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Upcoming Novel…

I have a story.  There’s no reason for it, only a collaboration of many dreams, visions and ideas that have come into my life over the course of the last ten years.  As I sit here listening to Book of Days by Enya, my belly begins to stir, as if I need to DO something.

Well, right now, all I can think of is that I need to WRITE.  

A few years ago, I began a novel.  It’s nowhere finished.  I’m only about 42,000 words into it, so I’m just a little over 1/3 done.  The story alone is beautiful, but it’s missing something.  It’s one of the reasons why I haven’t moved forward on it.  Last year I may have worked on it 3-5 times.  Towards the end of the year I did work on it before and after work for a total of 6 hours, but quite honestly, I’m not making the dent I was hoping for.

But right now I have these visions and dreams that NEED and will be a part of my story.  Yet, right now, I feel like I want to give you a glimpse of my story. Like a section off a section of the story itself.  

My visions:

Have you ever had the feeling of euphoric bliss?  You know that feeling that comes with such ecstacy you are almost certain it isn’t real.  It is almost as if you are having an out of body experience.  The feeling begins in the solar plexus of your body, that shoots downward, upward and outward in fissions of pure delight and joy.  Sometimes we even see “speckles of stars” from our peripheral vision, let alone an absolute feeling of such deep emotion it can bring you to tears.

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And how deeply sad that we, as humans, rarely have that opportunity to feel what our souls only know?

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When we transferred into the physical body during the contract negotiations of the life we were going into, one of the very things we give up is the constant state of euphoria.  When you are behind the veil, that very veil that the human race has sadly been kept on the other side of, you only know of your ego’s needs and desires.  At times of desperation, we turn to things that will give us temporary states of bliss.  Be that in foods, relationship, drugs, alcohol, medicines, etc…they are all ego sanctioned properties that the soul does not experience, because it is the HUMAN aspect of this life that gives us this opportunity to be a part of.  

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The soul, as we know, is pure.  Our soul is the essence of the being.  So in order for that being to understand the physical matters of the world, the soul creates a contract that lists the lessons the soul is willing to endure in order to ascend into higher levels of consciousness, leading us closer to our Prime Creator.

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There is no ONE Heaven.  In fact, there are many.  So many, in fact, it is not even worth to count, because there are just too many for our Heavens are as vast as the Universe itself.  And just think:  Our galaxy is one of 100 billion stars.  And outside of our galaxy, scientists counted 100 billion galaxies.  A person would have to be supremely arrogant to think we are the only beings living.  Can you ONLY imagine all the other beings out there, let alone galaxies and Heavens?  We look at our one little planet…Earth.  How glorious she is.  How beautiful.  When we think of Heaven, many people who believe in certain religious dream of a big city where people who are good go to.  And that people who are bad, go to Hell.

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My dears, I wish it was only that simple.

I do not believe in Hell.  Well, at least the Hell that is described in modern day.  We are beautiful beings of light that our Creator made in the image of themselves.  No one can ever get me to agree that there is a place that this loving and compassionate Creator throws these sinful humans for eternity.  

In saying that, I DO believe that there is a dark and desolate place for people who need additional lessons learned before they are able to enter the Eternal Heavens.  Some people call it Purgatory.  I really don’t call it anything, because I try very hard today not to label.  But in my heart, I do believe this place exists.  And then and only then, when the ego has been pulled apart and broken down to the essence of humility, do these beautiful but scarred souls release themselves into the eternal bliss of Oneness with God.

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I also believe in other races outside the Human race on Earth.  I believe in the Sirians, the Arturians, the Pleiadians, the Andromedans, the Orions and countless other species that inhabit the grand Universe.  With these other races, we are only then given the chance to reach out to so many other Heavens.  But all these Heavens are provided for and Created none other than the Prime Creator, we all know as God.  

This, is what I see when I close my eyes at night.

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I hear soft whispers of singing and humming, along with ripples of energy waves that look like rainbows floating in the skies.  The skies, depending on where I am, are colors of Purple, Blue, Green, Aqua, Yellow, Pink and Orange.  They are almost hyper in color.  I smell scents of Jasmine and  Honeysuckle, Sandalwood and Sage, Sweet Grass and Lavender.  I am in the best of health, and have found myself on many occasions being able to fly, jump hundreds of feet into the air, and land as if I was a dried leaf landing on its final resting place. I have strength beyond my wildest imagination. But there is one thing I cannot leave out.  The joy.  The euphoria.  The absolute state of ecstatic bliss I feel in this state is beyond comprehension.

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I look out to the iridescent seas of aqua and almost a metallic white (as I said, the colors are almost hyper, or neon)…I have an energy pulsating within me, sending sweet sparks of happiness through what I would think to be my veins.  I am ready to go to my Eternal Home.

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What does my home look like, you ask?

From what I can remember, the air itself has a pink aura to it.  It might be because almost every tree where I live has beautiful sweet pink flowers blossoming from them.  The day light hours are always hazy but no humidity.  Nighttime turns the beautiful blue skies a light purple, with stars so many it is impossible to count.  In a way, it is always Springtime.  There are paths around this area that are made of crystals and cobblestones.  The houses where souls live, are different shapes and sizes, but all made from the same material:  Crystal, a luminous metal of some sort and birch wood.  Parts of the homes are decorated with the most beautiful gemstones of emeralds, diamonds, rubies and so forth.  My “village” or “town” that I live in is always buzzing with some form of celebration.  Music is always playing, everyone is so happy and so peaceful.  If I had to put a physical look to it, my home is a combination of the town of Duillond and The Shire from Middle Earth. It might be why both these places always stirred some emotional connection within me.  If you don’t know what I’m talking about, below are some pictures of the perceived look of these places…

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I look up into the sky, and see beautiful ships passing by, as well as comet-looking streaks that gives me the acknowledgement that they are indeed, fellow souls on their travels.

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So, imagine if you will, a never-ending Spring time.  Everywhere you go, there are flowers and trees continually blossoming and yet, always fruitful.  The colors are extremely vivid, almost overwhelming your sense of sight.  Even the air itself, has a buzzing energy you can actually see as metallic flecks of rainbow energy dazzling around you, as if pixie dust was actually part of the atmosphere.   The sky during the day was a bright sky blue, while the Sunrise and Sunset gave off dazzling hues of reds, purples, pinks and orange.  The nighttime sky was a shade of lavender purple that makes the starry skies light up in magical wonderment.

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These are my thoughts, my visions, my dreams.  It is what helps me sink into sleep at night.  To dream of this heavenly home like the Undying Lands in Tolkien stories or Valhalla in the Norse tales.  As if Ireland, Scotland, the Maldives and New Zealand decided to become one big land.  That is my heaven.  I hope to share my story to you all one day.  Now, if only a publisher would be remotely interested in a story like this?  

 

The Ascension Series: When The Soul Awakens…

As someone who was raised Catholic, I was taught at a very young age that #1, we were alone in the universe outside of Heaven and the Angels and Saints, #2, Catholicism is the only way back to Heaven, and #3, we need to be afraid of God because He judges us if we led a good life or not, and if we did not and go to one of his priests for forgiveness, then we were going to eternally burn in the fires of Hell.

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Now, obviously that’s not all I learned.  And I will forever be grateful for the education that helped me learn about God.  Even though I no longer am a Catholic, I have nothing but the utmost respect for this religion and all that it has to offer.  I am grateful to say that as the years passed, more Catholics have become more progressive in the idea of modern day Catholicism. Also, most people know now that as I no longer resonate with Catholicism; it started in my early 20’s, I experienced something many years ago that that no matter what, I could never go back to this religion. Never.  Now, before I go into where I am about to go, I’m going to say that if your tolerance towards my life purpose bothers you, then I ask you to kindly move along and not finish reading. Consider yourselves gluttons for punishment if you feel you need to continue reading my writings then criticize me, then there’s nothing I can do to help you! Haha! So, let’s go down this rabbit hole…

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Many years ago I had what many people would call a spiritual “awakening”. It was in the Summer of 2004. I’ve heard many people ask “what does it mean to be ‘awakened’?” Think of it like this: A person with bad vision tends to see things in a blurried state. After a trip to the eye doctor, the optometrist prescribes eyeglasses. When you put on a new pair of glasses after walking around in that blurried state, seeing everything as clear as it could be, colors bright and mesmerizing…it is a profound moment! Everything looks different. Almost a sensory overload. Things that were always there but your eyes never saw them until now. That’s how a spiritual awakening is. Thoughts, beliefs, ideas, patterns…so much what you thought were to be true, turn out to be not what your soul considers to be true. When your soul “awakens”, it becomes this thought provoking atmosphere of an underlying phenomena that was always there from the beginning. For me, it was truly a scary moment. Yet, I really did not truly awaken to all of my senses until Winter of 2009, when I encountered a tremendous traumatic event that resulted in the full awakening process to happen almost in a split second. WHOA! When a person awakens, all those ideas and philosophies that I truly and utterly lived by, dissipated. They no longer serviced me. And this can be a truly painful experience for people; I know it was painful for me. To have to go against everything you thought was right, showing everyone who “knows” you to see you in that different light; is an extremely challenging time for any human.

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In summary, my time of awakening began 11 years ago, in 2004. But I really did not fully awaken until 5 years afterwards. And for the last 6 years, I have dealt with the repercussions on those around me who still have their eyes closed. Now, before anyone starts jumping to conclusions, I am NOT saying I am better, I know better, I know more, than anyone else. I am just saying that my soul has awakened to the possibilities that the impossibilities I thought in life might actually be POSSIBLE. That’s all. Sadly, those words I just stated above will come across as arrogant or even manipulative, and please know, that is not my intention. We all awaken at our own time. Whether this life, or the lives we live after. We all come back to Spirit.

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So, here’s what happened to me:

I went from being a social butterfly to a homebody. Sometimes, I was almost in seclusion. I felt safer being indoors and away from other people. I became introverted. Who knew something like that would happen to me??? I was in clubs in school, leads in musicals and plays, a principal lead vocalist for a band. I LOVED LOVED LOVED being the center of attention. I loved the fame I felt with people liking me, and I would do anything and everything possible to GET people to like me.

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I went from being a semi-religious person to being an all-out-right-on-new age spiritual enthusiast. I know it pains my family to hear the term “new age”, because as catholics, it goes against its conservative foundations! I get that! Can you only imagine how scary it is for me to have my mind think and believe these things, only to one day turn around and say, “I really can’t believe in this anymore”??? Can you only imagine how difficult it has been for them to feel absolute frustration in knowing I will never go back to being in that frame of mind again?

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But here’s the thing: I went from being a person who assumed people will bail me out to someone who took sole ownership and responsibility for my life. I can’t even begin to tell you, how much money my parents alone wasted on bills I didn’t pay, items I expected them to buy for me, geesh, I was truly the most selfish and spoiled brat of them all! I was not a pleasure to grow up with. Trust me.

I was a pathological liar. Yup. I hated how I was living and did what I could to get out of playing by the rules. This is classic Starseed DNA right here, as a Starseed’s DNA is always kind of a “rogue” or “rule breaker”. (Wait, what’s a Starseed? I’ll get into that later)…But I hated the rules of my home, and I lied, cheated and stole to get what I wanted. A little sociopath, mind you. Maybe that might help many people understand the dynamic I have today with current people in my life. It takes time for Karma to release you from your faults.

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So, why did I awaken then? Well, as I see it, I was living on such a lower vibration for the first half of my life, and now the second half it was like I woke up out of a horrific nightmare! Relieved that time is but an illusion, and that although I messed up in the first half, I still have a life and still have reason to be here! So, I promised myself to allow this journey to unfold, and see where it takes me. Where it took me though…

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I started learning about the term “Starseeds” a few years back, when I was trying to research the different ailments, physical, mental and emotional issues I was having from being awakened. When a soul awakens, there are effects the physical body goes through, as the physical body is 3 dimensional, and your soul is so much more! My anxiety increased along with my depression, I constantly didn’t feel like Earth was really my home. And most of all, I could feel and sense the energy of everyone around me, which seemed to be in turn, causing me to react to it in every sense of the word. So, if I was near someone who was crying, I would find myself feeling hurt in my heart, and I would end up crying too. If I was around someone who was mean, I could sense a darker energy around me to the point it would scare me and I needed to back away, or worse, I would react to it. This whole process has been called so many things, but the biggest term for what I have been going through is called, “Ascension”.

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(credit to http://www.starseeds.net)

My energy vibration from my soul had woken up out of a sleep state in this 3 dimensional world, and was longing to return back to its origins. At least that’s what I’ve gotten out of it. I started looking towards the stars and realizing around 5 years old, I was obsessed with the sky. Amazingly enough, I was obsessed with Unicorns as well. I had an imaginary playmate who would play “Heaven” with me in my bedroom. And I remember pretending I was living in the sky, on a floor made of clouds, and everything was in this beautiful and majestic state of awareness that I couldn’t comprehend, but it was “home” to me. How does a 5 year old dream up stuff like that?

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Going through the Ascension process, where your soul is awakening to moving from the 3 dimensional living to the 4th, 5th, and dimensions further up the line. As of right now, my soul is currently moving into the 5th dimension. Things I cannot explain happen around me. From being able to see auras and colors around a person’s body, to being able to feel a human’s energy vibration and helping that person to heal. My psychic awareness opened like a flower in full bloom, allowing me to hear my spiritual guides and angels. I can talk to them, understand them. And with that gift, I can now properly channel them. Beings I have channeled are Archangels. Mainly I have been able to channel Michael, Gabriel, Ariel, Uriel, and Cassiel. In terms of Ascended Masters, I have been able to channel Jesus, Mary, Hekate, Lakshmi and St. Germain. In terms of Spiritual Guides, I have been able to channel someone by the name of Galea. It was Galea who was able to tell me something most extraordinary recently during a channeling: My Soul Name, as well as my Soul Origin. I actually had to do it several times to make sure I was getting the right information.  She was able to also confirm the symbol I have been writing, or “doodling” since before I could actually write. This symbol is my Soul Name. One day, I hope that I have the courage to tell you all that, but for now, as I am still learning, I would like to keep my name to myself.

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In the end, I’m still me. Just on a deeper level now. I have an absolute respect for everyone’s journey. It’s amazing to be able to see that, and understand that judging someone negatively for their journey is just as dumb as judging someone for the color of their skin. In the end, we’re all one. We’re all in this together.

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