|This morning, within a matter of 30 seconds, I read of 8 deaths. 2 by suicide, 5 at the hands of 1 of the suicides, and 1 by the grace of our Creator. Then I read one of my favorite local pubs had a devastating fire. All this happened yesterday.
|Breathe, Bridget. Breathe…|
|The last few nights it seems my soul has been escaping to other dimensions or other places that seem so real, that if I didn’t wake up, I’d probably be OK. Now, don’t get me wrong, reading those words is not a cry for help for something bigger and deeper brewing inside of me. No, not at all. In fact, only 1 time in the whole of my 42 years did I ever question my mortality. I actually love my life, and looking forward to living much more of it.|
|But that doesn’t mean I don’t want to escape from time to time. Especially when I read things like what I read this morning, I’d do anything to just close my eyes and go somewhere else.
|Over the last several years, I have been experiencing what you would call, “otherworldly” dreams and astral traveling. If you’ve never astral traveled, you’re missing out. There is nothing more liberating and thrilling than allowing your soul, still tethered to your body, to lift up and out, while it travels to places unknown that your physical body cannot go to yet.|
|In the beginning, I remember going up to my ceiling, and going out as far as my living room. It’s frightful in the beginning, because I felt these tingling sensations, almost like sleep paralysis, but I knew that if I moved, I would be brought right back into my body. No, I needed to venture out. My soul knew deep inside there was more than the 3 dimensional prison we have been placed inside, with so many of us truly believing that THIS is our only home, that this is where we should be and we can never ever leave. That this indeed, was all we had. Sadly, there are still millions of people in our world that believe that. They are sleeping soundly, and seeing the continued war, political prowess, and evil doings within our humanity, it’s a wonder our higher selves and spiritual guides are at times, hesitant to come forth.
|If you are just reading this for the first time and you are saying to yourself, “what makes you think I’m sleeping? Just because I don’t believe in this crap you talk about doesn’t mean I’m ‘sleeping’…”
|Well, my dear one…you are.|
|And really, I am SO sorry to tell you that.
Look, I want you to think about something.
|Why do you believe we are the only ones out there? Why do you believe no one more powerful isn’t hiding things from us? Why do you believe that we have to “obey” and “consume” in order to survive? Here’s a word for you that I am thinking is very important in your vocabulary.
|Fear, my child, is the very essence to why so many humans are still “sleeping”. We have been driven in this world by fear. Fear of the unknown. Fear of difference. Fear of change. The people who run this world drive this home to each and every one of us by things like food, drink, medicine, media, money, and so much more.|
|Monsanto is good for you, why? Because they are the only ones who can feed you at this point. Medicine is good for you, why? Because they are the only ones who can make you FEEL better. War is good, why? Because those people are different, and therefore bad and we are all the same, therefore we are good, and therefore we have to drive the bad out.|
|We live in a world of FEAR. Our lives are controlled by FEAR. And allowing yourself to remain fearful of these very things, are what keeps these people in power, STAY in power. I mean, look at my news feed for example. In 30 seconds, I learned of EIGHT deaths. Fear of death is the most feared thing in our world. Why? Because we learned at a young age that death means separation. Death means change. Death means sadness. And human being thrive on being together, all being the same, all being happy. So, those in power FEED us with fear. Hoping that we stay right where we are at.|
|I no longer follow this way any longer. I decided to change. I decided to be different. I decided to create rather than consume. I decided to look at fear in the face and say, NOT TODAY.|
|So, I learned how to escape. Not with alcohol or drugs, not with sex or gluttonous food or frivolous spending. No, I went deeper. I went right to the heart of my humanity. I went to my soul. And I told my soul, “Let’s go somewhere. Let’s get outta here for a bit.”
|And so I did. I started dreaming. I started allowing my body to release that fear by allowing my soul to break away from my body and explore what I craved to understand. And the moment I decided to let this happen, magic came into my life. It’s been so many years since I started this, I can’t really pinpoint the exact date. But I DO know, that as I grow older, my soul grows wiser, and I find myself exploring different worlds, different dimensions, different universes. I started learning about my own soul’s ascension, lion’s gate and other portals into the universal consciousness. WE ARE LOVE.
So why do we fear? If there was a time to break away from this fear pattern, this would be now. I did it. And for those that know me, if I can do it, ANYONE can. I’m about as hard headed as they come. But I did it, and it’s a freedom that sometimes can be SO overwhelming I just start crying.
Last night my soul escaped to another plane of consciousness. It felt like I was on a spaceship, but was like another Earth. I was told I was STILL on Earth, but on a different dimension. It felt like I was thousands of miles away from my home, my bed, my life, my world. I remember the ONLY thing I felt pain was the distance between me and my son. I wanted him there with me, and made it clear to the people in charge of this ship that I wanted him there. The assured me my son was fine, and that he WOULD be fine. They told me they wanted me to stay. I told them I could not stay forever, but that I would stay for awhile. I explored the ship, which felt like a cross between a hospital, a home and a school. I walked outside of the “commander” office, and wanted to explore everything. I walked into what seemed like bedrooms, bathrooms, and long hallways. I looked outside and saw trees and grass with shades of green that I’ve never seen before. It was as if everything was iridescent, or metallic in nature. So pristine, so beautiful. I was feeling sick and very worried that my son Tim wasn’t with me, so they told me to drink this water and it would make me better. The water was clearer than anything water I’d ever seen in my life. It made me feel energized and motivated.
I remember being told to go visit my parents. I hopped on a spaceship and ever so smoothly, glided through the black vastness of space, towards an area that had these homes that were built up, almost as if they were floating in the sky. I recognized this home as my parents home, and proceeded to dock my ship. I had with me my husband and 3 children, but they were little girls. As I approached their doors, I saw people laying in lounge chairs outside, as my Dad came towards me, I saw my Mom helping one of the people laying on the chairs. He kissed and hugged me, and told me that they were caring for refugees from another planet, who came here for solace from a war that was going on. I then realized it was MY Earth they were talking about. They looked so sick. My Mom was feeding them that water I had on the command ship. My Dad told me to go upstairs and seek refuge from the impending storm coming through. The 5 of us went upstairs and found a bedroom with 4 twin beds. The three girls pushed their beds together to create one gigantic bed, while my husband and I tried to figure out how we would sleep with just one twin bed. I remember walking about my parents home, and seeing that so much of it was not being used. Blank walls, furniture under white sheets, very stark. But all I kept thinking about was my son.
Before I knew it, I was back on the command ship, and realized I missed my son TOO much, and next thing I knew, I felt myself open my eyes and I realized I was in my bed, laying next to my husband, and my son was standing above me going, “Good morning Mom”. It was 9:48 AM today. (Sunday)
I laid in bed, feeling a little sad about leaving where I was, but grateful I got to look into my son’s big brown eyes. Fear still lives within me. The fear of separation. I learned long ago my son is a much more advanced soul, an incredibly old one for that matter, and that he is here to teach me many many lessons. He is a soul family member, as is my Godson, Brandon. I still try to figure out who is in my soul family, and who are just passers by in this life of mine. I truly hate having that fear of separation. And I think these trips I am taking is helping me understand that separation isn’t necessarily a bad thing. But right now, I’m grateful I don’t have it. I need my son in my life like a person needs air to breathe.
So although I can escape my realities to explore others, in the end, and right now, THIS is my home. And in understanding that, I need to learn to NOT fear while being here. But let me tell you, it sure is fun to get away every now and then. 😉
If you are interested in learning more about astral traveling, different dimensions and other planets/universes, please feel free to contact me.
Because I am getting ready for bed, and I wanted to share this with you. Good night, sweet Hobbits. Good night. ❤
It’s been a crazy year so far! Yikes! From getting this wedding planning done and getting Scott and I up to the altar, to going out today to look at 4 more houses, sigh….so much going on I don’t have time to think sometimes. Thankfully I have family and friends to call on me to check up on me to see how we’re holding out, it’s nice to take that break and listen to what’s going on outside my own inner world. Over the last month or so, I have found that the same conversations I’ve been having with people seem to have a revolving theme: TRUTH. And what a powerful time to be having these discussions, during this time of reflection. One doesn’t have to be a practicing Christian to understand the power of Lent, and contemplating life and the world around you. It’s only natural, and I suggest if you have the urge, do it. Meditate, and contemplate your life.
If there is something that people are most afraid of, it’s this: The truth. Truth can take a quiet and simple life, and rock it to its very foundation. Truth can change everything. And these changes can be painful if you’re learning the truth after living a lie, or at least living your life deep within lies. I’ve been there, and it’s NOT a fun time to have to accept truth, and pick up the pieces from the destruction that the truth can bring. But you want to live the truth, right? If you LIVE in truth, there will NEVER be destruction. Truth gives you freedom, truth gives life. Lies can only hold you for so long, until the universe comes back, like the tides in the oceans. After living in deceit, truth comes like a tsunami in the night, hitting you unexpectedly and with such force you can’t get up to breathe.
I live in truth every day, even if it means not having relationships with people I love. When you associate yourself with people who choose to believe lies over the truth, you become part of the lie. You become part of that universe that will experience that tsunami like event and you too, will become a part of the problem. It is the hardest thing to do, to walk away from people you love, to live your truth. I get it. And I respect it. People had to walk away from me, because I was living a lie, many many years ago. Those years spending in lies only resulted in years of picking up the pieces and cleaning up the many mistakes I made in the past. Trust me when I say, the universe knows EVERY lie you told. EVERY story you falsed, EVERY part of your history you tried to sweep under the rug. It comes back! In a way, I’m sad, because I have to watch people who don’t deserve it, get swept up in lies, and there’s nothing I can do about it. We are all on a journey, and sometimes we have to watch another’s journey unfold and that tsunami hit. It reminds me of the Japan Tsunami that hit years ago; many of us sat in front of our TV’s, watching that gigantic wave slowly work its way to the coast, and there was NOTHING that we could do about it. That’s how it is with Truth. It will always make its appearance when the universe is ready to reveal it. I can’t imagine now living a lie. The sleepless nights of worry of getting caught in something, dealing with the repercussions of those who would be affected by your deceit. It’s a sad thing to watch. But in the end, it’s just another way of saying the Universe is the boss. Our Creator is the boss. Like a parent grounding the child for its misdeeds, the universe grounds us when we are dishonest with ANYTHING. That’s part of being in a 3 dimensional world. In order for us to survive, we need to continually ground ourselves, check ourselves, when we get out of line. Because if we don’t do it, trust me, the Universe WILL.
In the end, most people don’t want to know the Truth, because the Truth would require change. And most people don’t like change. It’s a very sad spiral many people fall into, and it takes great courage, swallowing your pride, and belief in yourself and yourself ALONE to make those changes to understand the Truth. Only then will you find that peace of mind. It becomes harder for people to manage the whole “woe is me” sense of being, and people will not want to be associated with you if you choose not to live the truth. This is where breakage of relationships comes into play, and until we can all live in truth together, separation is imminent. It’s up to you. You have more power than you realize.
That is what is most heartbreaking. People have the power. And people choose the power of deceit over the power of truth, because it’s easier and requires less work. What people DON’T understand, though, is that the power of deceit is the harder of the two, so the question is, do you want the power of self-gratification of getting something quickly through deceit? Because the moment you choose that path, you end of with a lifetime of hard work, obstacles and pain.
(“Truth or Sweet Lie” by Luz Tapia from Deviantart)
Truth = LIFE. Deceit = LOSS.
Your move now.