 20 minutes of my drive, I cried.  For no reason other than I knew my body needed to release something.

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Cut to getting into work.  I was sitting at my desk waiting for my computer to log on, when my chest started tightening again.  I felt ridiculously uncomfortable.  I was cold, then hot, then cold again.  Thank goodness no one else was near me.  I pulled my pant legs up and started fanning my knees.  Next thing I knew my legs became incredibly restless.  They were bobbing up and down and I couldn’t get them to stop.  I was literally gripping onto my arm skin, feeling like I needed to shed myself somehow.  Like the feeling of being in my own body was so debilitating.  What the hell was going on with me?  I started sweating and I felt like I was going to pass out.  I knew I was having another panic attack.  At this point I literally was thinking of the Clonzapin and Xanax that was sitting in my nightstand, knowing full well I hadn’t touched these pills in well over a year, and here I was contemplating driving home to grab some.  I felt desperate.  But I have been off my medication for over a year, and I am a better person because of it.  What was going on with me today, and most recently is a phenomena that I am not used to.  Our bodies are made to heal themselves, and there are plants, botanicals, weeds, oils, seeds and other natural products Gaia gave us on this Earth to utilize.  And ever since I started using them, I know my symptoms of what I deal with have dwindled.

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(Happy Me with some Kratom Tea)

But today, oy today was different.

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(We’re ascending baby! UGH)

I quick grabbed a cup of Kratom tea and drank it, while putting on some BiNaural Beats on YouTube, in hopes that my brain would calm herself down and allow my body to calm down.  It took 3 cups of tea and a respite out in my car at lunchtime to finally get that calm.  4 ½ hours, though, was pure torment.  I couldn’t concentrate, couldn’t do much but watch the time and pray that I could get outside and into nature to relieve myself of whatever toxins inside of me wanted out.  Even now, thinking about it, I don’t EVER want to feel what I went through this morning EVER again.  But most likely, I will.  Because it’s all part of the process.  If it means I need to detox myself physically, emotionally, spiritually and psychologically in order to achieve that feeling of completion with God, I’m going to do whatever I can, even if it means moving through hell and back.

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We have a UNIVERSAL DESIRE to want to complete our relationship with God.  The feeling of separation is so powerful anymore that thousands of people are feeling it.  I am in an amazing support group for people going through the Ascension process and apparently today was a rough day for MANY people.  All we can do is continue to rest our bodies and keep our minds and spirits calm.  Especially now that the veils between the world are beginning to thin with Autumn beginning, many are feeling the effects of that too.  But I know the world is going through great changes.  And we are part of these great changes.  And many times, great changes come great conflicts.  Our old consciousness…the ego itself…is dying; and trust me, it’s not going down without a fight.  Why wouldn’t it want to put you through torment?  It doesn’t want to go!  And it’s going to make you think you NEED the ego!  You do NOT.  We are spiritual beings living a physical existence.  We GOT this.  Great pains we are going through, but can you only imagine the great rewards to sticking it out?

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Continue to love, people.  Continue to fight for your love and fight for your right to love.  We are all amazing light beings who are a part of the one true creator who makes us who we are.  Slowly we are ascending back to our creator.  We are traveling and leaving the 3rd dimension.  It’s not going to be easy.

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But then again, if it was easy, everyone would do it.  The hard, is what makes it so great.

Get some rest.  You don’t need to join a gym or a spa to get that respite.  Take a bath.  Anoint yourself with precious oils.  Meditate.  Drink herbal teas.  Listen to your favorite music.  Walk in the rain.  Keep your body cool. Wash your face.  Drink lots of water.  And remember:  You’re going to be just FINE.  I promise you that.  xoxo

namaste

Sunday Ramblings of a Tired Hobbit….

It’s Sunday morning, and I’ve accomplished SO much, and yet I feel I haven’t even broken a dent in my day.  Summer can be truly glorifying when your home is at a state of organization.  But I am sure most of you would agree with me that rare do we have an organized home.  Still, I am grateful that I got up this morning, that I got to the store, made 3 ½ pounds of homemade meatballs, and picked up a bag of clothes from my sister.  All in all, a productive day so far.  My darling husband, sweet man that he is, has been domesticated bliss and I cannot appreciate him any more than I do right now.  While I was out gallivanting around to get the unordinary chores completed, he was at home doing laundry, dishes, and taking the trash and recycling out.  How amazing is he?  And yet, I come home from my chores, incredibly stressed out and irritated, and still manages to be romantic and sweet, even though I wasn’t able to reciprocate it back to him immediately.  It’s how we complement each other that makes me so blessed.

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My sweetie, isn’t he dishy?

When I am down, he balances me back up, and when he is down, I do the same.  As humans, it is impossible to be 100% of the time.  We are bound to make mistakes and mess up.  And it had been so long since I had a partner in my life who actually GROUNDED me.  His love shows me every day I still have so much to learn not only about myself, but how much I can truly give if I just try harder.  So, I’m doing my best to be less irritated, and spend more time at being happy my boys are spending some downtime to themselves, something we ALL need.

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This summer has been at the very least, semi-challenging.  Most weekends have been spent busy at parties and events that required our presence, and although I love being around my friends and family, the lack of quiet time that many of us actually do get in the late autumn pre and post-holiday chaos is significantly felt, which no doubt, aids in my tension.  As I am preparing my journey from the Mother to the Crone stage of life, I have found my love for Spring, although still very strong, is beginning to wane, while my love for Autumn is beginning to grow.  Spring and Autumn have always been my two favorite seasons, but Spring has been without a doubt my favorite.  Easter/Ostara has always been my favorite holiday, however my love for Samhain has definitely curbed my Spring appeal.  Something about quieting down, going within, that makes my stomach warm with butterflies.  My longing for October and November gets stronger every morning I wake up.  I feel the seasons changing as we speak, and my desire for the following things is seriously heeding my call:

  • Bon/Camp Fires
  • Hot Apple/Mulled Cider
  • Caramel Apples
  • Burning Leaves
  • Everything in their orange, red and yellow glory
  • Pumpkin Patches and Corn Mazes
  • Hayrides
  • Mums
  • My apartment being adorned with orange lights and leaves

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Beautiful enchanted forest during fall or autumn, great fairy tale background, hdr

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I am sitting here, enjoying a nice warm cup of Kratom tea, and the butterflies are fluttering like crazy in my belly.  My headset is currently listening to “Embraced” by Paul Cardall, and realizing I need to start making my Autumn 2015 playlist!  What shall I put on it this year??????  Last year, I had Ingrid Michelson start my playlist with “Girls Chase Boys” with a follow up of All About That Bass by Post Modern Jukebox featuring Kate Smith and Adele’s Set Fire To the Rain.  Would love to know your thoughts, as a musician, I am ALWAYS looking for new music to listen to.  Right now I am straight head-on listening to mostly New Age/Dark Celtic music such as Enya, Clannad, Loreena McKennit, Gandalf, 2002 and Secret Garden.  Really, this music is sort of my go-to music when I am turning inward, so it only goes to understand why I would be listening to this kind right now.  But I do like a twist during my Autumn-time, as I always see Autumn as the romantic season.  There is something about cloudy, dark, rainy, cold days that puts me in that “mood”.  Maybe it’s the cuddling!  Some other artists that have made an Autumn playlist in the past include:

  • Omnia
  • Nox Arcana
  • Faun
  • Damn the Bard
  • Emerald Rose
  • Spiral Rhythm
  • Coyote Run (now respectfully called Picti)
  • Albannach
  • Dead Can Dance
  • Qntal

I love using these artists above because they make SUCH AMAZING music!!!!!!  Please let me know if there is a specific band you want to hear more about, because I will definitely blog about them!  I am a singer, writer and pianist and sacred drummer, so I’m always looking out for new stuff!

So, I know this was a hodge podge of information today, but I wanted to get it out there, so we can talk more about things!  I still have to get back to my 40 days of Spirit, I promise this week I will get a new post on that!  In the meantime, I leave you with my new favorite band, I’ve been in love with these ladies since I found them last year on a Woman Tribal Facebook page I am a member of.  It’s my new theme song (you know how I feel we all need one), as it truly speaks of who I am.  As a Northern Appalachian Shamanka/Hedge Witch, whatever you want to call me, being able to help heal people through the Earth is something that lives within me and truly gets me out of the bed every day.  I hope you like them…They are Rising Appalachia:

Weekend of Birthdays, Lammas and Close Friends…

Hi there!

Hoping everyone is enjoying their weekend in a blissful manner!  With the Blue Moon on Friday and Lammas yesterday, it has proved to be high energy all around me and my brood this weekend.  Yesterday was my son’s 13th birthday, and I LOVED watching his face turn to absolute happiness when he opened up his present and saw the ONE thing he wanted more than life itself – A GoPro – A professional action/underwater camcorder and camera.  See, for many years, all my son wanted to be was a WWE Champion.  He even went so far as to go out for the Wrestling team at school, but that lasted one season, as his absolute HATE for competition turned him away from it all.  It’s what I love most about my son; he is an incredibly inclusive person, and although he loves to watch competitive sports, he would rather not do it himself because he just didn’t like having to face/fight another person.  He’s such an old soul, and would rather sit behind the scenes now and help people have the spotlight.  So, when he opened his present and saw that camera, it made how painstakingly saving money for that camera just even more worthwhile.  He has been studying up on directors like George Lucas and Stanley Kubrick, and I know when my son has an interest, I know to watch it closely and study HIM while he envelops himself in everything pertaining to that subject. His reasoning to want to be a director?  “Because I love to make movies.”  That’s my boy.

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Sadly, I only got to spend time with him a few hours yesterday, because this year he was to spend the day with his dad about an hour away.  So, it was nice to get together with some friends that live close to me to celebrate and acknowledge the Holiday known as Lammas.

We went to our friend Maria’s house, where we and a couple other people got together and literally TALKED the entire afternoon well into the evening.  It was such an incredible day and the peace and loving energy that was around that small group was what I needed knowing I didn’t have my boy on his big day.  Instead, I got to play with this little fella:

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(Ronan the Indestructible)

So, we sat over appetizers, sat down to a hearty Italian meal, and feasted upon 100 year old depression glass dinnerware….

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(My plate was called Miss America)

Usually when I go to any kind of party or gathering, they usually last about 3 hours.  No, this one started around 1:30pm and lasted a little past 9pm.  We were all kind of shocked at the fact time sort of stood still yesterday.  There were no children there (except Mighty Ronan)…it was just a semi-quiet group of adults who I’ve known for at least 10 years of this amazing life.  And yesterday just continued to prove that I do have one!

We don’t have a lot of money, we live in a tiny apartment, we’re cluttered and tired and frustrated, but all in all, we are indeed grateful for what we have.  And that is what the Lammas season is all about!  It’s about reaping all that we were dreaming about months earlier, and enjoying that harvest, and being grateful no matter what!!!!  It’s not always about food!  It’s about friends, family, and of course your OWN personal journey to finding YOU.

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So, today, while my son, who came home last night, is out with his cousin cheering him on in his playoff baseball game, I will be busy here at home, tending to some more clutter, putting more out on the yard sale site, and enjoying some quiet time with my sweet husband.  We are hoping in the next week to start getting our Autumn decor up….oh!  That reminds me!  So, I wanted to show you what I got this past week!!!!!!

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It wouldn’t be The Hobbit Flat without some flags to adorn the place!  Target had these burlap flags on display and I HAD to get a couple of them!  I love flags, in fact this post just reminded me I need to get my Tibetan Prayer Flags up today, so right now, for Harvest time, I am trying to figure out if I should just keep them plain, or if I should put words or a saying on them.  Would love to know your thoughts!  Hopefully if I can get my energy up and good, I will show give you guys a little tour of the Hobbit Flat, our home.  Until then, have a great Sunday and keep doing you!

………………………….Oh yeah, speaking of reaping….

Last year I planted a small tomato plant.  It went rogue last year until I had to physically pull it out in mid-December.  Well, she didn’t like that, and seeded herself quietly when I wasn’t looking.  Around May we had over 20 seedlings creeping up everywhere, including our next door neighbor!  We pulled all but a couple out and gave them away….I can’t keep up with them!!!!!

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       (seriously, it’s THAT insane!)

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50 Things I LOVE!

Hi everyone!

Well, we didn’t get the house.  So, we are still searching.  But in the meantime, here’s a little fun reading of 50 things I love.  It wasn’t enough, but it would have become obnoxious if I allowed it to go past 50!  Thank you to my friend Melissa/Raven who brought this over on Facebook!  Here it goes!

50 Things I Love

  1. Gardening – I love getting my hands dirty and digging into the dirt and planting things.
  2. New Age/World/Earth Spirituality Music – Spiral Dancing, Native American Healing Music, Enya, Lisa Thiel, SJ Tucker, Dead Can Dance, Clannad, Blackmore’s Night just to name a few…
  3. Kratom – This little miracle tree has basically saved my life.
  4. The smell of Springtime in the air
  5. Campfires
  6. Chocolate Fudge
  7. Sitting on the Beach in the late Autumn
  8. Early December sunsets
  9. Celebrating the Seasons
  10. Impressionstic Artists – Edgar Degas, Vincent Van Gogh, Monet, just to name a few
  11. Everything Jane Austen ever wrote
  12. Every Jane Austen book that was put into a movie
  13. Everything that is Tolkien. Like everything.
  14. Going to sleep with my window fan on a coolish evening.
  15. Anything of a Celtic nature
  16. Anything of a Native American nature
  17. Crystals
  18. Oracle/Tarot decks.
  19. The Rosary. And everything that is the Virgin Mary.
  20. Strong and empowered women like Brighid, Hecate, Persephone, Diana, and Mary Magdelene.
  21. Jesus
  22. Moscato Wine
  23. Willow Trees
  24. Dream Catchers
  25. Playing Video games with my friends online (you know who you are!)
  26. Painting
  27. Early Autumn Days that are filled with rain and cloudy skies, so I can light candles and watch holiday movies.
  28. Halloween/Samhain
  29. Being a Wild Woman and empowering my Divine Feminine Self
  30. Yoni Eggs
  31. Being Healthy and learning about things to keep me healthy
  32. NOT being on medicine!
  33. British Comedies on PBS
  34. Collecting Tea Kettles
  35. Chocolate Fudge
  36. I love ALL animals.
  37. The feeling of getting off the parkway on the exit to the beach. It’s like all my worries go away
  38. Dreaming of making my life better
  39. Making my own incense
  40. Fuzzy socks on a cold night
  41. Folk Music
  42. Fairy, Celtic, Music and Renaissance Festivals
  43. Going to the Spa for the day
  44. Twinkle lights everywhere I can put them
  45. Lemonade Iced Tea
  46. Hammocks
  47. Thanksgiving
  48. Wearing dreadlocks in my hair.
  49. Pickles
  50. Putting my feet into the grass

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Overwhelming happiness!

I know its been a good week since I’ve written, please forgive me.  I have so many started posts, but never got to finish them.

Why so crazy-like?  Well, I got married last weekend!  So, enjoy some amazing pictures taken by friends and family.  Scott and I were eternally grateful to my cousin, Jane Marie, who gifted us an amazing gift of these pictures, it truly was a magical day!

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Learning the Truth And All That Follows…

christian-meditationIt’s been a crazy year so far!  Yikes!  From getting this wedding planning done and getting Scott and I up to the altar, to going out today to look at 4 more houses, sigh….so much going on I don’t have time to think sometimes.  Thankfully I have family and friends to call on me to check up on me to see how we’re holding out, it’s nice to take that break and listen to what’s going on outside my own inner world. Over the last month or so, I have found that the same conversations I’ve been having with people seem to have a revolving theme:  TRUTH.  And what a powerful time to be having these discussions, during this time of reflection.  One doesn’t have to be a practicing Christian to understand the power of Lent, and contemplating life and the world around you.  It’s only natural, and I suggest if you have the urge, do it.  Meditate, and contemplate your life.

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If there is something that people are most afraid of, it’s this:  The truth.  Truth can take a quiet and simple life, and rock it to its very foundation.  Truth can change everything.  And these changes can be painful if you’re learning the truth after living a lie, or at least living your life deep within lies.  I’ve been there, and it’s NOT a fun time to have to accept truth, and pick up the pieces from the destruction that the truth can bring.  But you want to live the truth, right?  If you LIVE in truth, there will NEVER be destruction.  Truth gives you freedom, truth gives life.  Lies can only hold you for so long, until the universe comes back, like the tides in the oceans.  After living in deceit, truth comes like a tsunami in the night, hitting you unexpectedly and with such force you can’t get up to breathe. 

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I live in truth every day, even if it means not having relationships with people I love.  When you associate yourself with people who choose to believe lies over the truth, you become part of the lie.  You become part of that universe that will experience that tsunami like event and you too, will become a part of the problem.  It is the hardest thing to do, to walk away from people you love, to live your truth.  I get it.  And I respect it.  People had to walk away from me, because I was living a lie, many many years ago.  Those years spending in lies only resulted in years of picking up the pieces and cleaning up the many mistakes I made in the past.  Trust me when I say, the universe knows EVERY lie you told.  EVERY story you falsed, EVERY part of your history you tried to sweep under the rug.  It comes back!  In a way, I’m sad, because I have to watch people who don’t deserve it, get swept up in lies, and there’s nothing I can do about it.  We are all on a journey, and sometimes we have to watch another’s journey unfold and that tsunami hit.  It reminds me of the Japan Tsunami that hit years ago; many of us sat in front of our TV’s, watching that gigantic wave slowly work its way to the coast, and there was NOTHING that we could do about it.  That’s how it is with Truth.  It will always make its appearance when the universe is ready to reveal it.  I can’t imagine now living a lie.  The sleepless nights of worry of getting caught in something, dealing with the repercussions of those who would be affected by your deceit.  It’s a sad thing to watch.  But in the end, it’s just another way of saying the Universe is the boss.  Our Creator is the boss.  Like a parent grounding the child for its misdeeds, the universe grounds us when we are dishonest with ANYTHING.  That’s part of being in a 3 dimensional world.  In order for us to survive, we need to continually ground ourselves, check ourselves, when we get out of line.  Because if we don’t do it, trust me, the Universe WILL. 

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In the end, most people don’t want to know the Truth, because the Truth would require change.  And most people don’t like change.  It’s a very sad spiral many people fall into, and it takes great courage, swallowing your pride, and belief in yourself and yourself ALONE to make those changes to understand the Truth.  Only then will you find that peace of mind.  It becomes harder for people to manage the whole “woe is me” sense of being, and people will not want to be associated with you if you choose not to live the truth.  This is where breakage of relationships comes into play, and until we can all live in truth together, separation is imminent.  It’s up to you.  You have more power than you realize. 

That is what is most heartbreaking.  People have the power.  And people choose the power of deceit over the power of truth, because it’s easier and requires less work.  What people DON’T understand, though, is that the power of deceit is the harder of the two, so the question is, do you want the power of self-gratification of getting something quickly through deceit?  Because the moment you choose that path, you end of with a lifetime of hard work, obstacles and pain. 

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(“Truth or Sweet Lie” by Luz Tapia from Deviantart)

Truth = LIFE.  Deceit = LOSS.

Your move now.

~ Bridget

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